Chose Him
Eighteen

Rani was pensive in her room. Many times he rubbed his hair rough. A clear thread kept dripping down his cheeks. He continues to curse his stupidity. Why does it have to be like this? Why is he so stupid? His mind continued to be turbulent, angry, disappointed, regretful. He regretted all his actions.

Stand off..

[Can we talk, Ran?]

A message came in, from Reno. Rani chose to ignore him. He crumpled his body in the bed, slowly closing both eyes. He was not tired, but his heart was tired. It turns out that it is true the words of his future father-in-law, Rani can only have Reno's body, but will never be able to have Reno's heart. Same with all his family members. There's no place for Rani on Reno and her family's day. Rani cried, until she fell asleep.

****

"Why daydream?"

Kinan turned his head, and only replied to Naya's question with a smile.

"Is there anything else you think?" ask Naya.

Kinan shook his head, he let out a rough sigh and leaned his body against the sofa.

"Jude, I stay. Today I want to see the venue, if there is anything you can contact me" said Naya as she passed away from Kinan.

Kinan held onto his chest. His heart throbbed linu. His heart began to be filled with worry. He could not lie to his heart, even though Reno had hurt him, but in his heart there was still a little love for Reno. Reno is his first love, lying if Kinan has forgotten Reno. Forgetting all the memories with Reno. Forgetting Reno's warm embrace. The soft touch of Reno. Yeah, he's missing Reno right now.

Without notice, the clear dripping circles wet Kinan's cheeks. He has accepted Andre's love, he has accepted Andre's proposal, Andre is a very good man. But why, his heart had not been able to fully accept another man? His heart, still owned by Reno although not completely.

Tok..

Suddenly the sound of knocking on the door broke Kinan's daydream. Kinan immediately wiped his cheek and put on his hijab. Before opening the door, Kinan took a deep breath.

"hey!" greet Andre while smiling.

"Wa'alaikumsalam' reply Kinan.

Andre laughed with amusement.

"oh yes, Assalamu'alaikum beautiful woman"

"what the hell" said Kinan blushed in embarrassment.

"Road yuk!" bring Andre.

"Where?"

"There is!"

"Ih, sebel" Kinan said as he moved his lips.

"Ready ready, later you also know where I want to take you. I'm waiting in the loby!" Andre replied as he left Kinan.

Kinan immediately entered and prepared to be ready.

As usual, Kinan wore a culott suit and a pastel-colored tunic with a hijab in matching colors. She rubs her face with thin make up. It didn't take long, he was ready and looked fresher.

Kinan walked to his apartment. He saw Andre waiting there.

"It's really pretty" Andre praised

"Lo why the hell? Gombal mulu" Kinan replied resentfully.

Andre was just laughing looking at Kinan's sullen face.

"Like on" Andre asked.

"Where are we going?" Ask Kinan.

"Later also you know" said Andre, smiling.

Kinan turned his gaze outside. He saw the lights of the vehicle tonight.

Wise men say

Only fools rush

But I can't help falling in love with you

Shall I stay?

Would it be a sin

If I can't help falling in love with you?

His eyes closed, recalling all the memories together with Reno. This is her favorite song with Reno. Everywhere, this song is played by Reno. Without realizing it, a pair of eyes were looking at him while smiling. Andre clasped Kinan's hand tightly. Kinan opened his eyes and looked at Andre. Andre smiled, but Kinan's heart hesitated. He was afraid that he would disappoint the man who was holding his hand tightly.

Kinan bowed and again threw his gaze into the street. He was confused by his feelings at this moment. Why did he miss Reno so much? Why the more he tried to forget Reno, the stronger the feeling. Is Andre just his escape? Does he not love Andre? He again felt tormented by his feelings.

***

"We just cancel our wedding plans, Ren" said Rani firmly.

"You mean?" answer the confused Reno.

"I want us to stop, Ren" said Rani again.

"Stop what? You mean what?" asked Reno who was getting clueless.

"Ren, I'm sober now. I can't really have you. Your heart, even your family belongs to Kinan. No matter how hard I try to get you, trying to enter your heart, it is me who is getting sicker. Because in reality, you still belong to Kinan. Your heart, still belongs to Kinan" said Rani.

Reno was silent and bowed.

"You don't have to answer anything, because I already know the answer. I'm sorry, because I can't continue our relationship, Ren. I'm sorry" Rani said.

He tried hard, trying to hold back his tears. He tried not to cry in front of Reno.

"But, I love you, Ran" Reno replied.

"But your love for Kinan is far greater than your love for me" Rani said.

"No, Ran. I really love you"

Rani shakes. He knows Reno is lying.

"I beg you, Ren. I also want to be happy, without the shadow of others" said Rani. This time he couldn't hold back his tears.

Reno approached and hugged Rani tightly.

"I'm sorry, Ran" said Reno.

Rani sobs in Reno's arms. Reno also tightened her embrace.

"Go back, Ren. I know, Kinan is still in love with you" said Rani Lirih.

seriate..