Towards Day H
Once There was in the Zone Only Temen
...When I woke up from a nightmare in my life then you were the first person I looked for to calm me down....
Funny to like someone but not dare to express. Funny again if we are always together almost every day but unfortunately only limited to friends. Life is funny. Full comedy. I should have been forced to give my sweetest smile when you said it got a little attention from her. I also have to pretend to be sad when I know that your relationship with him is not okay. I seem to have succeeded in playing an inner play that never knows when all this will end.
We are a pair. Although I understand you think of me as your own brother.
You are a very valuable person in my life.
I always pray to God that you will live forever because you are my angel.
You even say it almost every time you're with me. If only we weren't caught in this circle of friends. I bear it alone. Loving you in silence.
Maybe my mistake was putting excessive expectations on you. Admit that togetherness all this time you also feel. The seeds that grew I took good care of. Unfortunately, the more the day grows more fertile. You nurtured it by accident. Even you never know anything.
Actually I want to be frank. Let's be clear. We're not kids anymore to mess around and hide in our feelings. It's just that I'm afraid you're angry. And my fear creeps in if you don't want to see me again. Something I could never do. Until I decided to prune all the flavors until the roots.
We are the prayers that embrace the universe. It's just, we're stuck in a friendship zone. Although I never denied that I felt you liked me too. We are comfortable with the situation. Together throw each other a smile, but always hesitate to start first. Until one day I decided to forcibly remove the taste. So that there will be no more awkwardness between us. Our relationship will be secure, still about friendship. You are free to continue the journey and I will also continue to walk even though it is no longer as strong as it used to be. We will still be together until each of us gives up the status of a traveler and starts a new beginning.
God never makes mistakes, including one that presents a sense between us. That's the scenario and I admit it's beautiful. Maybe it's a test of the universe. To what extent are we at stake for something good.
...I will never leave but choose to quit. This friendship will remain even if I choose to no longer play the flavor....
...Because being with you is a comfort I can never get anywhere else....
My misses are too sharp to be understood by you. You'll never smell it. I'm too good at hiding it. In the corner of your eye I found both happiness and deadly poison. For years I have struggled in friendship circles.
One thing you need to know, I never planned to love you. Suddenly for whatever reason my heart trembles every time I meet and throw laughter at each other with you. One day my courage came up, struggling so that I could say what it was. But my common sense is back in control. We are friends. Friends discuss in all situations. How could I possibly admit to sinking further into this friendship story?
...In the end, I decided to continue on my way to one day....
