Chose Him
The Seventeen Section
It's been a week, Rani locked herself in her room. He did nothing but cry. Rani sees the update of social media deacon Naya, she is getting married. Rani is happy to know that Naya is finally getting married, but she also feels sad because she cannot attend the event. Not that she didn't want to, but Naya didn't invite him. Rani really lost everything.
For a week, Reno did not contact him at all. But Rani doesn't care. He just missed his two best friends. Clear thread back drips. Now, Rani can only regret all her deeds, regretting her stupidity.
Tok.shock.
There was a knock on the door from outside the room. Rani is not flinching.
"Roman.."
Call the voice of a man familiar to him. Yes, Reno.
"Open the door, Ran." he said again.
Rani didn't bully him.
"Knees.."
Rani still does not flinch.
"I'm sorry, I was too much. I want to fix everything, I want to fix our relationship. Please, give me one more chance." said Reno.
There was no response from Rani. Reno leaves Rani. He put a bunch of roses along with Rani's favorite porridge.
Rani gets out of bed and opens the door when she finds out Reno is gone. He saw a bunch of roses and a bowl of porridge. Rani grabs the flower, she sees a card. Rani opened it and read it.
Dear Rani's
I'm sorry that my late attitude has hurt you so much. I don't understand how I feel right now. I've lied a lot to you. I haven't completely forgotten Kinan, I need you, Ran. I need you to get up, I need you to be able to erase all traces of Kinan. I need you by my side. I'm sorry, Ran. But that doesn't mean I don't love you. I love you, but I also need time. I hope you understand and forgive me..
I love you
Reno.
Rani's tears fell again. Berati is right, Reno's heart still belongs to Kinan.
****
Kinan stands in the balcony of the apartment. He closed his eyes and breathed in the air slowly. The air tonight is quite cold, because it rained hard this afternoon.
His breath felt so heavy. To this day, Kinan still did not give any answers to Andre. Kinan tried to avoid it for a while. Until he is ready and knows what will answer Andre.
"Miss.."
Kinan was surprised to hear Naya's voice.
"Eh, Nay. What's up?" Ask Kinan.
"Lo daydreaming?"
"No"
"Let's go. Wagging who is it? Andre?"
"That's who's daydreaming of him" Kinan replied. His face began to blush.
Naya smiled ignorantly looking at the hue of Kinan's face that was starting to blush.
"Here deh" said Naya while inviting Kinan to sit in the seat that is in the balcony.
"Honestly, you have the same feeling, right?" Ask Naya.
Kinan.
"Honestly, I'm your best friend" said Naya.
"Gue's confused, Nay"
"Why?"
"I feel the same as myself"
Kinan sighed.
"Lo must know, the wound in my heart has not fully healed"
Kinan.
"Lo's still in love with Reno?" Ask Naya.
"No. I have no love for Reno. For me, Reno is just part of the past. I just can't make peace with my own feelings. I'm scared, Nay. I'm afraid it'll all happen"
"But you deserve to be happy, Kinan" said Naya firmly.
Kinan looked into his friend's eyes.
"The wound can be healed if someone is ngobatin. I know, maybe this is too soon for you. But, it doesn't hurt to try. I'm sure Andre's a good guy"
"Well, are you sure he's good?" Ask Kinan.
"Relatedly"
"Lo know where he's good?"
"From you"
"From me?" Kinan scratched his head, he did not understand Naya's answer.
"Yes from lo"
"You mean what?"
Kinan increasingly did not understand what Naya was saying.
"That's all?" Kinan asked with a look of disdain.
"The good man can lead his woman to become a better person. Not easy to say love. Let me ask, Andre never menegombalin you not during lo deket same him? Or code him if he likes you?"
Kinan.
"Kalo Reno? What was he doing when he was making love to you?"
"much. Give flowers, give chocolates, say what a lot deh" replied Kinan.
"That's the difference"
"Andre kaya is typical of people who do not like to bully the word love. Different from Reno who sumbar there sumbar here. From the way they've been different, you want to name them both?" Naya.
Kinan was silent
"Nan, I don't mean lo. But try thinking about it again. There's rarely a man as good as Andre"
"But I'm not ready to remarry, it's too soon for me, Nay.."
"Who asked you to marry?" Tanya Naya glanced sharply at Kinan.
"Lo can give Andre a chance but not directly mean marriage. You can get married again when you're ready. This is also a test for Andre. He's ready and willing to wait or not. There's no harm in trying"
Kinan. Naya patted his best friend's shoulder and went to his room.
"Lo try to think about it"
Kinan sighed. He stood up and looked at the dark sky. His heart was worried, his wound was really not dry yet. His heart still aches from Reno and Rani's betrayal. The last time he heard that they were getting married. Without feeling, clear circles dripped on Kinan's cheeks.
****
"O Allah, the Lord of hearts. The Lord guides. Give your servant guidance, Rabb. O Lord, who gives, it is for Thee that the servant asks, O Lord. Can I ask for happiness? May I ask that there be no more tears and tears in the future? Can I ask for a household that is safewadah warohmah? Can you please Rabb? Can't you?..."
Kinan returned with tears. His cheeks began to get wet, his breathing started to get a little tight.
" O Allah, O Rabbi, if Andre is the best man you have chosen for your servant, if Andre is indeed a servant, then ease everything. Eliminate all doubts that are in the heart of the servant. However, if Andre is not the best for the servant. Then show it to your servant Rabb. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I do not want another farewell, Rabb. Servant, please give your servant guidance, for You are the best guide.."
****
Kinan was walking towards the apartment lobby. However, his steps come to a halt as he crosses paths with a woman who is no stranger to him, Rani. They were silent and staring at each other. Rani looks nervous, while Kinan is much calmer.
"Can you talk for a second?" Rani opened the conversation.
"What's wrong?" Answer Kinan flat.
"There's something I want to talk about, just a minute" Pinta Rani.
Kinan did not reply, he immediately walked towards the sofa located in the apartment lobby. Rani follows Kinan and walks behind Kinan.
"What's up?' Ask Kinan.
"Gue.uhmm.I want to apologize"
Kinan raised his eyebrows.
"I'm sorry for everything" said Rani.
"Udah cave sorryin before you apologize" Kinan replied without looking at Rani's face.
"Nan, you want to go back with Reno?"
Kinan was shocked to hear Rani's words.
"What do you mean?" Ask Kinan in wonder.
"Nan, Reno love same lo. And I just realized now, that there would be no place in Reno for me. I apologize for all my mistakes, and turn to Reno. I want to see him happy, and happy he's just the same lo, Nan"
Kinan shook his head as if he could not believe what Rani had said.
"Lo's crazy, Ran!"
"Why? Is there something wrong with my words?" Ask Rani.
"What do you think, my heart and my feelings are toys? After all that happened, after I took off Reno, now you come and ask me to go back to Reno"
"Why? Don't you still love Reno?"
Kinan.
"Lo still loves Reno?" Tanya Rani was firm.
"No!"
"Lied!"
"What good is it I'm lying to you, Ran?"
Rani remained silent. Kinan looked at Rani's face sharply.
"Gue doesn't love Reno. We have each, and Reno has accepted all my decisions. I've forgiven you both, so please, I want to be happy too. Don't ever bring up or ask me to go back with Reno because I don't want to"
Kinan sighed.
"Ran, my heart hurts too much. The wounds you have inflicted are too deep but I do not want to continue living with these wounds. I took off Reno, so I could be happy. I also want to be happy, Ran. Instead of you busy thinking about the happiness of Reno, you better happy yourself, so you do not destroy the happiness of people again. Excuse me"
Kinan also moved to leave Rani who was downcast in the apartment lobby. While Rani is still down, she feels guilty and ashamed of Kinan. What has he done? Rani really feels like a fool. Rani felt like she was dropping her own pride in front of Kinan.
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