I'm You And Love
Let go
My eyes are blind, my body is paralyzed, my heart is in a creepy place called prison, which takes away my freedom because of my own stupidity. The folly that made my life fall apart.only tears of disappointment and tears of regret remained. Like not wanting to accept reality, but it is like this.
Not to mention, I have disappointed my mother and family. Disappointed Dance, the beloved woman who made my life happy. A woman who made my life more beautiful. A woman who makes my life more colorful. The beloved woman who was able to take me flying looked at the whole world with joy. I have to be disappointed with the stupidity I have done.
Regret always comes at the end. Through this path God taught me the meaning of letting go and letting go, for the future happiness of the person I love. Although, when releasing I must be ready to face the early stages of the losing phase of the person I love. It was even more difficult when one day I had to let go, facing the final stage of the losing phase.
Surakarta, june 29, 2020
Nyet how are you?
I hope you are in good and healthy condition.
Likewise with me here, in good health, has been able to adapt to my new life, at least in the next 5 years. There are so many things I can do here. One of them wrote, I told a story on a paper to fill my time, make a novel about us. This novel will be a story about sweet memories to remember.
I sent you a letter to tell you something. May you accept all peacefully, with a cheerful chest. Although it's all very heavy for me, and maybe for us. But I think this is the best way.
I'm sorry I disappointed you. I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise to you, which will always make you happy. I'm sorry for wasting the opportunity you gave me. Forgive me for failing to be the man you hoped for. Say my apologies to your parents too, I have failed and failed to make her beloved daughter happy.
Continue your better future, forget me. You are a good person, you should get better than me. I'm a person who doesn't deserve to be a part of your life, to be a part of your family.
Thank you for the wonderful memories you have made in my life. Thank you for all the struggles - the struggle to achieve the commitment so far.Thank you have been patient in educating me to be better, giving a very compassionate life lesson. Thank you for your love and loyalty to me.
Later if I have finished my responsibilities here, I want to hear good news about you, news about your happiness. I will always pray for the best for you. There's nothing wrong with either of us, maybe this is the journey of life. Love does not always have to be shared. Let me keep these wonderful memories of us forever, and I'll reopen them when I miss you.
Ask the rain how much I lost you.
Ask the night wind how much I miss you.
Ask the moon how much I love you.
Greetings from me at RUTAN
~
Your monkey
