Not as Beautiful as His Love Poems
I Just Want to Be Assumed

"The spirit is learning" said Bram encouraged Lena.

"Yes, sister." said Lena smiling cheerfully.

They have now reached the campus, Lena salim to her husband.

"Cie, cie, mess... After all this time, I can finally see you guys messing up again." - Grace. Anisa, Rosi and Emi smile at the couple's smile.

"Oh, Grace. What the fuck is that like." Lena's angry. Bram just laughed in response to Grace's words.

"I'm sorry, I can't linger. I'm sending my wife to you, yeah." said Bram, saying goodbye.

"Ready, brother. Just leave it to us." said Grace, Rosi and Emi in unison while saluting. Anisa just nodded.

"Okay, they've been, until sister also became a strange follower because of them." Inner Lena while covering her face with her hands.

...***...

Finished class, in the room of the English literature department. Lecturers finished giving their subjects and ended the learning.

"Hurry up ah gather with friends." Emi's mind was carefree.

Tidying up his books then walking out of his room of majors with light steps. Because too engrossed and a bit rushed to walk, Emi accidentally hit someone to make herself fall sitting on the floor.

"Ouch... Sick." moaned Emi holding her painful butt.

"Hey, who is this?" ask someone who was accidentally hit by Emi, smiling grinning.

"K-you.." shocked Emi when she raised her head.

Immediately Emi became creepy to realize the person she hit was her ex-boyfriend, Raka.

"duh... Though lately I have always avoided if accidentally met or crossed paths with him. But, why now even.." Emi's inner worry.

"ahahahahah... Why bengong? You're still the one who hasn't changed huh, Emi." said Raka laughed kindly.

His hands were extended to help Emi stand up. Emi was amazed and welcomed Raka's hand.

"You haven't changed. Plain, naive, childish and useless." said Raka suddenly until Emi was shocked made.

"It's just right that your parents don't like you that much" Raka said again with a slanted smile.

"W-why are you talking like that? I should have been the one, why did you suddenly turn out like this? You were not like this before. What's my fault with you?" emi asked, her face almost crying.

"Emi, Emi-I... You are really naive, yes. I'm good it's not because of love but because of your money" Raka said, linking her two fingers that signaled money was not a sign of love.

"Yes, I already know that." muttered Emi.

"Oh yeah?" shocked Raka.

"I should have, at that time I just received an offer from Rosi to beat you up first." muttered Emi unconsciously.

"Huh? What did you say? You have been brave, even though so timid." said Raka beaver. He raised his hand to throw a slap there was Emi.

"Duh, I shouldn't have said that before." Inner Emi, closed her eyes in fear.

"What the fuck? How dare the same weak." shouted a woman.

"Eh? This voice. "inner Emi, opened her eyes slowly. He was shocked to find that it was Alik who was holding Raka's wrist that wanted to hit her.

"What the hell? Just meddle in other people's business." angry Raka.

"If you're being rude like this to her, I won't hesitate to shout to let the campus people come here and beat you up." threatened Alika bravely.

"Curtain! That's right." Raka grumbled, threw Alika's hand rough and walked away from there.

"Aren't you papa, Emi?" ask Alika worried.

"Yes, not papa. Thanks, Al. You were so brave." said Emi.

"It wasn't your boyfriend, was it? Why would he be?"

"former. We broke up a long time ago." Erat Emi.

"Oh, sorry." said Alika was wrong.

"Why? No papa, just say it, don't be so damned. I will listen." said Alika saw Emi who seemed to want to vent but seemed hesitant to say it.

"Once, when we were still dating, Raka was so kind and understanding. His words were also friendly and polite. I like it because of its nature. But why is he now..." Emi did not continue her words, her face looked so sad.

"I always helped him when he was in trouble and in need of money. Until my friends once advised me not to trust him too much. But, I didn't listen to them because Raka was very nice. There's nothing wrong with me trying to help my boyfriend. I just want to be useful to someone. Moreover, the reason my friends are also not so strong why they can not like Raka."

"When he killed me, I was shocked. He said because I was too childish. I was so confused, why is that why he even cut me out. I admit I was childish and I understand his decision. Maybe he felt uncomfortable with my nature because of his mature nature rather than me."

"She said, break up with me because I really can't stand my childish nature. And instantly dating a woman who's prettier, has a lot of money and looks more mature than me."

"I think he's a good guy I just found out and so sick of knowing his true nature. I used to like it, but now I don't like it" Emi said grimly.

"ah! Sorry, you even listened to my curses like this." said Emi realized.

"No papa, it's important that now you're free of him and also know what he really is. So, don't think about her anymore, yeah." said Alika trying to comfort Emi.

"Thank you, Al, already want to listen to my curses" Emi smiled clumsyly.

"We must often vent so as not to constantly make a burden on the heart" said Alika understood.

"Actually ogah anyway. Why also I should be horrified curhatan him. But, how else, I should get the support and trust of the people who are on my target side. So that my plan goes according to what I hope. And it turns out that this guy is naive." Inner Alika was paled.

"Yes already, I'm leaving first, yes." said Alika.

"Yes" said Emi nodding her head.

"Hhh... " Emi sighed harshly.

I don't know why I'm thinking.

"Not useful."

"It's just that your parents don't like you that much."

The talk of Raka was so ringing in my mind. Why would he talk to me that way? What wrong? I think he's a good and sincere person. Turns out...

In fact, I have liked it so much that I want to help her who is in financial distress. I'm so stupid, I just want to be tricked like that.

But... Why is he talking like that? Why would he know? And I've covered it so tightly that no one knows except my friends.

My family's problem, nobody knows. But, the one who accidentally knew about my life the first time was the tomboy Rosi. We became friends because our life story was more or less just as sad.

And to Lena and the others, I just told you enough. Even so, they are good people. They want to keep my life story a secret and always encourage me not to always be sad.

I-i know... I was not liked by my parents.

All this time I have always been considered useless and troublesome for my parents. Since childhood, I have been untalented and unreliable. And always compared to my sister.

Brother is more and more talented than I am. Brother is always spoiled and in love whereas I just always smile in the corner.

But, when my father and mother did not think of me, strangely my brother was always there and loved me. For a moment, I didn't bother about our parents' favoritism, which was important there was a sister, I was okay.

I don't know why, one day I accidentally got my brother hurt. My mom and dad were so angry with me. It's okay, get angry. It was my fault. But strangely enough, my brother wasn't angry and didn't hate me. Brother is wretched because of me.

Because of the accident, my father and mother wanted to send me to the dormitory, so as not to want their favorite daughter to be hurt because of me again. But, my brother defended me because I was a coward and could not escape from them.

Brother proposed that he was the one who would go to the dormitory. Our parents were angry at first, but eventually relented.

I know what you mean, she wanted me to be loved by our parents. But, there are even worse. Our parents don't like me more and I miss my sister more and more.

That's why, when you come back, I'll show you that I can change. I can be like a sister too. I will try, learn and be a good and friendly boy like a big brother. I will show you that I am well and have a family that loves me.

But, there I even became plain, childish and easily tricked. I admit, it's my nature. Although I can't be completely like my sister, but I will try my best.

All this time, I always pretended to think my parents were nice to me. Because I don't want their names smeared because of me. I thought, I can already fool everyone with my innocent attitude, but it's not really, for Raka.

Thats okay. Even though I still remain unthinkable, the important thing is that I have good friends who are always there for me as long as my brother is not around.

I also know why my father and mother told me to find another boyfriend or to marry me, so that if I get married, I will leave the house because I will come with my husband later. So they can bring their brother home. Are you and mom happy that I'm not around and go far away somewhere?

Actually I want to refuse because I do not want to marry young and want to build my career later. I have no thoughts of getting married yet... Young?

Ah... I remember Lena. I don't know why, I know how Lena felt at the time. I knew how she felt when she was forced to marry young.

I feel guilty for her because I also had a hand in getting her married so young. But, fortunately Lena looks happy with her husband and in-laws.

Uh... Because of Raka, my mind went to and fro. Because of her, my heart ached again, remembering what I should not remember.

BUKS!

"Ouch!" emi cried out in pain holding her nose. He accidentally hit someone.

"Uh... Why do I often bump into people today?" inner Emi was upset.

"I - I am sorry. Are you okay?" ask a guy.

He panicked to see Emi because he thought Emi was crying because of being hit by her, but in addition to the pain in the nose actually Emi had wanted to cry because she was reminded of her past.

"Huh?" shocked Emi saw the man in front of her.