Your Love is Sadistic
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there is a different taste to this

feeling like crying, yelling, cursing, swearing

but for what..??

everything will not be the same

if this is a dream, then..

wake me up from this nightmare

if this is real then please let me sleep

until I was sure that I could move on with my life...

remuuk his taste of this heart to spread to the bones in this body..

is this fragile me...?? 🍂🍂🍂

I woke up from my sleep but I felt very reluctant to open my eyes, I felt like I was ready to face the reality of my life..

no need for days or even weeks² just a matter of hours Vito can change everything..

I heard my phone ringing so many² I had to wake up to see who called me..

mamaa. that name is on my phone screen.

" hello ma, sorry for the late lift vinny was lage in the bathroom.." I said lying to him

" kid are you just baek² there, since last night mama was so worried about you ??" my mother said in her voice, as if she was worried about me

" ea ma vinny baek² aja, mama has eaten ??"

" has Vinny eaten yet ?? "

" already kog ma "

" well, ea ma vinny there's still work "

" ea dear hearts² works "

" ea ma, vinny dear mama "

" mama is also very dear to this spoiled mama's child "

we ended our phone relationship, sorry vinny ma my tears began to flow back..

not long after, Vito came to see me with fruit and food...

" sayank ate ea first" he said preparing food for me

" don't eat water for now I can't swallow vito, why you still pretend² baek same I'm not this will add to my heartache, don't you have a heart and a mind, or are you made of stone ..??!" it felt so claustrophobic that I was throwing all my anger at him, but my tears were not flowing this time, they might have started to dry up..

" sayank I know you won't be able to forgive me, but I beg you not to tell me to go "his voice is a little hoarse, actually I still love him very much, he said, but as much as I can bear my feelings, he's the man's husband that I always keep in mind

" don't want you to have to leave my life, go back to your wife's child, and don't call me sayank, I'm sick of hearing it" I said to keep turning away from him I can't see his face for now..

" just once please look me in the eye, Vinny, this isn't what you want right ??? you still love me, right ?? is it ??"

" ea I love lo but please stay me, and this is a decision I made, oea aunt told you to come later tonight to the house "

" do you know about me "

" i don't know, even if you don't want to come with me also no problem, at least you can come to apologize to them, now please go "I said to throw him out, actually semalem aunty tell him to come, but because of this incident I males talking ma vito I don't know what om and aunt would do the same vito, om very angry said aunt..

but let him come at least he can apologize later..

Vito who I told to go instead sat on the sofa in this room, I was lazy to tell him to go again because I did not want to argue with him I was very tired, the day showed it was 2 pm...

sister came to check my blood pressure..

" can I go home..?"

" ea has already sus please all be opened the infusion needle I want to go home "

then the nurse opened the infusion needle in my hand, I saw my hand slightly swollen probably because it had been 2x in the infusion needle..

the door opens I see Selly coming with robin and Alvin...

" sister is ready² wants to go home ea, is he allowed to go home..??" selly

" ea sister busan here "

" sorry ea kak selly just came, because just woke up, and they both wanted to join "

" ea is not what² deck, must be adek kecapean ea, sorry sister ea.."

the atmosphere was a little awkward I tried to glance at Vito, I see it seems like he was very unhappy with the presence of Alvin plus Lage when Alvin gave attention to me..

" Vinny has eaten the belly..?? what shall I eat " said Alvin

" no need to Al, I'm still full "

" must eat a lot of healthy lage cepet "

" ea thank you "i said, I saw Vito already clasping his hands like he was very emotional, then he woke up and immediately left this room, thank God I thought he did not make a fuss here..

" Vinny was lo ea's boyfriend ?? ask alvin

" it's not just the former "I said flat

" i'm sorry I didn't see him earlier because he was too focused ma lo. hehe, the rope is not what² is he's just an ex so I have a chance."

" don't start deh vin, the deck can anter brother go home ?? I said to selly..

" can kog brother "..

then I rushed to get ready² myself to go home, incidentally selly had brought me a change of clothes..

" the deck stopped by the administration first ea...??" I said to selly

finally I went to the administration to pay for my care, but after there, it turns out the hospital fees have been paid..

ea may be the vito that has paid, I thought, it is good that I am here because of her actions..

arriving parked I see vito she's running my little nyamperin..

" Vinny let me anter home ea ??" said

" thank you but I don't have to go home so they just "I said after I didn't want to see his face

" Vin.." pick him up until he says I say it first cut off his talk..

" Vito tolooong I'm tired" I said through it and then get into the robin sir's car including Alvin as well..

I can't turn my head around just looking at Vito's expression right now..

" mr. robin, thank you for being repotined.."

" just relax, vinny "

" ciiiih what's older lo "

" but I'm her boyfriend "she said trying to make me smile..

" ealah "I said flat..

I don't have the ability to smile..