THE SCINCERE LOVE FOR ZIANDRU
Fighting For Apologies

It's not a matter of, I was educated where or by whom

But about my efforts to gather the courage to make peace with my heart.

My breath was always panting as I gathered the debris of my already scattered heart.

My heart is not as strong as they imagine.

My body looks fine

But not with my soul.

In every corner of my prayer, I ask that my heart be cleansed of the stain of prejudice.

But really, I am indeed a human being who is still caring for a disease that at all times eats away at my soul.

Sometimes I say, I have to be good at taking care of my heart, so that I stay well and stay strong in the face of reality that is sometimes not in line with expectations.

In fact I am fragile, I always succumb to the imbalance of my soul.

~~ Aqlan Sharga Ziandru ~~

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Zian stared at Syifa's back nanar who was standing facing the flower rack shelf in the back garden. Slowly with a slightly hesitant step, the handsome teenager approached the Umi.

" Mi.can you apologize from Umi again ?? If Umi is angry with Brother, hit brother, Mi. But don't let go brother !! Sister.cannot bear it, Mi "Say Zian softly pleaded after she stood behind Uminya.

It has been the past week since Zian got drunk, he has been following Uminya just for asking one word of forgiveness from the woman who gave birth to him.

The life of this handsome young man, not calm because it has been a week Uminya does not care about it. Uminya silence him and do not want even just look at him.

And it's been a week that he's never been back to the orphanage. Every time she went home from school, she chose to go home to her parents. He was struggling to take back his affection and sincere smile.

And who knows, this makes Syifa very happy. His son who never wanted to linger long with him, finally had a week without being asked to stay and be near him.

Zian, who usually only felt at home overnight in this luxurious house, had to survive. He didn't want to leave before he apologized for his first love.

Syifa. He remained standing staring at the various colors of orchid flowers lined up neatly in place. But no one knows, an engraved grin from the pink lips of a woman who is still beautiful at her age is not young anymore.

" Mi !! Talk, Mi !! " Rengek Zian is frustrated. He ventured to touch Uminya's arm which was immediately pushed aside by the owner of the arm.

Syifa turned to face her son and looked up at the face of the son.

The height of Zian who reached 1.80 more or exactly 1.88 cm makes Syifa who only has a height of 1.55 cm should look up at the face of his son.

" Still think of Umi as your Mother ?? " Skeptics say Syifa while highlighting Zian with a piercing cold gaze.

Zian flinched while gulping his saliva violently. Syifa's cold gaze managed to make her even more miserable. Really, she shuddered at Uminya's gaze.

As long as he lives. Just this time received anger from the woman who gave birth to him. Just this time, he knew it felt like being stared coldly by Uminya. Just this time was silenced and ignored also by Uminya.

Be ill. One word that Zian felt now. Teenagers who usually always ignore people who think they are not important, only this time feel how it feels to be ignored.

" I am, Mi. Sister never considered Umi someone else. Umi is the center of life. Brother is nothing without Umi "In a stammered voice, Zian tried to greet Uminya with reddened eyes holding back the pain.

Syifa's clear netra shone a sharp glare towards her son. He moved from his place towards the park bench leaving Zian still glued to the spot.

Zian who saw the departure of Syifa suddenly followed Uminya. He slammed his body to his knees in front of the Umi.

" I'm sorry, Mi !! " Too Zian again without getting bored.

Syifa looked straight ahead unwilling to look at the face of her son.

" Umi is a very proud person. Umi is a person who does not want to be disappointed. And Umi is a person who has a hard time forgiving the mistakes of people who disappoint Umi. This means that Umi feels himself Umi is a saint "Syifa said flat which makes Zian confused. He tried to digest what Uminya was trying to convey.

" Sister knows that ?? " Syifa lowered her gaze trying to stare at her son. The net captures the confused look of the child.

Zian who got a cold gaze immediately shook his head then shook his head slowly.

" Sister doesn't know what Umi means "Say Zian said.

" Hm...Umi surprised. It turns out this is the result of so many years brother tried away from Umi. Brother became a wild child. I became a child who forgot about religion. It turns out that many years of education in pesantren, does not make you a better human than children who do not learn the religion of "Sarkas Syifa while smiling cynically towards Zian.

Zian jerking. " Wallahi, Mi !! Brother in the trap. My brother never had the slightest intention of drinking khamar. Brother knows very well, this is the thing that invites the wrath of God. " Tell Zian with glassy eyes.

" Oh yeah ?? But what Umi saw, indeed the attitude of the sister does not reflect as a person who understands religion. Arrogant brother. Boisterous sister. Vindictive sister. And brother felt very holy without sin "Cecar Syifa with a cynical tone while highlighting sharply at Zian.

" Test "

A drop of clear liquid rushed down from Zian's eagle netra.

His heart was torn to hear his Umya words. His brain tried to sort out to interpret every sequence of sentences that came out of the lips of the Umi.

Now, this handsome young man has begun to understand, where the direction of anger and disappointment Uminya. The problem is not centered when he is drunk. But there are more things, which makes the anger of the Umi is no longer unstoppable.

" I'm sorry !! " Clearned Zian's voice with a face increasingly bowed lethargic.

Syifa chuckled softly with a cynical-pitched frown. " Sorry. It was a magic spell that you would often say without realisation. I am tired of hearing it. Sister only knew saying that word to Umi. But what Umi saw did not apply to anyone else. Brother is too arrogant !! "

" Remember !! This time there was no apology from Umi. Enjoy that guilt. Umi wants you to feel how not to get sorry from the person she says you love, "Syifa said flatly and stood up to leave her place.

Zian looked up with a face filled with tears. " No, Mi !!. Don't punish a sister like this. Brother can't afford "Zian back to resist Syifa's steps. He kissed both feet of the Umi.

" Why are you afraid if Umi doesn't forgive you ?? My brother has become a great man. What's the importance of that apology word to brother ?? " sarcas Syifa did not step up.

" It's important, Mi. It's like you can't breathe if Umi gets angry with you "Sudden Zian said.

" Oh.yes ?? is it good to bear such a burden ?? " Syifa's circus sat down again.

Zian shook his head hard. " Tight here, Mi !! " Zian looked up at Syifa while pointing at her chest. Her reddened face looked adorable like the face of a sinless baby, tickling Syifa's heart. The mother of three held back so that she would not embrace her beloved son.

" That's the taste your Abi endured for years. So never force apologizing to people, before being able to forgive the mistakes of others "Syifa said in a flat tone and left Zian.

" Deg "

Zian. As she expected, it turned out that her anger and disappointment were not about her being drunk. But this is about Abinya.