The Decapitation of Wounds
Chapter 19

One week has passed. Dudy never came here to see me. I'll replace him every day. I wish he would come and talk to me. I want to explain everything. I want to admit my mistake for letting Oscar come back into my life. But until the seventh day after that event, Mas Dudy did not want to return. His anger must still be burning for me. I am really scared. I'm afraid he's really gone to leave me. I still love her. I still want to live with him.

All I want now is to talk and convince her that I am a faithful wife. Never has a heart kept a name other than its name. In every breath I let go was only him...

"By the other hand, An?" ask Wak Ipah to me. It's been a week of Wak Ipah staying here. Wak Ipah helped me take care of Resa who is still sick to this day.

"I'm confused, wak. To this day, Dudy is not coming home. Apparently he's still mad at me. I just want to talk to him, wak. I want to explain everything."

"Please wait a day or two, An. He must have come home. Aren't his children here with you?"

"Come, wak. Does he still care about children? Even when he was sick he didn't look at him."

Wak Ipah sighed slowly. His old face looked tired. I know, everything that's happened to me is definitely weighing on his mind. Even if he doesn't say it. Even though he doesn't shed tears. But I know his heart is broken. I know his heart is also hurt.

"Time passing like this drives me crazy, wak. I have to catch up with Mas Dudy at Ika's house. I can't wait any longer."

Wak Ipah looked at me with love. "Please bring your husband here and speak carefully here. Don't let Ika be a spectator of your predicament. That woman will have a chance to hurt you again later. You understand what wak means, right?"

I'm nodding. "Do'a-kan me, wak," I asked.

***

I arrived at Ika's house at five in the afternoon. I deliberately adjusted to the hours of Mas Dudy's office. Because I don't want to have to wait for him there. Sitting for a long time in the house Ika will definitely make my feelings so much more awkward.

The pink painted house looked lonely. The doors and windows are tightly closed. I'm so worried, not-don't Mas Dudy and Ika are leaving. But it turns out the gate wasn't locked. Ah, they must be home. Because it is not the custom of Mas Dudy to leave the house without locking the fence like this. "Don't invite thieves" Mas Dudy's message always.

I opened the gate and stepped slowly into the well-maintained little courtyard. There were several flower trees in pots neatly lined up in front of the terrace. The flowers are so beautifully blooming. The color is diverse to give the impression of many.

On the terrace there are two rattan chairs with a small table placed between them. A sprig of orchid sticks sweetly to the wall above it. But I don't see the bell. I just saw a knock from the iron attached to the door.

Not to mention that I touched a knock on the door, someone had opened it from the inside. Ika's face poked with shock that she did not hide. "Here...?" said hanging.

"Mas Dudy is there?" ask me without making small talk.

Ika nodded. "Yes, so you followed him here too."

"He's my husband. And I want to meet him now. Can you get him for me?" many cold.

"Wait a minute" he said without letting me in.

I stepped into the narrow living room and restlessly sat there. Three long minutes really tormented me. I passed every second that passed with a sense of uncertainty. They wanted to torture me with this wait. There is no sound from within. I really feel alone.

Finally, Mas Dudy came out with Ika. And with a stiff face Mas Dudy looked at me for a moment. Then without further ado sat down before me and asked in a flat voice. "What did you come here for?"

"To catch up with you, mas. Please come home so we can talk. Running from home won't solve the problem" I said in a soft voice.

"I didn't run away from home. I just need some time to think. And now I've made one decision that's best for all of us."

"decisions? What decision?" ask me with bad feelings.

Mas Dudy looked straight at me. And in a very clear voice he said, "This, we should get divorced."

My life seemed to float hearing it. One word I was so afraid of was spoken clearly from my husband's mouth. And he said it without any burden at all.

"You realize what you just said, mom?" muchu.

"Yes, Ani. I realize what I'm saying. I want us to get divorced so we can move on with each other's lives in peace."

"But, ma'am, you can't make such a decision without listening to my explanation first" I said beginning to panic.

"What more explanation should I listen to? My eyes have proven for themselves how you have made out with your lover."

"But you're wrong, ma'am."

Mas Dudy shook his head. "I'm sorry, Ani. I can't trust you anymore."

"Go home, my mother. We can talk quietly at home" I asked.

"You're the one who came home. Here my house is now," she said coldly.

"But I don't want to part, ma'am. I still love you."

Dudy was silent. It seems he is reluctant to respond to my words. His face looked cold and stiff without the slightest expression.

"Speak, mas. Tell me you still love me, too" I said begging.

"No, Ani. The love between us may be over. There's nothing more we have to defend now. Farewell is the best path for us."

"No, please don't say that. You must not have realized that we still love each other. And our children need us, ma'am."

"Ah," Ika sigh loudly. "Don't use your kids as weapons, An. If you really love your children, you should take care of the integrity of your household. Not even fun playing with fire with your dark boyfriend. And now, after your relationship with Mas Dudy fell apart, you were screaming about their situation. Make them bait to get Mas Dudy's heart again. You're so smart!"

Hearing Ika's spicy words, my emotions immediately rose. How dare he talk to me like that. I know he's in the wind right now. But he really has no right to interfere in my affairs. What else until it talks that sharp to me.

"Be quiet, women don't know themselves!" pekiku angry. "How dare you interfere in my business. Who do you think you are, huh? You're just the wife Siri married my husband. You're an asshole, grabbing a man's husband!"

"But I never betrayed our husband. I never brought a man into my room while Mas Dudy was not home. You should be ashamed to rebuke me like that. Because you're a lot worse than I am!"

"Shut up!"

"You are silent!"

"You have no right to interfere in my affairs!"

"Oh, huh? You forget that I'm Mas Dudy's wife, your husband? What is Mas Dudy's business, then it is also my business. Because I'm hurt, if he gets hurt. I'm happy, if he's happy. Our souls have fused, Ani. And the wound you inflicted on her now has made my heart ache. My love for Mas Dudy is so sincere and I love her so much."

It turned out Ika had really managed to hurt me. Without the slightest pity he attacked me with hurtful words. And Mas Dudy just kept listening. Let him Ika cheer on my destruction. His heart was not moved in the slightest to utter a word of defense for me. He should have spoken. He should have stopped Ika's actions. He should have left a little bit of pity for me. But my husband was silent. He doesn't care...

"Can you ask him to shut up, ma'am?" I said to Mas Dudy.

Dudy looked at Ika. But he did not say a word to the woman. This attitude of his was never expected. Mas Dudy was like a stranger in my eyes right now. But is there really no Ika interference there? Because I saw Ika so excited to clarify my mistake in front of Mas Dudy.

"Already, Ani. You better go home now. It's almost night. It's not good for you to be here any longer" Mas Judy told me.

"But we haven't spoken yet."

"There's nothing more to talk about."

"No, this problem is not over. You don't know the real question."

"For me everything is clear. And I'll take care of our divorce as soon as possible."

"No, please..."

"Go home. Poor kids waiting for you at home."

"For their sake, come home with me to our house."

Mas Dudy shook his head. "Let me order you a taxi" he said, standing up and ordering an online taxi.

***

It turned out that Mas Dudy was not messing around with his decision. Two days later he met Wak Ipah to make his point. Wak Ipah and Faisal were shocked. Similarly, the family of Mas Dudy, even they strongly opposed Mas Dudy's desire to divorce me. I am so grateful, in their eyes I am still a good son-in-law. Apparently they don't believe Mas Dudy's story about my affair.

Maybe regret is no longer useful. In fact, the presence of Ika and Oscar has brought destruction to me. They were like a series of time bombs that went off in my arms to smash me to pieces. There's nothing left now. Not even a speck of love Mas Dudy I have anymore.

My sacrifice is not repaid beautifully. My loyalty only brings wounds. I feel wasted. It was so easy he dumped me like I never had any meaning to him. This misunderstanding can be cleared up. And I would kiss her feet as a sign of remorse for my sins against her. But it turns out she'd rather say divorce and erase me from her life.