THE WILL OF LOVE "HAPPY LAST"
he's coming again

From inside the house, we sat with our parents, while Sani was watching

TV, suddenly the sound of the motor stopped in front of the house, we looked outside who did not know

who came. It turns out that Geral, the male villain I once loved came with everything

the memories that came back brought lightning as fast as lightning struck the entire chest space

it had begun to collapse three years ago and was now again shaken with shock

the book tried to calm me down, though,

“You still think about it, right?” It was a statement, not a question, and was spoken with

a little bit accusing. Sani woke up to see me standing up all of a sudden.

“My sister is always irritating me”. “Well, after all, he's entitled to

accuses. In fact, he has a right to be angry. Only, he wasn't angry.

“I don't know,” I answered honestly.

“Huuuuuuff”. I sighed, then smiled sadly.

“It seems like whatever you do will not be able to remove itself from your heart,

don't you?”. Ask Sani in full Tanya.

“Even after these last few months,

“I've never seen a big brother call with a guy”. He did not continue his words, and

I was silent, they both were silent. I don't know what to answer, because I am

looking for answers hidden deep in my heart. The man entered with

say hello, and we invite him in as a guest would.

“What's the hell you want to come here?” Ask mother gently.

“No buk, want to play, want to see the family situation mom”.

Sani nyaut quickly.”Want to play or want to play Sri?”

The man smiled.

I entered the room and did not want to know about the man. I've been advanced

hurt made him.

But because I was curious, I peeked through the home's fintiling curtains, I willingly climbed up

in the chair just to hear the talk.

“I want to reciprocate Sri buk”. Geral said to my mother at the time. I'm a little listening

geral said, I answered in my heart, from behind the curtain”Enak you just back”, after you rob happiness and leave memories., Honest

indeed, I still love him, until now I have not been able to find his replacement.“.

Right, it was just three years ago, the first time she and I met, when she said

that she likes me, and I confess that I still haven't opened my heart to

whomever. And at that time, he understood. He understands all my past, my fears

the deepest, and my wounds that have not healed.

“And in the meantime, I will accompany you.” he said at the time.

And that was three years ago, three years a long time, after that time he stated

on the phone and said he loved me, after I received him he did

left me with someone else there. Who is not hurt.

I was called by my mother to leave the room for a while.

”Sri, let's come out for a minute, this is son

“Geral wants to see you for a while, he wants to go home he said”. Hearing that, I went straight

exit room. After I left the room, it turned out that Riko, my classmate at the college came

coming home, I didn't know that Riko, coming home that day, he didn't call me before, he said,

I often communicate with Riko, it's just that I don't respond too much.

At that time Riko came alone with flowers in a small bag that he always carried.

Coincidentally, Riko and Geral became close friends during High School, they were one Team in Futsal Pesantren.

Riko, I don't know what it means to come home. Geral and Riko sat down.

“How are you Geral, healthy”. Ask Riko with a smile.

Yes ni Rik, I just returned from Jogja, so some days I'm home, later messing around

home yes?.”

“Siap, Riko's toilet.

Riko is an alumnus where Geral attended college in Jogja, just because Riko's parents moved

the task then Riko more choose to move campus also at STIKES where I am studying now.Geral, with a sad tone to say something serious, said something serious,

“Sri, I want to talk seriously”, in front of Riko he said that, and I feel uncomfortable because

there's Riko there.

“I want to reciprocate with you Sri,”. I was silent and Rikopun did not comment much. I'm sober

from the very first time deciding to get into a relationship with him will only be full of

wound. There is nothing good about this relationship. Love is too blinding, and this

a story that goes on for a long time.

My meeting with Geral happened about six years ago. I'm a funny new student

funny thing. Admiring him for being able to play ball, you could say he hates me (this is a confession

from Geral himself). I'm not sure since when our relationship turned into

dangerous, perhaps from that moment the closeness with Geral begins.

Segabai single girl who has long not established closeness with any man, seduction

and Geral's crush feels intoxicating. Even with the awareness of Geral's status

in fact, a futsal player does not make me afraid to retreat. I was hypnotized

by him. I asked Geral why he wanted to play with me. He answered

don't know. Maybe it was because of my jutek nature that he felt challenged. I retaliated with

kidding, maybe karma because you hated me so much in the beginning. Geral just laughed

and turned the question to me.

“What made you want to accept me?”. I was silent for a moment, and just answered

“I don't know how love works, but I've fallen deeply in love

you”. Connecting with Geral is not easy. We have to be good at hiding, though,

dating secretly, even pretending to be ordinary when in the cottage. In the beginning

the beginning of my closeness with Geral, I harbored guilt towards Riko After all

I was a woman. Who knows the man who likes me. I can imagine how much

it hurts Riko to know our relationship. That was what I had in mind at first.

The longer he knew Geral, the more he displayed an attitude of disharmony

relationship . Geral has often fought with me. The classic, the problem of dissatisfaction

financially. Sometimes I get confused as to what the story should look like. If you want to be honest, my little hat is excited to hear the story. I dreamt of being able to

someone who is proud. But my lips always spoke differently in front of Geral. I

always smart-ass advising Geral. But for the last three years we lost contact not

never got in touch again, and now suddenly come saying want to reciprocate, the sense is still

so sore. That's how my relationship with Geral repeats itself every day. Till news

it came like a storm in my heart.

Geral diYogyakarta's,.Sad for sure, but I can't do anything either. I

asking Geral will be taken in which direction this relationship is going. In the end we agreed

ended it. I don't want to, however much I really love

Geralds. I let her go.

Do you think that this story ends here, of course not. I

I feel destiny is playing me. He called me back, and told me, I

I felt like I was going crazy for a long time with this situation. He's the last three years he's never

calling me, until he suddenly came looking for me. I asked why, Geral just said he was

missed me. What I can do when he says that. I realized deep inside my heart,

I miss Geral too.

When distance is no longer a barrier, my encounters with Geral are not very frequent, Still

I have to be careful. Geral often reasoned overtime to me.

Suddenly today came. I was surprised because suddenly. At home he just

shut up and hug mom tight. I know she's crying because mom's shoulder looks wet. I

waiting for Geral to calm down to tell me, I was at a loss as to how. And

we heard Geral's story. He regretted leaving me alone, but whatever he was

tell me right now, I don't trust Geral, she betrayed so cruelly, she said,

After hearing this story, I cried? Of course not. I'm more overpowered

emotion. I was angry at Geral with all his hypocritical words. More than that I am angry at

myself who had foolishly been immersed in endless love for so long

almost seven years. I relayed my message through Riko, not once did Geral dare

to look for me, anytime. And it's true, between hate and love it's so thin.

For Geral, you started it until you finally loved me. Now I'm going to end up loving you until I finally hate her. Because Riko doesn't feel good

with Geral, Riko undoes her intention to tell her what she meant.

But soon after, Riko asked for permission to go home early and said,

“I'm going home,” while greeting mom, and I saw a little paper fall down

his seat, the paper fell as Riko stood up. And Riko didn't know that the paper was falling.

I intend to take it after Riko and Geral get home.

“Sorry mom, I have to go first. Hopefully tomorrow if there's time I can play here,”

He muttered softly while tossing a piece of paper onto the table in front of me. I

glanced slightly. A printout of his return ticket, with three hours to go. I

gasp, but don't react. I know because Riko's father is a soldier, so

Riko follows wherever her father is on duty and moves on. Our college is going to be over, though,

just waiting for Graduation. So not worried, will not interfere with college because

indeed I'm finished, just waiting for Graduation.

“Ya, son Riko, be careful on the road.” Said mother while patting Riko's back slowly and mother

go straight into the house.

Not far from the courtyard of the house, Riko turned towards us because she heard Geral ask

Then Geral asked me, “Will you return it to me?”. The pain was too painful just

to forgive the mistake he made, I fell into the valley of his love by two

kali, and I don't want to be the fool that goes in three times. Whatever he is

tell me, bow down even if I don't care. I told Geral to just go home

“Just go home Ger, free.”

“I want to sleep, please go home”

“Your words are stale, I'm tired of hearing them from your lips. “

“Better you just go home” I said loudly. And finally Geral came home.Hard Geral asked me to reverse, Riko was still standing there, looking at me, maybe half

I wish I would stop him from leaving. And refused Geral's request, but I didn't

prevented it. And I also did not accept Geral's request. Maybe he already knows, because

like me, he also knew that I was a proud man, who sometimes

act not on logic or the heart, but on the ego.

For a few minutes he was silent, silent like that, then finally he picked up again

the sheet of paper prints out his plane ticket, then steps towards the door and exits.

Geral also took part at that time also along with the departure of Riko. We shake hands and

pray for each other's happiness. Geral's been at his house a week, maybe

during the week Geral would often stop by the house. They both left

each's place. Without ever turning around.

And during that time, for two hours I just kept quiet, it was unclear what I was thinking. I

start to remember, lifting the paper that I had seen falling. I read the paper, though,

Again, my ego wins. In fact, I'd love to say that I don't want him to leave, though,

I'd love to take that printout sheet and throw it in the trash can, I

she wants to stay here and be with me. Something feels wrong with

riko's departure. It's not that his departure means I'll never see you again

with him. We can still send each other e-mails, phone calls, even I could

catch up with him if I want. Merely, will my ego allow me to do so?

Would I be able to dare to call her first, send her an e-mail

mail first, ask how you are doing first? Because all my knowledge of me

on its own, the answer is no. And as far as my knowledge of him is concerned, he may

I have given up the one who is unable to accept it only because of a wound in the

the past that I have not been able to heal.So, why do I feel as if there is a large rock that clogs

my esophagus? Why do I feel like I want to cry, which hasn't been for years

I do, since I understand that love can also destroy? Why I want to

ran after him, saying I didn't want him to leave, begging him to stay..

You see, there's no way, right, I'm in love not with someone I've only known for six months

the past. I've known Riko since High School, only he just communicated

intense with me since six months ago. It can't be, right,

There's no way I'm going back to Geral, he always doesn't have time for me, and I don't

too often hurt by her, she disappeared for the past three years.

After I thought about it I'd better fall in love with that person every day

asking for my news, every day accompanying me to chat, vent, or just simply

send SMS good morning and good night. People who know me more than I do

by myself, know what my favorite foods are, my favorite colors, and my favorite movies are. Persons

always answering my phone even at three in the morning, which always worked for me

smile with his jokes even when I'm sad and want to cry, then

proudly said, ”You see, I can always make you smile, right?”

I mean, what the hell, is special about all that? Nothing, right? So why do I feel no

comfortable like this?. Two hours later, I began to realize that there was a piece of paper that I had

pick it up from under the table, and I go into the room and read the paper I have on my shoulder.

In shock, I read it with wide eyes, eyebrows raised up, heart

thumping fast, hands feet shaking, blood rushing “will you merry me” the writing

it made my life feel happy instantly.

I swore in my heart, grabbed my motorbike key, then ran out. Hope so

plane's late. Hopefully the check-in queue is long. Maybe he looks a little

suspicious, maybe the name is a bit smelly *****, maybe the trunk is stuck by the officer

safety. I half expected the razor to be one of the sharps that was forbidden

to bring. But finally he left too, It's been two hours that Riko's plane still hasn't left, without thinking long me

take the motor that is behind the house, clothes are not replaced, jacket is attached upside down, and,

“nak, what's up, why rush?”. Mother's question I don't mind either. I'm gas-tapping

motor and go to the airport. Thirty minutes from home to the airport,

once at the airport I ran no longer care for many people, running through the crowd

the person, sticking his head out onto the monitor screen showing the departure, lengthens

neck to look around for someone who wears a black shirt and colored trousers

khakis. There aren't.

Desperately, I looked towards the monitor, seeing that schedule

the departure of the plane he was boarding was flickering, saying “boarding”. I

swearing again in the heart. For the next ten minutes I remained wandering indefinitely

direction, until I finally heard a noise, indicating the plane he was riding already

takeoff.

I opened my eyes, trying to hold back the tears that were about to fall. You see, people

with an ego like me it is forbidden to cry in public, right? Though it seems my heart wants to

screamed, and my steps grew heavier. Slowly, my sight was obscured by the water

eyes that start to float. I reached into the bag and realized that I had forgotten

carrying my sunglasses. Why does this day seem so bad to me? I tried

remember the date and day; is today the seventh day of March ?

Then suddenly, someone behind me called, “Hey,”

A voice that I know very well, a voice that belongs to someone who always answers

my phone was even at three in the morning, which always managed to make me smile with

his jokes even when I was sad and wanted to cry, then with pride

said, ”You see, I can always make you smile, right?”

With fear and disbelief, I turned around.

And there he stood, smiling at me, the man in the black shirt and the trousers

coloured ash.I unconsciously stepped towards him until the distance that separated us stayed

several meters. I looked at her in disbelief, and damn, the tears that had been hard since

I finally fell too. Strangely, I don't care. I really don't

cared. At that time, everyone around us, and the fact that we were in

the airport, and I was crying in public, completely forgotten by me.

There is only him and me. There is only us.

He smiled again, and shrugged and lifted the flower he brought back

say ”Will you be my last happy?.

I smiled, and laughed hoarsely.

Then he opened both arms. And I ran towards him.

Unknowingly, I hugged her, Riko who I always ignored now became my last happy.

Riko did not follow her father, but Riko proposed to me in front of my mother and my father at that time

aslo.

That day turned out to be very happy, I thoughtlessly accepted straight away

her proposal, because I know, Riko's been after me for a long time but I didn't pay attention to it,

his attitude and actions I know, Riko is a good boy, I have never heard of

she was dating someone else, so now love grows for her. We didn't

rush in finding a life partner, but also do not just sit still to

wait around. We do not rely on our own efforts, but also involve God in

every process. The first thing we need to do is to pray. Praying

we believe and put our desires under God's feet. When we

pray and express what you want, there will be joy that comes. Praying nonchalantly

it means that we who hope to have this soul mate only pray and stay at home. Prayer and

ask God to take us to the right people. The way God is so unable

guessable. There are people who can mate while in angkot. Someone has met with

his soul mate at the airport.

Ask God to guide us every step of the way in our search for this life.

Surely, God will provide many opportunities for us, until finally we find someone who is right for us. We allow God to guide us

the journey of our lives, He will lead us to the right people, at the right time

and at the right time. Marriage is a sacred relationship. When we

liking the opposite sex without maturity in the heart, then this relationship can turn into

an unhealthy relationship. Waiting is necessary if we are not ready to move

towards the wedding. To get a partner, we need patience, also wisdom to be able to

know this guy. Again, always put God in the first place in life

we're. Correcting our relationship with God first is a step we must take

do it before we finally know the soul mate. Because we know very well that humans can make

we're disappointed. Our soul mate can also be disappointed.

However, if we put God above everything, even our spouse

it is disappointing, believe that God will give you joy and peace

in everything we do. . ⁇