Husband Does Not Know Himself
Feel Guilty
Ardian was in prayer, crying for himself, crying for his own mistakes.
“Yes Allah, save him. Whatever happened to him I promised I'd be responsible for him. If anything happens to her, then I will definitely regret it for a lifetime. O Allah, you are merciful and merciful, there is no better savior than you. With all my prostration, I surrendered myself to you, entrusted her salvation to you” Ardian prayed in her, her heart kept chanting the prayer that Riana be given success in her operation.
“Yes Allah, I do not know who to ask for help but you. Not in the name of my love for him, at least his mother did not leave him alone in this world. Rabbana Atina Fiddunya Hasanah Wafil Akhati Hasanah Waqinaadzabannar”
The closing of the prayer of forgiveness was chanted by Ardian with his mutterings. Ardian's head was so dizzy, it felt like he was going to faint. Crying made his head feel heavy.
The people around there were only able to see Ardian with their pity. Young men are performing worship while crying is the rarest thing ever encountered in this day and age. That sincere feeling reached the people as well.
After he finished praying, Ardian returned to the front of the operating room with his shaky steps, his eyes looking as if he had found no life in the body.
Ardian felt guilty as he watched Rifa continue to stare at the door of the operating room, as if waiting for the door to open. The worry from her silent cry made Ardian's heart feel like it was tight.
It was all his fault, as he thought.
“Eat first” Said his brother, giving him a box of rice that he bought in the hospital canteen earlier.
Ardian shook his head in response, “I won't eat until the doctor comes out of this room and brings the good news”.
He looked at Ardian, “Do you want me to slap again?” Ask. Actually it was just a bluff for his little brother to want to eat.
Unexpectedly Ardian even gave his cheek that was not slapped by the brother, “Slap only, I still will not eat. I'll wait for Riana first”.
The elder brother simply rubbed his face rough, indeed unable to force someone whose heart was being hurt, his feelings were clearly unstable.
“Ar, it was in your car there was tea. Is that what Riana drank earlier?”
Ardian was silent for a moment, the focus with Riana made him forget about the other things he had to take care of, Ardian immediately turned to his sister-in-law, he nodded.
“Yes, I had time to take it earlier” replied Ardian.
“I'll take her to the lab now” Brother-in-law said.
Ardian nodded, “Thank you”.
Actually, Ardian would be willing to give the tea sample to the authorities, only Riana was so important to him.
His heart still could not calm down if the doctor had not yet come out of the room.
“At least take a shower, did you pray like this?” Ask Brother Ardian.
Ardian shook his head, “I was bathing in mushollah” He replied, not agreeing if he said he had not cleaned himself.
“Still you have to change your clothes, go to clean up again, you look very sad” said the brother.
They are both like ice and hot water, Ardian is too cool and his brother is too chatty, which makes them like brothers who complement each other and certainly make the atmosphere of the house becomes more crowded.
Ardian said, taking a paperbag from his brother's hand who either when the clothes were taken, either from earlier or indeed just returned home just took the change of clothes. I walked to the bathroom nearby.
