New Breath
Chapter 49's

Almost three in the morning. Papa still can't close his eyes. Again he was made to mind by Farhan's condition. Always in his mind came the question. What happened to Farhan? Was Farhan really sick, but the boy didn't want to talk?

Papa looked to the side. From the lighting of the sleeping lights he could see the peaceful face of his wife who was sleeping. “Ma, don't you feel anything strange about Farhan? Papa's scared, Ma. Papa is afraid of something bad happening to him,” said Papa in a small voice like a whisper. He then touched Mama's face and gave her a kiss on the forehead of the woman who had been with him for more than a quarter of a century.

Having felt enough to pour out about his thoughts on a lonely night. Papa finally chose to get up and get out of bed. Slowly he stepped outside so that the sound of his footsteps did not disturb the deep sleep of the wife. Likewise when Papa closed the door again. It was so slow that it barely made any sound.

Papa's footsteps moved towards Farhan's room. Somehow her instincts asked her to come to the second child's room immediately. Either for fear of Farhan going out at night like he used to or indeed his feelings are not at all good. Papa knocks slowly on Farhan's room door. “Farhan, this is Papa.”

Until almost a minute Papa waited. There was no confirmation from the owner of the room. However, Papa could still hear there was movement inside there. That means Farhan's still awake. However, why didn't Farhan open the door for her? Or maybe …

Papa immediately turned the door knob of Farhan's room. Goddess Fortuna was siding with the man. Farhan's door was unlocked from the inside. Then, the first to welcome Papa is the view of a messy room with sheets of tissue scattered on the floor around his son's bed. Tissue sheets that have changed color to deep red. Then, Papa raised his head and saw Farhan who was only stunned on the bed still with his hands covering his nose.

“Papa,” said Farhan because he was shocked by the sudden arrival of Papa. For the sound of knocking, he heard nothing because his hearing that was also buzzing as the bang for the bang grabbed his head. And the solid red liquid thing did not stop dripping.

“Yes Allah, Farhan. What's wrong with you, son?” Papa panicked and went straight towards the bed which was also inevitably affected by the bloodstains flowing from Farhan's nose. He helped Farhan to clean his face from the remains of the stain of the rancid object very painstakingly.

Farhan. He just kept quiet and let Papa do it himself. Let him enjoy how Papa looks at him. After all, when else could he feel what it was like to be noticed by his own father. Then, Papa's voice diverted Farhan's attention.

“You've had this many nosebleeds, son. Let's take Papa to the hospital,” bargain Papa. However, it was rejected outright by Farhan. Accepting Papa's offer is tantamount to uncovering his own secrets that he has always tried to cover up.

“Nevent gone, Pa. This is often a natural Farhan if exhausted,” replied Farhan origin. Just now he finished speaking and felt a little calm because Papa managed to stop the blood coming out of his nose. The liquid thing again flowed more heavily than before. In fact, it could be said like water being spilled just like that.

Papa was shocked to see what Farhan was going through. I don't know how much blood came out of his son's nose. He grabbed a rough sheet of tissue next to Farhan. Then, try to clean up again in a panic.

Farhan who could not bear to see the look on his father's face also touched Papa's hand with the rest of his energy that began to slowly drain. “Do not panic. It's just a regular nosebleed, Pa.”

Papa shook his head. “Ngak. This is not unusual, Farhan. How can you nosebleed this much.”

“Pa .…”

“Ngak. We need to get to the hospital now. Papa should know what makes you like this.”

Farhan's afraid. He did not want to be taken to the hospital. He's not ready if his father finds out.

Until the blood stopped flowing. Papa continued to persuade Farhan to go to the hospital. However, Farhan remained steadfast with his decision until Papa gave up.

Farhan lowered his head which felt very heavy and painful. He should be taking his medicine now. However, he would not do that in front of Papa. Until his limp body drifted forward and his head fell right on the chest of the father's field.

“Farhan, you still hear Papa's voice, Nak?”

Papa then undoes his intention to raise Farhan's head. He let his middle child lay his head on his body. While he unconsciously raised his hand and grabbed the body that lost energy while gently stroking Farhan's back.

“Pa, sorry Farhan for always making Papa angry,” lirih Farhan still with his original position. He has no more energy to move. The blood that went outside was very much and the head that was painful was draining his strength to the point of barely being left alone. “Farhan promises to prove to Papa that Farhan can make Papa proud,” he continued with a soft tone of voice.

Hearing Farhan's words made Papa regret. All this time he always demanded his children to be what he wanted. He did not let his son develop himself according to the capacity he had. Then, demand that they follow in his footsteps to manage the company that has been patronizing it.

“Farhan can be like Papa's older brother believes and gives Farhan a chance to study longer. Farhan can make Papa and Mama proud. Farhan can be what Papa wants him to be,” Farhan said at length in a weak and barely audible voice. Lucky the situation was in the silence of the night. Until his voice did not clash with the other voices.

“Iya, Son. Papa knows you can be like Sister.”

“So, Papa want to give Farhan a chance to learn?”

“Of course, Son. Papa will help you too.”

“Hopefully Farhan can make Papa proud, yes, before finally Farhan go.”

The deg! Papa's heart stopped beating. What did Papa hear earlier why could it be exactly the same as the one in his dream a few nights ago? Farhan apologized and alluded to his departure.

“No one will be able to leave here, Farhan. We'll all be gathered in this house.”

As if I didn't care about Papa. Farhan again said, “If it's time for Farhan to leave. Please do not cry Farhan, yes, Pa, so that Farhan can sleep peacefully.”

“Nak, don't talk like that.”

Farhan was silent for a moment. “Pa, can ‘kan Farhan sleep accompanied Papa?”

“Of course,” replied Papa quickly. He then helped Farhan to lie down. He looked at Farhan's pale face.

“Do not go until Farhan sleeps, yes, Pa.”

Papa nodded. “Iya, Son.” Papa then saw his son's sweet smile. Then, Farhan's eyelids clenched slowly.

“Papa don't know what happened to you, son. But, Papa hopes Papa's mind is wrong,” Papa's shrill after Farhan is completely immersed in deep. Papa then covers Farhan's body before he moves outside.

“Good, yes, Nak.”