New Breath
Chapter 56's

The night came too soon. Farhan's nursery was again deserted after Mama, Reyhan, and Nadhira had passed. Now, only Papa is with him. Indeed there will be wisdom that humans can extract from every event. Reyhan's trap makes Farhan and Papa's relationship improve. Also the trap was like a way to uncover the secret that Farhan had been hiding from his family. And since three days ago, every night always accompanied by Papa. It makes Farhan now no longer feel awkward to be near Papa. She was without shame complaining.

The three days of falling inside the white room was so heavy Farhan felt. Especially after the first chemotherapy. Every second of it passed so slowly and tormentingly. But Farhan did not want to lose. He continues to fight for healing. Otherwise, he would never be able to return home and gather with the people he loved.

Farhan looked at his father who was now asleep with a sitting position leaning on a chair beside the patient bed. Lying if Farhan doesn't feel sorry for his father. Of course what happens to Papa now is Papa is very tired. How not? After work, the man just went home to clean up and change his clothes. Later, he went to the hospital to replace the others who accompanied him in the hospital. Papa doesn't seem to have time to rest more quality.

“Papa did this to make amends for the mistakes Papa has made with you all this time. Also want to change the times that Papa should give you.”

That's the line that came out of Papa's lips when Farhan asked the man to just go home and rest. It's not that Farhan doesn't like Papa accompanying him. He also does not want to be selfish. Working all day in the office, of course, has drained a lot of Papa's energy. And Papa should just rest at home. Not even to the hospital and accompany him. Not to mention if Papa also had to stay up all night just because Farhan experienced side effects from chemotherapy that was undertaken.

Farhan glanced at the clock stuck to the wall of his ward. Almost two o'clock in the morning. However, his eyelids have not been able to work together to sleep. He was sleepy, but could not sleep either. He has tried, only his efforts have failed continuously. Now, he can only be silent and busy with the contents of his head that is never empty. After this chemotherapy, I don't know what kind of treatment procedures will be undertaken in order to heal. But Farhan will live it with pleasure. Because, many hopes are at stake for his recovery. Not only involves his own expectations of course, but also the hopes of his family and the hopes of his lover.

Talk about lovers. Farhan so remembered the hijab-wearing woman who managed to attract his heart in one meeting accidentally. Is when Finza visits Nadhira to the house. Now, the notification must have been full of messages sent by the woman. Until now, he has not given any news. Hm, isn't Finza his sister-in-law's best friend? Surely Nadhira has told Finza about his condition now. However, why hasn't Finza come to know about her presence in the hospital? Ah, perhaps Finza is still busy with work and can not be abandoned by the woman, thought Farhan advising himself not to cause negative thoughts to his lover.

However, it's a lie that Farhan doesn't miss the woman. Three days without news it felt like something was lacking. How's Finza doing now?

Farhan had not been able to find answers even if only with a mere presumption. There was such a great turmoil in his stomach that it made his hands reflexively smother his own mouth. That powerful nausea came back. He curled up on the thin sickly bed while trying to get rid of his nausea. It may disappear with a ticking second. He also did not want to disturb Papa's rest so soundly since earlier.

“Hoek!”

Apparently Farhan could not hold back the unpleasant turmoil in his stomach for long. The remnants of food last night went outside without permission until it was left unceremonious and littered the floor of Farhan's ward. It's not enough to get there. Even though there was nothing else he could get out. He still wants to vomit. Really, this is the point where it feels like he wants to give up.

“Pa,” call Farhan with the rest of his power. Papa may be really tired to the point of being undisturbed like that and still be faithful in his braids. “Papa,” call Farhan once again. His stomach was already feeling sore. His mouth feels bitter. He needed something to get rid of the bitter taste in his mouth. However, he could not move freely because his energy seemed to be drained.

I don't know how many times Farhan forced his voice out and called out to Papa. Of course while he who tried to resist the other turmoil in his stomach that came back. Unknowingly her tears had already melted away. From the day that his family found out about his true condition, Farhan's emotions were completely unstable. He was crying very quickly. He also lamented more often about his condition. Then, all that could calm him down was Papa. Reyhan himself could not do that. In fact, if you remember, Reyhan is the only person closest to him. Yeah, maybe Farhan just wants to be spoiled by Papa. Anyway, Papa doesn't mind either.

Papa's body moved slowly. He slowly opened his eyelids that felt heavy, because of the drowsiness that was so great. However, the drowsiness disappeared in an instant upon seeing the conditions around him. He got up and approached the patient bed. “Jeez, Son. Sorry Papa for leaving you to sleep,” said Papa while wiping the sweat on Farhan's face with his bare hands without feeling disgusted. He then landed his butt on the edge of the patient bed and tried to calm his son down. Papa combed Farhan's hair after that. However, it seems Papa forgot that one of the side effects Farhan experienced was his hair that would slowly fall out. Papa gasped at Farhan's strands of hair stuck to his palm. Then, try to hide it so Farhan doesn't see it. Because, it could be if Farhan saw it, it will make Farhan's feelings again destroyed.

“Pa, Farhan's stomach is very painful, Pa,” moans Farhan while pressing the part of his stomach that feels very sore. “Mouth Farhan is also bitter,” he continued moaning without shame. Farhan who always seemed strong in front of everyone and could always do anything now metamorphosed into a weak, spoiled, and whiny Farhan.

Grieved that Papa's heart heard a groan full of pain his son. Meanwhile, he could do nothing to alleviate Farhan's pain.

Collapsing Papa's tears. He could not see his son at this time. He could not imagine how Farhan was fighting himself like this. It must have been very painful for Farhan. “Papa should what, Nak?”

“Culf, Pa. Cold,” groaned again with a different complaint. Holy hooch! Various feelings take to approach Farhan. I think he wants to give up. However, he cannot. There is a lot of hope that other people will hang on to him.

Without a word Papa directly changed Farhan's position to sit leaning. He then tightly embraced Farhan's body which began to shiver while stroking his son's arms which continued to whimper. “Patience, Son, Patience. You are strong, yes. There's Papa here with you.”

Papa further tightened his embrace so that Farhan's body gets more warmth. He continued to whisper positive and passionate sentences so that his son did not give up until this point. Because, there are still many points that must be passed by Farhan to be healed.

Papa continued to talk tirelessly, about random calming things. Talk about plans that will be done later if Farhan is healed. “Don't give up, yeah. Papa, Mama, Sis, Adek, Kak Nadhira, and the twins are always waiting for your recovery. After that, we will go on a picnic together to the beach or wherever you want. Strong, yes, Nak.”

Although no sound was heard. However, Papa could feel Farhan's slow nod. It made Papa's smile with a thin terulum. “Now you sleep, yes, son. Let's not squeamish anymore. His stomach was not bitter and his mouth was not bitter. Yes, dear, yes,” said Papa persuaded very sincerely and gently. Then, he hugged Farhan with a pair of arms while stroking Farhan's back. He gave a brief kiss on the top of the boy's head.

“Pa, if Farhan is tired, do not force Farhan again, yes.”

Papa was silent for a moment. But try to be ordinary. “Iya, Son. Papa won't force it. But, Papa is sure that Papa's child will definitely not feel tired of fighting.”

I think Papa just wants to cry. But he couldn't do it. He could only hug the body tightly. As if he were loosening his arms. Farhan will leave him.

“Pa, Farhan sleepy.”

“Sleep, Darling.”

“Papa don't go.”

“Papa won't leave. Papa here nemanin you.”

Then, Papa let the eyelids close slowly. Although he was afraid, if the eyelids were not open again the next day.