Thank you my soul mate
Farewell
From there we started to make. To live the day so happily and so well. He completed his OJT on time but unexpectedly after graduation he was placed to work at Pangkalpinang. Yes and we have to be in contact remotely again.
We trust each other, every day always spend time by phone until late in the morning.
Long story short, I became a scholar. Then I worked as a teacher at the Kindergarten School.
It doesn't feel like we've been in a relationship for 5 years. The feeling that I had been keeping for him for almost 8 years (because from school to now with him) never imagined would end up in vain.
That day we spoke seriously. We talked about us. He plans to bring me and his parents together. He's putting together a schedule when he comes home we'll discuss more serious things about us.
Everything was going normally without any suspicion. A month after that conversation suddenly he often had no news. And it really disappeared.
I've been looking everywhere but no one knows and I'm even more surprised he's blocked everything I've come into contact with.
After 1 year has passed. I was still waiting for him, still believing he would come to me. It turned out that God granted my prayers, I met him. I'm glad he came to see me. I never thought about it maybe he was busy with his job.
“Jelek sorry I” said
“Gpp why I'm trying to understand that you may be busy” reply
“Yes I am busy and I shouldn't let you” he said
“Gpp. What matters is that you now have” I said
“I was forced to quickly marry my mother” she said softly and sadly
“But Al sorry I can't marry you...”.
Like being struck by lightning during the day. My heart was instantly broken. How not, the man I loved for almost 9 years easily said goodbye.
“Al I know you're surprised but sorry I can't. And the disappearance of me yesterday because I have proposed to others” he explained without hesitation
“Why?” Much
“Al I'm sorry”
“Why?” I still kept silent not looking at him. He just kept quiet.
“Why huh?” I asked for the umpteenth time. I wish what I heard was a lie.
“Sorry Al I can't explain my reasons. I hope you can be happy even if not with me. Sorry Al I had to say goodbye. You take good care of yourself and hopefully soon meet your soul mate”
She just lightly left. Leaving me who still can't understand the situation. I wanted to cry but I couldn't force my tears to come down. It hurts, that's all I feel.
For months I tried to make peace with my heart and my wounds. Not trying to open your heart to new people. Just want to make my heart happy. Yes I'm down but I can't hate him either. After all, he is my best friend. And until anytime it will remain that way.
I said to myself “when can't be a good choice, at least be a good friend”. A fool? Might as well. But I don't intend to repay anyone. I just want to live a happy life with no grudges and hate for the rest of my life. Happy as I can.......
