New Breath
Chapter 11's

It's been almost half an hour Papa spent in his study. After welcoming one of his grandchildren from the hospital and had a chat with his wife and favorite daughter-in-law, Nadhira. Also with Farhan. Yes, although there was not a word that went out of his lips for the boy. Papa chose to pass from the front room. Seeing Farhan's arrival made his mind erratic. That's why he chose to be alone.

Papa's. The half-century man does not know why until this moment he still holds hatred for his second child. In fact, if you remember there have been many achievements that have been taken by Farhan. He should be able to appreciate the achievement as he often did to the firstborn. However, the fact is that Papa could not do that in front of Farhan.

Papa pulled his hair back. Then lean the body that is no longer young on the back of the work chair. Suddenly a fragment of events where a wide smile, cheerful face, glittering gaze Farhan gleamed. That's when the boy won the big project tender for the first time. But what did Papa do? Not just to say congratulations or to say congratulations. Papa underestimates and compares Farhan to Reyhan.

"One tender is proud. Your brother always won every tender his usual attitude," said Papa at that time and successfully made Farhan's lips tightly clenched instantly.

It would be a lie if Papa didn't regret what he said to his son. As a parent, I still have a heart. However, for Farhan, Papa did not know how to express his affection. Wait up! The affection? Yes, to Farhan also he loved the child as he felt sorry for the other two children. But again and again. Those past mistakes have always been a hindrance and a hindrance to keep Farhan in the same position as Reyhan and Latisha. That hard is indeed.

"Pa, Farhan needs Papa's guidance. Not injustice."

Reyhan's voice before the man fell back remembered. Actually, Papa's intention was as firm as that of Farhan just to train his son. But maybe the steps are wrong. It seems more pushy and unfair.

It's not just Reyhan talking like that. My mom always said the same thing. Unfortunately, Papa's heart has not been moved.

Papa took a long breath. Wouldn't it hurt if he just met Farhan? He'll try to speak normally as he did with Reyhan. Perhaps that way he can get used to it and forget anything that breeds hatred. Until slowly the relationship with the middle child can be as harmonious with other children. Yeah maybe.

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Farhan had just finished cleaning up after coming home from work. Her hair is still wet. His face looked fresher than before. Although the look of his pale face did not immediately disappear. From that day on, pallor was a characteristic of Farhan.

The man who soon turned the age at twenty-one years old was looking at himself in front of the mirror at the closet door. As usual, his reflection on his pale face was the most obvious thing he had seen for the first time. Farhan's slanted smile rose quickly. "The more thin the day, yes," Farhan said to his shadow. "But, just calm down. In Finza's eyes, Farhan remains the most handsome man" he continued and laughed to himself laughing at what was said.

As her feet moved towards the table where she put her makeup items. The sound of knocking on the door was heard from outside. Farhan paused his intention of taking the comb on the table. His steps then turned towards the door with his hands still moving to restore his hair. More precisely, straighten his hair.

"Papa" said Farhan slowly and smallly. Almost inaudible. He did not know what the purpose and purpose of Papa coming to his room. Because, Papa has very rarely visited him directly. In fact, Farhan had forgotten the last time the man entered his privacy room.

"Papa wants to talk."

The tone of the voice still sounded the same in Farhan's ears. Cuek, cold, and flat. Farhan could only nod his head and make room for Papa to enter his room.

Without a word, Papa went straight in. For a moment he swept the child's room with his gaze. If Reyhan's room nothing changes. In Farhan's room it was a contrast. Too many things changed in it with the last one he saw. And the most obvious is that Farhan's room feels quiet with dark shades.

"How's the office work today?" papa asked directly to the topic after successfully landing his ass on the edge of Farhan's bed. His head did not move as if looking at every inch of the room that he had not visited for a long time.

"Alhamdulillah. Smoothly without any obstacles, Pa," replied Farhan trying to be ordinary. Though deep down there his heartbeat was beyond normal limits. Facing Papa seemed to really test his guts. Bizarrely. What he faced was his own parents. However, that was the result when the distance was stretched so wide.

Farhan nodded for sure. "God willing, Farhan is ready, Pa."

Papa looked at Farhan who was sitting right beside him. He touched the back of Farhan's hand which was perched sweetly on the thigh. "Papa is sure you can" said Papa.

Farhan who is not ready with the current situation can only be silent while trying to digest well what he is experiencing. Several times he shook his head. In fact, Farhan pinched his cheek so hard that he grimaced. Farhan was not dreaming. It's reality. Papa cheers him. Papa believed.

"Farhan," call Papa. This time, his voice sounded different.

The man called is still unmoved. Farhan was silent. Why is it so hard to digest this situation?

"Farhan, what's your hand?" This time Papa slightly shook Farhan's arm until the middle child realized.

Farhan then looked at his hand that was trembling again. He then pulled his hand out of Papa's. Damnit damnit! Why do I have to go back in front of Papa?

"Farhan replied Papa!"

"It's okay, Pa." Farhan tried to hide his hands behind his back.

"Your hand shakes like that why?"

Mucus! Farhan didn't know what to answer. He's confused. His hands were getting more and more out of control.

Not getting any response from the child. Papa then pulls rough Farhan's hand. Papa's hand seemed to tremble because of the vibration of his son's hand. "Why is this, Han? Answer Papa!"

Papa's voice sounded worried. It was successful in getting Farhan's heart warmed. Does he have to be sick first and Papa will care about it? New Papa will pay attention to him and worry about him?

"We're going to the hospital."

Farhan touched Papa's hand. Then, shake. "No need, Pa. This is just the effect of most caffeine consumption" Farhan lies. He committed another sin. However, even to open up that fact he was not ready.

Papa finally fell silent. However, not with his hand that continued to hold Farhan's hand. He looked at one of the troubled limbs of his son. Papa wasn't convinced just because of the caffeine Farhan consumed. There must have been something else that caused Farhan's hand to shake violently. Papa is not stupid. However, he could not force Farhan to be honest either.

Farhan closed his eyes tightly. Trying to hold his hand that kept shaking. "Pa, please hold it tighter, Pa. Farhan asked for help."

Papa did not answer. However, he did what the son asked. I don't know why his heart was touched. What really happened to Farhan?