Towards Day H
Your Priority Is Not Just to Find Popularity
...Something that grows from a wound will definitely not last long....
On my way to one day there will be many stories that I go through. From the beginning I explained. Each of us must have a target to achieve for the next ten years. For that I have never restrained anyone present in my life. He is free to determine his way of thinking. Free to do what and in what way. Because not necessarily ten years to come I will sit on the porch of the house while enjoying a cup of tea with the person who is currently with me.
... For the first time I fell down and was happy....
... It should be that falling is sick, but this time I enjoy falling in love with you....
I know my position right now. You must also be faced with a situation that is not easy in thinking clearly. Everyone has a dream and I know your dream is big. The extent of the ocean is still inferior to the many lists of your dreams. I also know you love me. You chose me not for pity anymore, but because you have sincerity. It's just that you're being treated to two unpleasant choices.
... For me you are a priority...
...The most important thing is popularity...
I am not jealous of your world. My childish nature might be the one that makes you a little careless with me. Though you should know, my journey will still be long again. And every stop in one heart I must willingly swallow the disappointed pill. Either because of distance, freedom in relationships that don't know the limits, and now I have to get back to fretting about your reasons that don't have time for me because you're too busy taking care of your dreams. As if you wanted to say that I'm a pest in your life. Parasites that only ride comfortably and tipped happiness as well as the biggest barrier to your success.
I want to sit with you four eyes and ask you a few questions. Would your work really be ruined if I were by your side? or is being known to many people with a myriad of accomplishments going to make you happy even if you lose me?
I know you have a lot to do in your life. You can do it once. But there's one thing you have to remember, when you're new to your world then you're prepared to lose the people who loved you.
...What part of our long discussions can you forget?...
... Until you're so easy to leave for a mild reason....
...Your smile still can't fade from my memory...
...So until this moment I am still reluctant to agree with your decision ...
It's a small one here. If I choose to insist on keeping everything, your heart will remain hard and ask me to leave. While this hug is not just content or just a sensation but purely from the heart. The miss I have is also not a poison that can kill your career and your job. My miss just wants you to touch it and you acknowledge its existence. Even though you've always interpreted my existence as a small part of your life. Can't we fight both, not just me?
Your fear is so great that it makes me more hurt. Its nothing. With your attitude like that, I feel the accused will threaten you with a sharp weapon if it still allows you to achieve your dreams. And I gladly accepted it. At least my load is a little light. There won't be a date every day because you're busy upgrading yourself. Calm down, Sunday instead we can go for a walk and complete happiness. As simple as it wants me to be. But you chose to quit on the grounds that you wanted to focus on self-achievement.
Actually I don't really want to but to me your happiness is all that matters. May you be happy there and never languish. Your decision to leave me honestly disappointed me. Your dreams are many, your ambitions are also big. You must be scared if you can't be anything when I'm with you. And unfortunately I also fear that if you continue to force you will erode your happiness. If you are happy, then I would be hurt. Because you I love with all kinds of priorities even though our relationship ended up running aground.
I pamit.....
Continuing my journey to one day.
