Chose Him
Section Four

Kinan stood up, staring at the tall building. See the flickering lights of the street. The wind blew slowly, caressing Kinan's face and hair. Every now and then he stared at the dark sky, there were only a few stars tonight.

Without you, I feel broke

Like I'm half of a whole

Without you, I've got no hand to hold

Without you, I feel torn

Like a sail in a storm

Without you, I'm just a sad song

I'm just a sad song

[Sad Song - We The King feat Elena Coats]

I don't know how many times Kinan played that song. The song that inflames Kinan's current feelings. Kinan is like that, often describing his feelings with a song. If he feels the song is in accordance with his feelings, then he will repeat the song until he feels bored.

The air outside is getting cold. What's her husband doing? His mind asks in the heart. Kinan refused to call her husband. Clear circles suddenly trickled again, Kinan recalled how affectionate his husband and best friend had been this afternoon. Kinan hated himself. There was nothing he could do but cry and cry. Because just by crying, Kinan's feelings will be much better.

••••

"NOW"

Naya screamed and woke up from her sleep. His breathing was stingy, cold sweat splashed all over his body. He looked around his room and ran out. He saw the guest room, Kinan wasn't there. Naya ran, but as she was about to get out. He saw a woman on the balcony. Slowly, Naya approached the woman. As he patted her shoulder, the woman turned around.

"Kinan?"

Kinan turned around, his cheeks looked wet. Naya was just dreaming. Kinan is still there. Even though his heart seems to be broken.

"Lo why, Nan?"

Kinan. Naya approached and grabbed her best friend. Kinan's cry broke into Naya's arms. Naya could feel Kinan's suffering. Naya could feel the pain Kinan was feeling. Naya can't do anything.

"Why do you have to torture yourself, Nan?"

"Gue doesn't know" Kinan replied softly.

"Dwant Reno! You deserve to be happy, Kinan!"

Kinan was silent.

"What else do you think? They are obviously thieves!" Naya said.

Kinan just lowered his head, he took his breath in deep.

"Gue's not ready to lose Reno, Nay!" Answer Kinan.

"As far as you are, deh" Naya began to resign.

••••

"Until when are we rich?" Asked a beautiful, shoulder-haired woman who was lying spoiled on Reno's chest.

"I'm scared, Ren" he continued.

"Fear what?"

"I'm scared, Kinan knows. Then he'll beat me up. He opened my disgrace to everyone. I was afraid Kinan would embarrass me" Rani said.

"No" Reno replied.

Rani looked at Reno's face not understanding.

"You know Kinan? She's a very nice girl. He couldn't have done that to you" Reno replied.

Hearing Reno praise Kinan, Rani's heart was hot. He turned to look at Reno.

"You love Kinan?" Ask Rani.

Reno fell silent.

"Why not answer?" Ask Rani again.

"I love you and Kinan" Reno replied.

Reno's answer leaves Rani hurt. He wanted Reno to just love him. He didn't want any other woman besides himself to be in Reno's heart. Without him noticing, a clear grain dripped.

"You crying?" Reno asked as she touched Rani's shoulder.

Rani did not look, she shook her head slowly.

"Here, look at me" Reno said as she carried Rani into her arms.

"Why are you crying?" Ask Reno.

"I don't want to lose you, Ren" replied Rani.

"I don't want to lose you either" Reno said.

"Also Kinan?" Ask Rani.

Reno was silent again. She loves Rani, but she also loves Kinan.

"Jawab, Ren" urged Rani.

Rani releases Reno's embrace. He got out of bed and put on his clothes.

"Where are you going?" Ask Reno.

"Go home" answered Rani Ketus.

Reno immediately moved and immediately grabbed Rani's tiny body from behind.

"I'm sorry for bringing you into this position. But understand, I love you Ran. I can't lose you" whispered Reno.

"If so, leave Kinan" replied Rani

"I can't"

"You love me so much, don't you?" Ask Rani again.

Reno did not answer. He rubbed his face rough.

"You don't have to answer, I already know your answer. You just need my body, you just need me to have fun"

Without saying goodbye, Rani leaves Reno. Reno's not after Rani. He let Rani go. He grabbed his phone and called Kinan, but Kinan did not answer. He tried to contact Kinan many times, but Kinan did not reply.

"Aaaargghhh" Reno slammed her phone and rubbed her face rough. Why did it become like this? His inner. Reno bowed while looking at Kinan's photo.

"Where are you, Kinan?" reno. At a time like this, he only needed a Kinan smile. It needs the warmth and tenderness of Kinan. Slowly, Reno began to shut down.

••••

"Good morning" Kinan said, smiling at Reno.

Reno was startled, she immediately got up and hugged Kinan.

"Where were you last night?" Ask Reno.

"Nginep at Naya's apartment, sorry I forgot to tell you" Kinan said. He acted as if nothing had happened yesterday.

Reno hugged Kinan. This time he hugged her. Kinan tried to hold back his tears from falling.

"Mandi gih, it's noon. Later you will be late to work" said Kinan while releasing Reno's embrace.

Reno nodded and immediately got out of bed. Kinan looked at Reno while smiling. He tried to hide his pain in front of Reno. He tried hard and acted as if nothing had happened and knew nothing.

Reno did not want to stare at Kinan's smile for too long. Because it just makes him feel guilty. He went straight into the bathroom to refresh his body and mind.

While waiting for Reno, as usual Kinan tidied up the mattress and prepared clothes for Reno to wear to work. While tidying up the mattress, suddenly there was a bracelet dropped from the mattress. Kinan took the bracelet, and observed the bracelet.

"This is Rani's bracelet" Inner Kinan.

Again Kinan felt like he had been stabbed by hundreds of arrows. Her tears fell back. His legs are limp, his chest is painful. Rani was here last night? Rani was in this room last night? His mind has gone somewhere. Once Reno took Rani to her house. Once Reno took another woman into her room. Kinan could only cry.

When Kinan heard Reno's voice coming out of the bathroom, Kinan immediately threw Rani's bracelet under the mattress and immediately stood up.

"Loh baby, what's wrong with you?" Ask Reno.

Kinan wiped his tears, he smiled at Reno.

"What's wrong, oh yes, your clothes are ready. I'll go ahead and prepare your breakfast" replied Kinan.

Kinan immediately moved out of the room leaving Reno staring at him confused. Kinan went down the stairs with a somersault. Her tears are flowing again. What's he supposed to do? Inner Kinan.

Reno continued to look at Kinan who was daydreaming while playing his spoon.

"Why you, baby? How can you not eat breakfast?" Ask Reno

"Why not napa. I'm just not feeling well anymore" replied Kinan.

"You want me to go see a doctor? If you want, I can take a day off today"

"No need. I have been sleep deprived. Last night we talked to Naya until late at night. I will sleep again, let my body enjoy" replied Kinan.

"Jas. But if there's anything tell me" Reno said.

Reno said goodbye, Kinan did not take him to the front. As he heard the sound of Reno's car leaving the trunk, he again shed his tears. He threw the plate and glass in front of him. He cried bitterly, even several times he shouted to vent his anger. He kept crying, until his breath felt tight. Her tears did not stop flowing.

"Oh my God, Sister Kinan" cried Bi Mur shocked to see Kinan crying.

"Mbak why?" Ask Bi Mur.

Kinan did not answer, he continued to cry. Bi Mur tried to calm Kinan down. He took a glass of water for Kinan.

"Diminum first, ma'am. Let's be quieter"

Kinan took a sip of water that Bi Mur gave him.

"Don't tell Mas Reno that I'm crying, Bi" pinta Kinan.

Bi Mur nodded. Kinan immediately headed to his room. Without orders, Bi Mur immediately tidied up the fragments of dishes and glasses that splattered on the floor.

In the room, Kinan sat in front of Rias's desk. Kinan saw how pitiful he was. Her husband, the man she loved so much, had an affair with her best friend. He can't do anything because he's too afraid Reno will leave him. He can't live without Reno. He could not see Reno happy with another woman, happy with her best friend.

Arriving, the Kinan device rang. There was a message from the WhatsApp group.

Rani

[Girls day out, yuk. It has not been a road for a long time]

Kinan just read it, didn't reply. Suddenly he remembered the bracelet Rani left in his room. Kinan replied to Rani's message.

Kinant

[Yuk, when?]

Naya

[Gue nudge]

Rani

[how is this weekend?]

Kinant

[Siip]

Naya

[Okay]

Rani

[OKAY. To the regular mall yes, see you]

Seriate