Your Love is Sadistic
Crushed

I've always felt pain, but I never imagined that the pain I once felt was not worth the pain I feel today..

maybe this love is too beautiful even so beautiful that now I fall so deep, so deep that it feels like I don't see the light anymore..

fear, guilt, sin, pain are one, God still deserves me to ask You to help me rise from this feeling...

I woke up I opened my eyes slowly, I seemed to have fainted earlier, I saw my surroundings like a cage in the hospital room, and my hands were attached infusion hose I saw selly look sad beside me..

" deck" I said call selly

" sister is conscious ?? drink first "he said Selly get me a drink

" what time is deck ?"

" half hour seven "

I was shocked and immediately woke up, I had to go home..

" sister rest first said the sister doctor can go home if the infusion has run out and the sister should not be much pressure because the sister's fetus is weak." said selly slowly.

hearing the words of selly I immediately cried lage, do not be his father even his son who is in my womb does not want to be friends with me I thought...

I was very surprised when I heard the sound of the door opening loudly I saw towards the door it was vito that came..

" what are you doing here ?" I said I turned my face away

" sorry brother was on the phone brother kept²an ringing so I lift the lage" said selly

" sayank lo is not what² right..?? what hurts why can go gini ??" ask vito lage

" isn't this what you want Vito to be" I said, calling his name out loud

" sayank what is this ?? what's wrong with me "

" want to arrive when lo will lie me, what's my fault why lo lasalin this ma me, I love ma lo, I love ma lo, why do you have vito" my tears began to break the lage without my power to stem it

" sister calm down first do not get angry² the danger to fetal sister, sister also belom minom medicine" said Selly tranquilize me..

then selly pulled Vito's hand out of the room..

" i don't know ma lo and I don't care ma lo, but all I know has made my brother destroyed, now you're happy right." said selly yelled vito

" i don't know what happened this afternoon we are still baek² ajha, I'm confused, toloong justin I went in explain everything "

" i did not know long ma kak vinny but he will not keg gini if you do not hurt him or do not² lo khianatin him, lo basic ea jerk lo"

Vito gasped at the last word from selly, did vinny already know if I already have the wife that vito thought...

without hearing selly vito directly into the room vinny treated with red eyes and followed by selly..

I turned my face when I saw Vito..

vito knelt down next to me and grabbed my hand, I tried to pull my hand, but she was too strong...

" go home your wife must miss you very much vito, I can take care of myself here "I said very tight to say it but this is what is currently done for all, but not for me, but not for me, because I might just be a mistake in Vito's life..

" i beg you I will be responsible, I will not stay in Sayank, I can not live without sayank "

" it's enough vito please go now I lage do not want to see your face in front of me" I said sobbing

" lo lie you are so in love, right my ma ?? please don't go to gini"

" tolooong love me time, anything can you not love me vito ??"

then he got up and let go of my hand...

" deck please call the doctor sister wants to go home "I said to selly

selly went to call the doctor..

Vito even now I can't seem to cry if you're right or fake you're too good to play yourself in this love...

selly and the doctor finally arrived..

sister then removed the infusion needle in my hand..

" moms should rest a lot, do not be too depressed, do not stress the diet of a vitamin, the content of new mothers 3 weeks so very vulnerable, what else the fetus is very weak, what else the fetus is very weak, if the wayward mother later dura here more lage" said the doctor mengultimatum me..

" ea dok makasiih "

" oea one lage, said the husband of the mother lage outside the city of ea, if the mother can accompany the mother, because the condition of the mother's fetus lage sangan vulnerable ea, if the mother can accompany the mother, if there is a husband at least no one who mengawai and anticipate the possibility of² that we do not want, the recipe we have no one will just take in the pharmacy..

" ea dok once lage thank you very much doc" said I awkward to hear the words husband, husband who, husband people think I..

finally I could leave the hospital..

" today deck gye can stay in kosan adek not ?" askaku ma selly..

" can kog brother than sister alone at home brother why².."

" why suicide ??" I said

" sister can't say that "

" sister may now be a little crazy heart deck ma mind brother can not think and walk normally, but you know, you have to take care of this child, he is not guilty " I said back to crying

" don't cry then later selly thought to want to kidnap brother ma orang² here.."

" big brother than you where you might kidnap big brother"

finally we also go home do not forget I was told aunt tonight if I do not go home in the place of selly with the reason to want to nenangin themselves..