THE SCINCERE LOVE FOR ZIANDRU
Netherworld

" What do you want Valen to say, honey ?? " Syifa repeated her question while stroking the shoulder of the tall girl beside her.

" Valene ... Valen can go on a go, Mi ?? " Valen said with a stifling voice in the throat. He mustered up his courage to reveal it.

Syifa gasped at Valen's request. The pregnant woman turned her body to face Valen, and looked at him inside the blsteran face in front of her.

Valen bowed to get a look from Syifa. Hiding the disturbing feelings that afflicted him.

" Is there something that makes Valen uncomfortable living with Umi ?? " Tanya Syifa was skeptical.

Valen raised his face and shook his head loudly. " No, Mi. Valen is very happy to be in this family. Valen feels comfortable and feels very loved like a "Tukas Valen baby. His heart shrieked to get a sharp look from Syifa.

" O Allah.Why be gini, anyway ?? I feel like I've hurt Umi's heart "Her mind feels sorry.

" Why does Valen want to stay away from Umi ?? " Syifa flat.

Valen's getting flabbergasted.

" I'm sorry, Mi. It's not that Valen wants to stay away from Umi. But Valen wanted to know more about the Valen religion. Valen did not want to, just be a Muslim recorded on paper only. Valen wants to be the Muslim recorded on the angel paper "Valen said reasoned that is not entirely just an excuse. Because really half his heart does want to also study in pesantren, since he said two sentences of shahadah.

Syifa took a heavy breath and stared at Valen. " Okay, son, if that's what you want. Later Umi talked with Abi " Said Syifa lirih. Unknowingly a single tear flowed from the corner of his eye.

He feels de javu. Instantly in his mind, when Zian asked permission to go to school in the boarding school. And it turned out that it was only made Zian as an excuse to avoid Abinya. And feeling Syifa said, that Valen is now the same as Zian a few years ago. There was something that the girl was hiding. I don't know what, Syifa will try to find out.

" I'm sorry Valen, Mi. Valen has made Umi sad !! " Sorry Valen with a soft voice. The girl bowed down did not dare to look at Syifa.

" Valen is not wrong, son. Umi alone is too selfish, just thinking about Umi's feelings. Umi is too selfish not to want to be far away from Umi's child "Reveal Syifa sobbed.

Since her pregnancy, she has been crying easily. Moreover, he had to hear Valen wanted to go to the boarding school. Her heart was not ready to part with one of her children anymore. He already loved Valen, like he loved his three children.

Valen gasped at Syifa's sobbing. The girl hugged Syifa and cried.

" I'm sorry.I'm sorry Valen, Mi. !! " There's no word Valen can say other than that apology. If you want to regret, he regretted asking permission to go. Honestly, his hard-earned confidence he woke up, instantly wavering at Syifa's cry.

But for the sake of setting hearts and avoiding sin. He must be firm and firm for his heart. He had no choice but to stay away from Zian. There were a lot of plans in his brain. He will leave for Germany after completing his education at the boarding school later.

" This is the only way. Forgive Valen, Mi !! " Inner.

Syifa gently stroked Valen's back which trembled withstanding the cries.

" Never feel guilty, boy.. !! Your decision to improve yourself is a proud one. Umi support that. But Umi can't be hypocritical, that Umi is very heavy parting with Umi's children "

" Look down, son..!! Maybe at this time Umi cried, but God willing, Umi will try hard to resist the longing Umi like Umi resisted the longing for the sister who went mondok "Syifa said gently while stroking the back elus Valen.

" It's..!! Don't cry anymore. Later if seen with Hana, must be dyedekin !! " Seloroh Syifa tried to jokingly cover a million questions in her heart.

" What exactly is Valen hiding "His fist in the heart.

Valen unravels his embrace.

" Thank you, Mi !! " Valen said, wiping away her tears with the back of her hand.

Syifa smiled. " Let's go in !! Maghrib soon !! " Take Syifa to Valen while standing up and reaching Valen's hand to be held by him.

***

A few days passed. Ever since Valen asked permission to go on a mumps trip, Maliq and Syifa have been talking about it. And the deal, Valen will go to the boarding school after class. That means Valen will be gone in four months.

" Why not go home for a few days ?? " Zian intercepted Valen's move towards the library. The girl was walking on her own without the company of her best friend as usual.

Valen raised his face. He looked up at the towering figure in front of him.

" Sister !! " Siss Valen then hurriedly lowered his gaze again. He bit his lower lip to suppress the turmoil in his heart. Pain, that feeling he felt in his lip area. But he didn't care about it, he only knew the pain was not how much it hurt with his inner being. His heart languished because it had to force to throw away the taste and try to be good in front of everyone.

" Why not go home ?? " Zian repeated his question in an emotionless flat voice.

It has been four days since Valen returned home. And he gave Syifa permission not to go back to his adoptive parents' house. He reasoned, right now he misses both his parents terribly. Syifa knew that, they didn't force Valen. And Valen did not know, that Syifa had guessed Valen's gelagat. Syifa was increasingly convinced that something was being hidden by her adopted son.

" Valen still wants to be at Valen's house. Valen misses Mom and Dad " Sahut Valen in a firm voice, having mastered his feelings.

" You're angry at big brother ?? " Task Zian again while looking deeply into Valen's face turning away.

Valen flinched with round eyes. " Why does Valen have to be mad at big brother ?? " Valen stuttered without looking at Zian.

Zian shuffled his body against the school floor. Both hands were placed in her pants pocket.

" Sister doesn't know either, why you should be angry at big brother. But brother felt, at the end of this you avoid big brother. And I'm sure, your departure from home is also an effort to avoid brother "

" If you have a wrong sister. Please tell me the brother's fault. We are brothers, it is not good to hold a grudge for his brother "Silent Zian but with a flat face without removing his gaze from the figure of Valen who continues to look down.

" Yesse !! "

" Sister ?! "

That one word was what was tormenting Valen's inner self. That status is what makes Valen vulnerable. He knew, said the brother that required him to stay away.

Instantly the atmosphere was silent. All that was heard was the noisy sounds of the disciples chatting not far from where Zian and Valen were standing.

" Valen is not angry with anyone. And Valen felt he wasn't avoiding someone. Valen misses Mom and Dad. Can't Valen finish off Valen's longing by reminiscing in a childhood home with Mom and Dad ?? is that wrong, brother ?? " skeptical Valen after painstakingly normalizing his heart.

Zian slightly flinched with Valen's reply. Just this time she saw Valen sniffling at her. He was convinced that Valen was angry with him.

" oohs.. Alright. If that's your reason. I'm sorry that you've gone too far in your business. Brother just wants to take care of you according to Dad and Mom's trust for Abi and Umi. If you are uncomfortable, forgive brother !! " Say Zian flat and then stepped away from Valen who was getting more miserable.

" Test "

A drop of clear liquid slid down from the corner of his eye. The liquid thing that had been held back had finally escaped as well.

" Valen must apologize, brother !! Valen is a man who does not know himself. Valen has been presumptuous to love his silent sister !! " His fist rubbed the corner of his eye. He stared at Zian's wide dorsal nanar which disappeared at the turn of the corridor.

" What's there, deck ?? " A familiar voice in Valen's ear greeted him from behind.

Sontak Valen wiped his tears with the tip of the hijab and turned his body to look at the owner of the voice.

" Brother Sky !! " She sizzled with a smile. As soon as he changed his once sad mimic, he had to turn into cheerful to cover his current mood.

" Why are you standing there ?? " ask Sky back.

" Eeh.it that. Valen's going to the library. But Valen arrived to remember, if Valen's phone missed in class "Valen reasoned with gestures as if he wanted to return to his class.

" oohs..Where's Ainun ?? How come Ainunnya not with you ?? " Sky said to Ainun. Looks like he didn't see any strange gurgles from Valen.

" Ciee..kak miss Ainun huha ?? Ainun is sick. Today he did not enter "Callet Valen teasing Sky. Instantly, his gloom was disguised by the presence of Sky.

" What the hell, deck ?? Brother asked, usually where there is Valen there must be Ainun. You guys are already rich in stamps.nempel keep going !! " Sky's voice is wrong.

" Is that right, brother ?? How do I doubt ?! " Seloroh Valen is getting more and more excited about teasing Sky.

" Your.. !! "

" What a son. It is not clear !! " Gerrutu Sky poked slowly Valen.

" Oh..!! That hurt, brother !! This is called KDS !! " Calls Valen lebay.

" She.!! where there is a pain just a soft spasm. What is KDS ?? " Cibir Sky.

" KDS is school violence !! Ha..ha.haa !! " Valen said, then ran away leaving Sky who looked anxious.

" look out..!! " squealing Sky then chased after Valen who was getting away.

" Such sweet they are !! They're a matching couple "Tap someone.

The behavior of both became the attention of people who were there.No exception someone with eagle, who was standing behind the corridor pole. The man clenched his hands in a huff.

" Is this why you're avoiding me ?? " Anger that guy.