Ustadz Heart Conditioning
Confession
The sound of the dawn prayer clearly resonated. Ustad Sidiq was ready with the prayer mat on his shoulder. He saw Dira who was still sound with his sleep.
"Deek let's get up, the dawn has entered" by shaking Dira's legs.
"Hmmm.."
Slowly opened his heavy eyes.
"Wake up Dek, morning prayer. Praying to the mosque. Do you want to pray in the mosque?"
Say Ustad Sidiq gently.
"Dira prayers at home Mas"
Dira replied spoiled with eyes still closed.
"Yes, we left first. Assalamualaikum"
Ustad Sidiq exited the room.
Dira threw himself back into bed. His intention was to collect a life that was still half floating somewhere. But the drowsiness that is still strong attacks make Dira fall asleep again.
Cklaac.
"Assynogaic"
Ustad Sidiq said with Father who had just returned from the mosque.
"Girishal"
Replied Mom from the kitchen immediately following out.
"Mother Dira is awake?"
Ask Dad
"It looks like it's still sleeping. I haven't heard his voice"
"Let me see Dira in my room first, ma'am"
Ustad Sidiq said, with a nod of his head from his mother and father. Soon Ustad Sidiq went upstairs.
Cklaigk..
"Assynogaic"
Ustad Sidiq said as he entered his room.
"Astagfirullahal enzyme"
Ustad Sidiq was very interested in looking at Dira who was still sleeping in the same position as before.
"Dekk, Adekk get up"
Ustad Sidiq said, patting Dira's shoulders softly.
"Hmmm.. "
Dira sat back with his eyes still closed
"Have you prayed?"
"Not yet"
"Astagfirullahal. Quick prayer deck. The hunt is over time.
"Yes, just a little more"
"No flutter of decks, now"
"Ckkp.. Aye"
"Astagfirullahal adzim deck, dekk"
Shaking his head, Dira, who was upset, walked to the bathroom.
Ustad Sidiq saw Dira who was doing prayers. After finishing the Dira prayer that was about to move from his seat immediately Ustad Sidiq gave a Qur'an in front of Dira.
"Najai yuk dek. Adek know one letter from the Quran, so for him one good by reading it, one good multiplied into 10 goodness in each one letter, masayallah"
"Yes mas"
Answer Dira briefly.
"Now Adek began to teach yes, let Mas see. Later replace Mas who taught Adek who listened"
Soft Ustad Sidiq.
Dira began to read ta'awudz in continuing to read surah al-fatiha and surah al-baqarah.
Ustad Sidiq corrected some of Dira's readings which still had errors.
The chanting of the holy verse of the Qur'an read by Dira is heard downwards. Father and Mother who were in the kitchen looked at each other and smiled while saying their ham.
Because they have not heard Dira teaching for a long time.
Dira has finished teaching. Replaced with Ustad Sidiq who now began to teach and Dira who listened.
Dira's chest is like getting a vibration when hearing the melodious voice of Ustad Sidiq. With a voice that follows the makhroj and tajwidnya sound very beautiful.
"Dec, handsome Mas ya sampe not blink so"
"hee.. Just ordinary"
In a panic Dira immediately moved and folded her face.
While Ustad Sidiq chuckled at Dira's panicked face like a thief caught wet.
"Dec wait a minute"
Say Ustad Sidiq when Dira is about to leave the room.
"What's up, Mom?"
Said Dira without looking.
"Sit here first, I want to talk"
He patted the side of the bed where he was sitting.
'Duuhh what else. By the way, stay by the way'
"Yes what's wrong?"
Said Dira back after occupying himself beside Ustad but there is still a distance.
"Sir, it is not good to curse the husband in the heart. Sins of law"
'Opaan again ne. Start lecture'
"His face began to grow so"
Smiling looking at Dira's annoyed face.
"Dek, listen to me. Now you are my wife. His responsibility Mas, all the things Adek did had an impact on Mas. For example Adek out of the house does not close the aurat then the sin will flow to Mas, Adek does not do prayer unless it is idolatrous, the same when Adek before marriage. If Adek does not close the aurat and neglect the prayer then his sin will flow to the Father. Do you have the heart to see Father and Mas in torment in the fires of hell?"
Soft Ustad Sidiq.
Dira just bowed his head. Iya began to feel tightness in his chest considering all this time he who often went out of the house opened the aurat. Denying his parents' words even shirking his prayers.
"Mas talk like this because Mas love the same Adek. We both want to learn to improve. Draw near to God, so that we may be in heaven together. Sorry if I asked you something a little personal"
Said Ustad Sidiq who was nodded by Dira.
"What when Adek girl ever commit adultery. Zinah Mas's intention here is for example to come into contact with the opposite sex who is not mukhrim, or make other physical contact?"
Dira was more and more subdued to answer the question of Ustad Sidiq.
"Astagfirullahal. Indeed, man is a wrong place and khilaf but the best man is willing to improve himself. Adek wants to improve from now on, right?"
Ustad Sidiq softly began to wipe the head of Dira who had drained his tears.
"Yes Mas Dira wants to"
Answer with raucous.
"Start now learn to close the aurat. Praying on time and asking God for forgiveness for sins and mistakes of the past"
Who was nodding his head by Dira.
"If I may ask. What kind of physical contact is there? Have you ever apologized for having a husband and wife?"
Dira quickly shook his head. A smile rose on the lips of Ustad Sidiq.
"Then what was it like?"
"Company, cuddle and kiss"
Reply Dira was getting sobbing.
"Astagfirullahal. From now on, there are many special Dek"
Dira just nodded.
"Sir, can Mas remove the kiss marks on Adek's lips?"
Ustad Sidiq stared at the face of Dira who nodded in agreement.
'Bismilbornohmanirrohim'
Slowly, Ustad Sidiq finally removed the kiss marks on Dira's lips.
Tok tok tok tok
"Breakfast, son"
Mother said from the outside immediately Dira distanced herself from Ustad Sidiq who smiled gently at him.
"Mother Mom called, Dira came out first"
Said Dira nervously and went straight out of the room after tidying up her face that had exhausted crying over her mistake.
While the Ustad held his chest that had been beating irregularly.
By saying hamdalah and a big smile.
