The Longing for Perfection
The Doctor

They leave at half-time three in the afternoon. The journey takes an hour and a half.

Farah was silent the whole way. The beads kept rolling in his hands. His lips and heart cannot be separated from miser. He's worried and scared.

Every day for a third of the night, he looked up his hands to ask the Supreme Being of all things to give them ease in any case.

Farah broke out in a cold sweat when Zayn's car stopped at the doctor's practice page they were heading to. It's been very crowded here.

"Yuk," Zayn asked. Farah looked at him with an anxious face. "It's okay, honey," Zayn said convincingly.

"What if I have a serious illness, Mom?" Farah said worriedly. Same question for the umpteenth time.

"We treat. Whatever the outcome may be, there must be a cure" Zayn replied, calming Farah down. "Remain assured, all the diseases on earth must have a cure." 

Farah nodded even though she was still overwhelmed with fear. Hearing a doctor's verdict is the most frightening thing and requires a strong mentality. 

They sat side by side waiting for the queue. Farah's hand was so cold in Zayn's. His heart is beating fast. His heart ceaselessly prays for forgiveness and glorifies the greatness of God. 

Farah resuscitated her head on Zayn's shoulder and then whispered to the man. 

"If I really had a serious illness, would Mas leave me?" tanyakanya. A question he had long since asked. Actually, he was afraid to ask this. 

Zayn, the more he clasped Farah's hand. The answer if whatever happens his hand will always hold Farah's hand. 

"Mas won't leave you" he replied in a whisper. 

Farah nodded with a feeling of relief in her heart. May this promise be forever. Even when Zayn was repeatedly disappointed. 

Farah wanted to hug him but there were a lot of people around. In the end, he only whispered if he loved Zayn so much. 

"Mrs Farah Amalia." 

Now it's his turn. Zayn looked at Farah and nodded. Convince the woman to be ready and accept whatever the doctor will say.  

"Bismillah, you are healthy and well" Zayn said expectantly. 

Farah nodded. He also hopes he does not suffer from a serious illness. 

They went inside and sat down at the doctor's desk. 

"Mrs Farah Amalia" said the Doctor, giving Farah her full name. The doctor whose hair has started to bleach.  "What kind of complaint?" ask The Doctor. 

Farah bit her lips in fear. He did not know what to answer and where to tell this.

In the end, Zayn explained Farah's situation. 

The doctor understood. The doctor then asked Farah to lie down in bed for further examination. 

"It's okay" the doctor said after the examination. "Mrs Farah was only lacking fluid at penetration. The mistress should be calm, do not panic, do not be afraid, do not be anxious and should be happy always. Don't mind much" explained the doctor.

Farah and Zayn breathed a sigh of relief hearing that. Thank God that Farah is okay. Yes, maybe it was Farah who could not calm down.

The doctor then prescribes medications and natural lubricants for the couple.

"Thank God I'm okay" Farah said. Although in his heart he felt a little doubtful about this diagnosis. Because, for several months, he has been doing various ways to calm down. He even followed gymnastics as well.

Two days after the examination, they tried again. Bishimah ....

But on that night, the brand was still disappointed. Farah still couldn't give it.

They keep trying it every night with the natural lubricant that doctors give but until the medicine and lubricant run out, they still can't run it.

Farah started to moody and continued to cry. Tomorrow is a house-changing event. Yes, they already have their own home and tomorrow is the time they move into their own home.

Zayn always tried to calm him down. Trying to make him have no mind.

Brothers and even parents, thought it was Farah's eyes because she was about to move out of her parents' house.

"There's still this one village, Far," said the brother to calm Farah.

"If you miss it, come to the house of Miss Mia. If you are lazy to cook, Mia told nganterin side dish. Do not think about nyampe dalem," continued the other brother. And there's so much more they're talking about.

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The house moving event went well. Farah slightly forgot her heart's sadness. His new home is crowded by families and neighbors who end up.

There's a lot of do'a going on for this couple tonight. A new home, may it bring happiness.

Both their parents and a few siblings stayed in this new home. Bu Atun and Bu Mia were busy still awake accompanying the brothers in the living room.

Farah, on the other hand, was already feeling sleepy because from yesterday she was not sleeping.

"Mas, I'm sleepy." Farah sent a message to Zayn. The man was also still busy outside accompanying the brothers.

"Yes in a minute" replied Zayn.

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