
Chapter 44
Although it feels heavy Hafsah has made a decision. He also let go of Ali's embrace.
"Bang, do your best. Make me happy, because your paradise is with your mother. I'm sure you can make Mom happy. Don't waste your time, don't regret it" Hafsah said with a sharp look at Ali.
"Darling …."
"I'm sure you know which is the best to choose" Hafsah said, without wanting to hear Ali again.
For Hafsah, Ali had already reneged on the promise he had made. Especially that promise in the name of God. Once you renege on a promise, there will be more promises that will be reneged on by it.
"Hafsah has agreed that you marry Sarah. Don't think much of it anymore, Ali. Prepare for your wedding" Ruqoyah said.
The doctors and nurses there were silent. Both felt very sorry for Hafsah. As women of course both can feel empathy for the veiled woman.
"Do the preparation you ask, Bang," said Hafsah and walked away to the door.
Again Ali stopped Hafsah's steps by hugging him from behind.
"You know that you don't want this. For your brother is the only soulmate until the end" said Ali.
"So you said I wasn't selfish. So I too do not be selfish. Mother's happiness is with Sarah by your side, make that happiness and I will make my own happiness" Hafsah replied.
Ruqoyah and Ali's moans came over to her mother in fear of something bad happening to her. It was then that Hafsah opened the door and left the room.
Hafsah's footsteps felt limp, he walked on shamelessly while holding on to the wall. He could no longer describe his feelings at this moment. His mouth kept muttering istighfar along the way. Until everything feels blurry and ends dark.
"Hafsa. Hey, realize! What the hell happened to you?" Ghani who was delivering his grandparents to check up was shocked when he saw Hafsah walking on a barren path like a man with no energy.
"Quick get him to the ER!" grandfather Qomar and Ghani run to the elevator to the ground floor.
"Doctor, please!" ghani shouted while carrying Hafsah's body.
"Why patient?" ask one of the nurses while helping Ghani to break down Hafsah's body.
"No, know. Suddenly he fainted" replied Ghani.
A doctor came to check on Hafsah. Ghani stood with a pale face and broke out in cold sweat. I don't know why he was afraid something would happen to him.
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The circumstances that pressured Ali made the man stressed. Moreover, his mother who kept asking to marry the woman of his choice. In addition, Hafsah is also difficult to contact and that makes it more uncertain of his mind.
'Oh my God, what should I do now?' batin Ali.
Ali could not go anywhere because no one was waiting for her mother. Usually he will rest in exchange for Hafsah.
The day had turned into evening, but Hafsah had not yet come. This made Ali even more worried. Seeing that his mother was sleeping well, he decided to go home for a while. He wants to see the state of Hafsah.
As soon as Ali got home there was no sign of anyone inside. All the dark lights and curtains have not been closed. He went in and looked for the whereabouts of his wife. He thought that Hafsah was in their room, but when the door opened there was no one there. All the rooms in the house did not show the figure of a veiled woman who always filled her days.
"Honey, where are you, anyway?" muttered Ali.
Ali returned to the hospital with an erratic feeling. He felt very lost to Hafsah, even though they had only been separated for about 10 hours. It would have been very hard for Ali if Hafsah would have left him.
Ali walked with a mind that breezed so out of focus. He hit someone until he fell.
The person who collided with Ali immediately stood up and patted his clothes dirty with dust. Both of them were shocked when the netra they were fighting each other.
"Sir Ali?"
"Mother Midwife Maryam?"
Both call at the same time. They've known each other for a long time. When Ali and Hafsah were newly married, they contracted in a rented house owned by a midwife. They were neighbors for a year.
"How are you, Ali? Why your feet?" ask the woman who is the same age as Ali.
"Alhamdulillah, fine. A few days ago I had an accident and I'm still on medication so I can walk normally again" Ali replied.
The atmosphere in the corridor tonight felt very quiet and a little gripping. Plus the cold air temperature because it is raining drizzle.
"What is Midwife doing here?" tanya Ali because as far as she knows her place of duty Midwife Maryam is in the district puskesmas.
"Father's sick. High blood disease and sugar recur," replied Midwife Maryam.
Feeling bad to talk while standing up they decided to go to the hospital cafeteria to buy something warm. Both of them walked slowly because Ali could not walk fast like a normal person.
"Then, what about Mrs Hafsah?" midwife asked Maryam curious because Ali was only walking alone.
"Alhamdulillah, my wife is also in good condition" Ali replied lying. He felt that the state of Hafsah was not okay.
As they exited the elevator, it was as if Ali had seen Ghani running across the corridor. However, he ignored her because they already had nothing to do at this moment.
"Oh, yes. I used to hear that I was on a pregnancy program. How do you have children?" ask Midwife Maryam who used to be a place to ask by Hafsah around pregnancy.
Ali's face looked sad. Yes, he was sad because the struggle of the two of them until now had not succeeded.
"It seems that God has not given us trust" Ali replied in a clear manner.
"Hopefully Hafsah can get pregnant soon again" said Midwife Maryam.
"What does Midwife mean? Hafsah get pregnant soon?" ali asked with a surprised and astonished expression until he stopped his steps.
"Hafsah had experienced a miscarriage due to being too accomplished so that the baby could not be saved because it was too late to get treatment at that time" replied Midwife Maryam.
"What?"
Ali felt his tribe being pulled out by force so that his body was like a lifeless carcass, falling down on the dirty and cold floor. He also raved.
"I–tu .. is impossible. Why didn't Hafsah tell me?"
"I'm sorry, maybe it's something to do with her mother-in-law" said Midwife Maryam.
Like being hit by a godam, Ali looked at the nano to Midwife Maryam with a feeling of pain so much that he felt like shouting loudly to vent his pain.
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What has happened in the past? Why didn't Hafsah tell Ali about her miscarriage? Follow their story, yes! A lot of patience, yes.