WHEN MY FACE CHANGED
Feelings

Jessica came out of the man's apartment with a face holding back tears, she could not cry now had to wait until the boarding house so that no one saw her shed tears. Arriving at the boarding house, Jessica slammed the door, threw the bag in any direction and walked towards the bed, all the objects that were there were thrown until only the remaining mattress. Jessica sat her body on the floor, leaning against the bed. She pulled her hair back with both hands, her eyes were unceasingly crying, Jessica was crying with half a holding voice so that the neighbors would not be disturbed because it was late. Even when chaotic like this he still had time to think of others.

“Junk. I'm really trash.” Her mumbling is shimmering

“Did I just die ? there's no point in living like this, who cares about me anyway ? hahahaha” Suddenly Jessica laughed incisive, her eyes sharp look very creepy.

“No one cares at all.” Now the laughter turned into a bitter smile.  He glanced at the phone that had come out of his bag, somehow the phone was there maybe because he threw his bag carelessly until the flat object came out.

“Dia again.” Jessica's bitter smile disappears when she sees the notifications from her phone, Vishnu. the man sends her many messages and some missed calls.

“What does he want from me ? has he not enjoyed my body ? is he just like any other guy who is hooked on my body ?” The roar of tears again wet his cheeks. 

GECK...GECK..GECK...

Jessica looked at the door, who would knock on the door at nights like this ? Jessica did not wince from her seat and kept her head to the source of the voice.

GECK...GECK..GECK...

“Jessica, I know you're inside please open the door. It's me” said someone from the outside. Jessica was curious but her body was too weak to rise towards the door.

“Jessi, please open the door.” Jessica forced her body to stand up, slowly walking to open the door.

“Jessica ?” The man was surprised to see the appearance of the woman before him, falling apart. His hair was disheveled to cover part of his face, his clothes were already tangled like not tidied up at all. Now the man looked at his face, sluggish and filled with tears. What's the matter exactly ? He wanted to ask Jessica what was going on, but somehow her mouth was speechless.

“Hiks” Jessica sobbed turning her shoulder eyes the other way. The man closed the door, then hugged Jessica tightly as if feeling the pain experienced by her woman.

“Do not worry there is me.” Instead of being calm, Jessica further submerged her face in the chest of the man's field, crying out violently.

Why is it that every time I lose direction like this you always come ? why vishnu ? Inner Jessica.

Vishnu took the woman to sit on the edge of the bed, tidying her messy hair with a faint smile. He looked at the woman's sad eyes, from his eyes he could feel that she was in a mess like she had no life.

KRAUK

Jessica pulled her body from Vishnu's arms, holding her starving stomach. If he could he wanted to hit the worms in his stomach because it made him ashamed in front of Vishnu. Vishnu smiled again as he grabbed his phone from his pocket.

“What do you eat ?” Ask Vishnu gently.

“As far” Jessica blushed in embarrassment, she knew Vishnu wanted to laugh a lot but the man held her back.

“Oke I ordered. Now go take a shower first, you're very smelly.” Vishnu said while staring at his shirt wet from the woman's cries and snot.

“Ma-sorry. I have clothes that you can wear, I'll get you a minute.” Jessica rushed from her seat but the panic from her made her fall in front of Vishnu.

“You okay ?” Vishnu helped the woman stand up, and,

Damn it, even under these circumstances I can still embarrass myself. 

“Sit down first, let me take it. Where's the clothes?” Vishnu 

“Eh, is it okay ? sorry I troubled you again.” 

“My clothes have been very wet, if you talk too long there I get smelly.” 

“In that closet, the second part of the top many shirts there.” Jessica pointed at the closet not far from her bed.

Vishnu nodded then rushed to open Jessica's wardrobe. When he opened the closet, he was surprised there were a lot of fake hair and minimal clothes there but Vishnu just behaved normally do not want to make the owner feel uncomfortable.

“This can I wear ?” Vishnu's question showed an oversize t-shirt to Jessica. 

“Iya, bathroom is in the hallway next to you.”

After dinner, the two sat on the floor in an awkward atmosphere. Vishnu who was cold because he was not used to sitting on the floor like that was forced to refrain from commenting. The rain outside grew so heavy that it made Jessica uncomfortable to tell the man to come home.

“Pak Wis..”

The two call each other at the same time.

“You go first” Vishnu said Jessica.

“Ehh ? is it okay ?” Jessica stared awkwardly at the man's bead.

“Yes, ladies first” Vishnu's soft voice makes himself want to be near the man at all times.

“I'm sorry” Jessica said weakly

“For ?”

“My attitude lately that might make you feel uncomfortable.” Jessica lowered her head, looking for focus wherever it was not for the man.

“It's okay, I understand you don't want to be disturbed.” Vishnu took a deep breath.

“But I also told you that I will always be ready if you need me.” Vishnu glanced at the woman who was beside him.

Silent

Neither Jessica nor Vishnu knew what else to say, both of them were both immersed in their thoughts. Just the sound of heavy rain out there with whining wild cats around the boarding house.

“I also want to thank you” Jessica lyrics raised a little head but still dare not look at the man.

“Thank you for all the time and opportunity you gave just to make sure I was okay.” Jessica bit her bahwah lip, resisting crying.

“Ah, have I been like a hero now ?” Vishnu asked who immediately got a blow on his arm.

“Hahaha, you're small this is big too.” Vishnu said grimacing small

Both of them laughed off just because of the joke of Vishnu, maybe if other people were there would feel surprised because their humor is very low. Yes, however, Vishnu laughed because he saw Jessica happy even if only for a moment.

“Emmm... May I ask you one thing ?” Ask Jessica suddenly.

“Of course.”

“Maybe this is gonna sound a little weird or I'm the puck. But I feel you've been overreacting to me even lately I've been avoiding you and not infrequently speaking rudely. But until now you are still here and strangely.” Jessica stopped her words.

“Sorry, but I find it strange why suddenly you came here when I was in a state of chaos.” Jessica looked into Vishnu's eyes with a thousand questions. Vishnu knew one day he would definitely get such a question from Jessica.

“Hmmmm... I don't know either ? I suddenly thought to you and went straight here to see you. After arriving here it turns out my felling is true that you are not okay.” Vishnu reply smoothly.

“And as for your attitude lately that changed I have absolutely no problem, as long as I don't feel disturbed it will never be a problem Jessica.” He was clearly smiling.

“Created ?” Vishnu nodded quickly accompanied by a smile that expanded on his lips.

Whether Jessica believes it or not, Vishnu doesn't care. The important thing is that her words can make Jessica comfortable with her and not cry alone. Even if the words that came out of his mouth were not entirely true.

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