Not as Beautiful as His Love Poems
I've decided

On the sidewalk, Grace and Lena stand waiting for an online taxi that never came. They were seen carrying bags of food from the restaurant where they had eaten for souvenirs at their home. But, Graceelah's bag is the most.

They could be there because Ardan and Cintia had to deliver Anisa who suddenly had a stomachache, because of the shock of eating the food of the rich who were immeasurable. And it just so happens that Grace and Lena's house is opposite to Anisa's.

Lena still looks lethargic. Grace who from this morning saw it so, her mouth can no longer be held back.

"What's wrong with you, Len? From this morning was that sluggish?" ask Grace.

"Grace... You didn't? I'm just saying this as you are. " said Lena hanging her words. Grace was still waiting to hear it.

"I... I was rejected by Sister Sultan yesterday, Grace." said Lena bowed lethargic.

"God. Do you finally express your feelings?" grace asked in disbelief.

"Yes... You don't, Grace... After I revealed my feelings, he scolded me instead. It hurts so much, Grace, " said Lena, unknowingly falling tears. Grace who saw him felt sad too.

"My heart feels empty. Why is my life so sad? If it's like this, it feels like I don't want to live anymore" said Lena kalut.

"What are you talking about, Len?" Grace was suddenly enraged at Lena's words.

"You don't know how I feel, Grace. How my life is going." said Lena while wiping her tears.

"What the hell are you, Len? Just like that did you say your life is languishing?" angry Grace.

"You don't know how to be me, Grace" Lena said.

"You can say that. It's just a matter of 'love', you want to give up your life?"

Lena wanted to be angry at Grace's words. But Grace immediately attacked again.

"I told you that the Sultan doesn't like you. Why are you still so insistent? Just because he rejected you, you said your life was languishing?" grace said with a trembling voice and eyes that began to water.

"You're still lucky, Len. There are still men who still like you, even though he knows you like other people. Just so you know, I've always been jealous of you. You always get love from your parents. Your family has enough economic needs. What else is lacking? What else do you want? Just because your love was rejected, you want to end your life?" said Grace at length, her voice starting to hoarse.

"You're luckier than me, you know. Try to trade your life for mine, you'll know what it's like to be me. Hua... I hate Lena..." Grace suddenly cried, to the point that the bag of food she was holding from earlier fell to the ground.

Lena became aware of what Grace had just said. She hugged Grace with regret.

"I'm sorry, Grace. I didn't mean to offend you. I didn't mean to say that. Sorry, Grace." said Lena crying along with Grace who was in her arms.

"Don't touch me. Go awayl. I don't want to be your friend anymore." said Grace, but let Lena hug him.

"I'm sorry, Grace..."

Unheard of them a lot of people then look up to them.

...***...

With Rosi and Emi, they became friends in college. It also happened because of an incident that resulted in them becoming hostile. But over time they became friends.

When Lena and Grace make trouble, Anisa's the one who's going to reprimand them. To the extent that abi and Anisa's two older brothers forbid her to befriend them. The reason for that was because it could have a bad influence on Anisa. But, whether because Anisa's head has been shorted or what, Anisa still remains friends with Lena and Grace who are ridiculous not that kelulungan.

Even though they are in college, their majors are different. Lena majored in economics because she followed the Sultan. Anisa majored in education because she followed in the footsteps of her deceased uminya. While Grace majored in health with a scholarship because she wanted to be able to care for her sick sister properly.

Because they have been friends for a long time, they understand each other. About Lena, about Anisa and about Grace. Lena and Anisa know very well that the silly and nosy Grace likes to hide her feelings. Harboring all his sadness behind his nosy attitude.

Lena and Anisa also know, Grace changed her nickname from Anggun to Grace because she likes to feel dissatisfied with herself.

Grace doesn't really believe in the same thing as 'love'. But strangely, he likes to match others.

Grace does not believe in love because she often sees her father and mother fighting in front of her eyes because of economic problems. His father and mother married based on love alone. While the problem in fostering a household must not only love it, but must be balanced with economic needs as well.

Plus, Grace's younger sister who sits in the middle of Junior High who is often sickly. Just a little tired, his sister will immediately fall ill. Grace was able to take care of her sister armed with the knowledge she learned in the campus. But if it is very severe, his sister was forced to be taken to the nearest kepuskesmas around his house. Unable to be taken to hospital due to their economic limitations.

Grace loves her sister very much. That's why, sometimes he likes to be envious to see Lena and Cintia who like to fight even snapping in front of his eyes. Because he can't be with his sister.

Sometimes for Grace, eating rice topped with sambal and soy sauce with side dishes seen from cooking shows on TV alone was profitable for her.

His life problems alone are sad, plus his love problems that must be shipwrecked because he is late to realize his own love.

All this time, Grace never showed herself to anyone crying. But, if he was crying, he would immediately spill everything. Because he could no longer bear the burden of his life.

Relax, Grace. Be patient.

Someday there will be time. The time when the wheel will turn up and young leaves will grow at the end of the branches that will green the tree. Ships that are always adrift in the vast sea that does not edge, will certainly find the island also someday.

...***...

After Lena and Grace were satisfied to pour out all their grief in tears, the taxi they had been waiting for finally arrived. It was as if he knew when to come pick up his passengers.

On the way home, the two of them just sat in silence. Somehow the fate of their food that was in the bag that fell to the ground earlier, maybe the contents were messy.

Arriving home, Lena's father and mother are confused to see Lena who came home with a puffy face. Even more confused to see the bag containing food brought by Lena, the contents have been mixed like a hodgepodge.

In her room, Lena looked at the house across the street, the Sultan's house.

He began to recall the words of his mother who advised him. The words of the Sultan who rejected him subtly. And it was Grace's words that awakened her. Long time pensive.

"I've decided." Lena's mind is steady. He immediately met his parents who were busy chatting in the family room.

"Dad, mom... I've decided. L'm... "