The Longing for Perfection
Feel Guilty

Farah regulated her still irregular breathing. He really still feels a lot of pain on the female part.

"Astagfirullah hal'azim," he said repeatedly asking for God's forgiveness.

Zayn who was already wearing his full shirt immediately came out of the room to grab a glass of warm water. The atmosphere was quiet at that moment. All the family members fell asleep because they were tired.

Zayn immediately returned to the room with a glass of warm water for Farah. He turned on the main light and helped Farah to sit down.

"Drink first, honey," said Zayn attentively. He thinks it's because Farah was too tense on their first night.

Farah accepts. He sipped a warm drink Zayn had given him several times. "Thank you, Mom" he said.

Zayn nodded and walked over to put the glass on the nightstand. After that, he threw himself beside Farah.

Farah looked at Zayn. Look at him with regret. "Mas, I'm sorry" he said sadly.

Zayn. "It's okay" he answered. "It's okay, Farah. We both learn," he continued. Zayn also did not understand why it could be like that. Is it because Farah is too tense or she is not smart to bring the beauty of tonight to Farah. "Sorry to make you sick" Zayn continued.

Farah is now shaking. "I'm the one who's sorry, Mom. Because I haven't been able to entitle Mas tonight" Farah said.

Zayn rubbed his arm slowly. "It's almost morning, go to sleep" Zayn said.

Farah was still looking at him. "I'm really sorry, Mom," he said.

Zayn smiled. He shifted his body to get closer to Farah then made a sweet peck on Farah's forehead. "It's okay, honey. Really am. I'm ridlo" Zayn replied sincerely.

Farah's eyes glazed over. "Thank you, Mom," he said.

Zayn then hugged her and closed his eyes after he read the do'a.

While Farah was still awake at the thought of how painful it was. How will he live it later. He who is a cloud man and does not understand anything about it, thought if the husband and wife relationship for the first time was indeed as painful as it was.

He'll try to relax tomorrow. 

***@***

When Azan Fajr. Farah could not close her eyes. He really felt guilty towards Zayn.

Zayn slowly opened his eyes. And tightened his embrace on Farah. "You're not sleeping?" tanyakanya. He kissed Farah's cheek.

"I can't sleep." Farah answered slowly. He rubbed Zayn's arm which was on his stomach.

Zayn kissed Farah's cheek again. "Why can't you sleep? Still feeling sick?" tanyakanya.

Farah nodded faintly. "A little bit" he answered. "I can't sleep because I feel guilty for Mas Zayn."

"It's okay, honey. We can try it again later. His name is also the first one that must fail there is a smooth one" replied Zayn. "Already, don't think about it," he continued.

Farah silently looked at him.

"Body, yuk," Zayn asked. 

They cleaned themselves and prayed together. 

After the dawn prayer, Farah was able to close her eyes. He slept hugging Zayn. While the man surfed in cyberspace. He is looking for ways to make women relax and comfortable when doing husband and wife relationships.

At seven o'clock in the morning, the door was knocked slowly.

Zayn who heard that, slowly let go of Farah's embrace and went from his sleep to open the door.

"Farah's still asleep, ma'am," Zayn replied.

"Astagfirullah, it's already noon," said the surprised Mother. "Wake up, son. A habit of."

And someone said from behind.

"His name is also a newlywed, it's natural, ma'am."

And some brothers followed. A crisp morning laugh immediately filled the room. 

"Wake Farah up, yeah. We have breakfast together" said lowly Mia Bu to her son-in-law Zayn. 

"Well, ma'am," Zayn replied politely. She closed the door after her mother-in-law left. 

Zayn opens Farah's blanket and kisses her cheek. 

"Honey, wake up, yuk. It's seven o'clock" he said. Zayn doesn't have the heart.

Farah opened her eyes slowly and smilingly looked at Zayn. "Sorry to wake up" he said.

And they got boos when it came to the dining table. Especially when looking at the slightly strange Farah road.

Farah looked down awkwardly while Zayn smiled widely..

"There will soon be a new nephew" said one of the brothers at the dinner table.

That is a new demand in our society. Get married and have children soon. Those who do not have children are as disgraceful and imperfect as a woman.

After breakfast is finished. Mom gave Farah some herbs.

"This is so that you get pregnant quickly" he said.

Not refusing, Farah accepted and she drank the potion to the end. Having offspring after marriage is his wish as well.

After breakfast, Farah and Zayn went back into the room. They open gifts from friends and colleagues.

"What's this?" farah asked as she opened one of the gifts and found a sexy nightgown. Realizing that, he exclaimed in embarrassment and immediately hid from Zayn.

"Where to look" pinta Zayn.

"can't. I can't see it, it's a woman's secret" Farah replied, further hiding the gift.

"Little bit, here I want to see how sexy that nightgown is" she said.

"They're going!!" reject Farah. They were joking with each other this morning. Farah even mocked when she found a gift from Zayn's ex-girlfriend.

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