Towards Day H
After You!

...After you there may be another story with a new person, ...

...But that doesn't mean my pain has fully recovered from you. ...

To forget you is a sacrifice. I don't think I can sacrifice for such a big thing.

Just be right. We're already happy with each other. Together. Hit the weathered steps, standing on one towering pole. Time yes, it ends like this?

Yesterday afternoon you contacted me. Discuss plans ahead after no longer being with me. You said it was okay there. Eat regularly, sleep on time, and be happy. Here I am thinking hard. Did it really happen or was it just a way of closing yourself off?

Do you want to look okay or what?

While I'm here languishing. Uncomfortable work, social unorganized. I kind of lost my way after you left. Even though I kept smiling at the end of the conversation last afternoon.

I actually want to be like most people. Trying to move on in an unnatural way. A way that makes me happy for a moment. Spending time with a lot of women and laughing at our breakup. I CAN!

It's just, if I do. The price of our relationship during this time will look cheap!

...You might be able to break the glass with your words,...

...But can you make it whole again with just a smile of yours? ...

Understand it! It's not that easy I forget you.

"You can definitely look for something more than me."

Hahey. Bulshits!

If you're what I want, why should I look for something better than you.

We are over, indeed,

In fact, before dusk anchored I always assume we are still intact. We have a lot of time and cool places to go together.

When the dark night comes. I still like to hope you call me or at least tell me. You're sending an emoticon kiss or hug online. I'll smile happily looking at it.

Though, in my mind. My dreams are still around you. Memories of the days we passed. Watching people fishing by the river. Eating pegs on a park bench. Have you really forgotten?

...If you could easily turn away from me. ...

...Maybe I'll ask, How did the recipe forget me? ...

After you, I'm not okay.

I don't see a woman like you in my world.

Huh! Why the hell did you decide to leave?

Know it?

I talked to the birds for hours to find answers. Where do I find my fault in this relationship.

I also asked the wind. Can't time bring back the warmth of your attitude to me?

mesramu's embrace. Your harassment. Can't it be the second time???

Ah already!

I have too much hope for you. That you are my Ainun. Without me knowing, I can't be the Habibi you want me to be.

Maybe not for today,

But surely you will read it.

my note.

Or you'll read it when I can't remember who you are.

Or maybe when you read this note, you're looking for me and you want to come back to me.

Whatever it is,

I write it with a conscious heart.

That this relationship was enough to make me feel calm, peaceful, and bring me to meet the real me.

And after you decide to leave,

i'm alone.

Even so try to get up even though it is trained.

Crawl with the heart wounds you left behind.

Believe that!

I never got angry or hated you.

Just a little regretting your attitude. Why make that decision?