My House of Resilience
Chapters 18. Fighting Alone

Tanti has made up her mind to divorce Ari. Actually his parents have forbidden, but this body can not be lied to. He was fragile and almost insane. If it continued, it would not only kill his confidence, but also kill his body.

Despite all those problems, there are still other problems to be solved. Being at his parents' house doesn't make Tanti get everything done. He was still squeezed in financial matters so it was impossible for him to redeem the already confiscated house.

"Why are you, Tanti?" asked Sarinah amid her busy taking care of the house.

"Mom, my house seized by the loan shark I can't take anymore. I can't pay all my debts" he said.

"Are you sure you want to continue your farewell with Ari?"

"Not sure anymore, Mom. Very sure."

"Mom has pity on you, Nduk. If you're alone, how can you support your two children? They need costs too. Don't let your decision to keep them here keep him from growing. You must take full responsibility for the other two children. Your life is like this now" said Sarinah. It is unfortunate that Tanti still maintains her two adopted children when her condition is not fine.

Tanti took a deep breath. "I planned it that way, Mom. Poor Indra and Teguh. I've considered him my own son. My condition like this is not possible to finance them."

Teguh and Indra who heard the talk of her adoptive mother are getting sadder. The two had promised, no matter what happened to her foster mother, they stayed together.

"Mom," call Teguh. He came out followed Indra behind him.

"You must have heard everything" Sarinah said. They lie if they don't hear or pretend they don't know.

"Yes, Mbah. We already know." However, Tanti's parents are considered like her own grandmother. "We don't want to go back. No matter what your condition is, we'll stay with her."

Tanti's heart trembled at the words of one of her sons. Not from her womb, but her two adopted children were like her own.

"You're not sorry?" tanya Tanti tried to ascertain the truth conveyed by her son.

"Mom fought a lot for us. We don't want to leave Mom in this condition. If indeed we can not continue school, it is not a problem" said Indra.

"No. It's not. I want you to stay in school. You believe in the full power of God. We can get through everything." She has two hands, two legs, and a mind that must be used to meet the needs of her two children. After all, now he has also opened a small business at his parents' house. There must be some way.

Back to their daily lives. Saying is the easiest thing. However, living his life is very difficult. Although Tanti has opened a small business, in fact it is not enough to meet the needs of herself and her children.

"That's impossible, sir! Mas Ari will not be able to redeem a house that has been taken over by loan sharks." Tanti denies. His decision to divorce was correct. Even if she had to go back to her husband, she was worried that Ari would repeat the same thing in the future. Not the happiness that is obtained, but the suffering is endless.

"If he still wants to take responsibility for you, how? He's a man. Even if it's caliph, it's natural."

Her father's words just made one thing for Tanti. There is nothing wrong with getting back together. His status is not divorced or separated. Ari had never even spoken talaq to him.

"I don't know, sir. So far I'm sure we're getting a divorce. Continuing to survive it feels like Tanti is not able to. Mas Ari prefers his new wife" said Tanti. It was like her tongue was calling her husband's name 'Mas'. It was as if nothing bad had ever happened in their relationship.

Tired of what Tanti is feeling right now is not only physically, but also spiritually. Sometimes he tries to make peace with the situation. He was trying to figure out what the right path would be for his family life. Once upon a time he tried to consider his father's decision to stick with Ari. Reasons clear. So that the life of Teguh and Indra is fulfilled.

In fact, considering the wound that the man had inflicted on him was too deep. Every moment he has spent alone is not easy. He seemed to be a single parent to his two adopted children.

Sometimes hope does not match reality. That's absolutely true. At present, Tanti is even struggling to meet all her needs.

The universe did not support his intentions this time. We want divorce, but everything we do never works. Could this be because of the words of his father who never agreed to the divorce? Or is it his fate like this.

Tanti is also unlikely to ask her parents for help financially. Being allowed to stay here for so long was more than enough.

"Wait, if you are already unable to continue your life alone, you should go back to Ari. Fix your relationship, Nduk! I'm sure if you want to forgive him and then live the household life as it should, your life will return to normal again" said his mother.

Tight-tasting. Everyone looked down on his efforts. The struggle of his life during this time as if never considered because without a definite achievement.

"Mother, I'm trying to get up from my slump. Why is it as if you all justified Mas Ari and turned on me? Even if I ask for a divorce, it's because of Mas Ari who affected me, Mom. You also know, as long as I am here, did Mas Ari come to fight with me? No, Mom! I'm alone. I fought for Teguh and Indra to make him a successful man. Even though she is not my biological child, I always pray for her not to imitate Mas Ari's behavior."

Sarinah. He tried to digest Tanti's words. Come to think of it, it is very difficult to also be in the situation as it is today. Ari seemed to be ignoring herself.

"Mom saw everything, right? Ask Mom for help. Reassure you that Tanti is allowed to divorce with Ari mas. Trying to be strong and staying like now is not easy, ma'am" he said.

Fighting alone without supporters from various sides is not easy. He tried it over and over again, but still failed. Tanti struggles alone without her husband who usually sustains her life. Worth keeping all this? Head as a leg, and vice versa. Tanti felt that no one could help her to fight and improve things. He fought alone.