Towards Day H
Commitment
...Love is the beauty that hurts. ...
...(.(.Jalaluddin Rumi) ...
I made sure I wanted to be happy. Meet new people and learn again. My life is too much following what the universe says. What I could have rejected for a rational reason. And also when you are with you. I feel a healthy relationship. Each of us is free to do what we like. There is no prohibition or threat if one makes a mistake. To me mistakes are the beginning of a great success someday.
I hid behind a commitment shield. We are too free to do what we like to forget the limits. Unfortunately each of us is stuck in a different story but both are clearly wrong. It is caused by our own negligence. I forced this relationship to be okay. By never making distance an excuse to no longer love each other. While when I was too free with my world, my dreams, and other priorities. The new comfort came without me asking. How could my common sense not work that time. Duaing enjoy a night breeze accompanied by a cup of coffee near the beach. Starting from ordinary chatter, we are long captivated by each other. Taking me too deep to dissolve on taste trials. I regret. I wish you blatantly. I thought at the time, I was the only man who got dirty when it came to staining commitment on the basis of freedom.
...The soul is a reflection of self. But I forget that if we look in the mirror then the reflection of our shadow in the opposite way that there is visible. Same with my true story. ...
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...Good people will be met with good people. I haven't had time to think about what a not so good person is. Whether to be visited by good people or even treated improperly. ...
Last night we sat together. Accompanied by the rhythm of the rustling of the fountain and the dance of the trees. Actually I'm nervous. After what happened a while ago. Although I decided to put an end to my mistakes and choose to return to the harbor of my heart, which is you. My heart was racing faster than usual. My palms also look wet holding the breath that is not about. I no longer deserve to sit in front of you as your lover.
"I made a mistake."
My words are short and short. But it sounded so clear in my eardrum. I started guessing. Is the cord of love between us so strong that you've already had a hunch.
"What mistake?"
Ask me slowly carefully.
"Big mistake."
"Saturn's big planet, complete with a big ring around it?"
You shut up, down.
"Or as much as I love you."
I don't know why I still say it. Seduce you with light waves. I honestly still want to fix everything from the beginning.
"I'm not kidding!"
"This commitment is too much for me. And I'm not strong. Two weeks ago I decided to go back to my ex. Sorry."
I glare. Bummer.
My guess is right. A soul is like a mirror. And the mirror turned. In fact we both have both tarnished an agreed commitment since the beginning of our relationship.
...If you become a fire, I will succumb but will not become water. For water and fire will never unite, they will extinguish each other and create new wounds. ...
"We've made a mistake."
"We??"
Your dreams are confused
"I've always liberated ourselves to grow together in this commitment. You are free to be what you want and I am free in my way. We're too upside. The boundary we broke was already too far away. I was hooked on a new charm when you weren't with me."
You're silent. Probably not expecting.
"How now?"
"Now we have to act like adults in general. If parting is the best way then the path to take in this commitment is an agreement between the two of us."
"I want to split up."
Reply mantab.
"Rather precisely get out of this circle of commitment and accept each other's new life path."
"OKs. I'm ready."
You leave without looking back. While I was still staring at the garden. Continue writing this note.
...Go where you want to be with who you want to be. Let my feet be embraced by the universe. Continue the journey to one day after a short stop and play heart. ...
