SICKENED
episode 9

Sickness#9

Mama, papa, and the maid were busy preparing the food. I was surprised to see Kenzo come in with papa. When our eyes met Kenzo smiled. His right and left hands carried a large paper bag.

Papa welcomes kenzo warmly. Papa immediately told kenzo to sit on the dining chair. Grandpa and Grandma stood up and moved seats. Both of them sat in the dining chair.

I don't want to go and sit in the dining chair. Everyone gathered at the dining table. Except nano. If only our family were like this. Only five will our current state be okay?

But the word if in the real world is useless. A word that is said when someone regrets something.

Nano down while carrying a gift. He joined us at the dinner table. Mom smiled. Then she lit a candle that was on the cake.

The candle is lit. Without waiting for everyone to sing, pray, or express hope. I blew it right away.

It all seems awkward but ends in applause for having no choice. The atmosphere of the dining table was too strange. It feels sad even if nothing happens.

"said you're nina's boyfriend? Your name is kenzo?" ask kenzo. Kenzo smiled and nodded.

"yes" he answered.

"nano told me a lot about you. We hope you can take good care of nina" papa commented awkwardly. I'm still listening.

"yes, no need to worry about nina" Kenzo replied politely.

Everyone shut up again.

"happy birthday" nano offered a gift. But I just looked at him without interest.

"when did we become sisters?" I asked nano. Nano was a little nervous. So did the expressions of mom and dad who changed.

Mama pulled out a big pink teddy bear. His trembling hands tried to give it to me.

"when have I ever liked pink?" mama broke her intention. He put his gift back. From his eyes back flowing the details of the clear granules.

Papa put down his tablespoon. Face hardened. I know papa is angry but I'm not disturbed at all.

"don't you go too far?" papa asked in a more firm tone.

"you're outrageous" I reviewed a hollow smile. "you even threw me out. And now you're making an event for my birthday as if it could erase your sins?"

My papa's speechless. My mother's cries were getting louder and louder, "you never even knew I had heart disease from childhood"

Now everyone is open. Except kenzo. Kenzo already knew. Grandfather and grandmother who initially did not care at this time really focused on waiting for an explanation of the words I just said.

"that's not possible. You have always been healthy. Record your medical no one's in trouble" papa tried to deny. His sharpness had still not changed at all.

"the color of my medical records I've been fake since the beginning" I'm sick of it. I'm really sick of it. I unzipped my bag, took out a clear white map.

Inside was a stack of paper. I put it on the table. "this is the original medical record I kept since I first checked with the heart doctor"

Papa took over the map. Open and read them one by one. The mother who read was crying loudly. Can't stop his feelings anymore.

My mom cried so much. The dining room is getting heavier. Grandpa and Grandma shed tears. Nano could no longer open her eyes.

Why are they crying? Regret their actions to me? Regretting being late to find out? Or because they love me?.

Whatever the reason, it's too late. I had expected this kind of response they would show. But I didn't expect it to be this bad.

Kenzo fell silent. He didn't know what kind of response he wanted. For usually he who always gives a false expression, now he is really honest. With no expression at all.

"sorry dear mama" mama who was about to hug me. I pushed slowly. I stood up and walked a little away.

"you think you have the right to touch me?" mom's body slid to the floor. Mom was crying. Papa is not silent. Papa stood up and hugged my mother. Trying to calm him down.

"nina, we're sorry for being late to realize everything. We will send you abroad for treatment until you recover" papa made his decision with a calm look.

"who do you think can tell me?. You think you have a right to throw me out a second time?. Your mistakes are too big. You lose your rights as parents. You have no right to interfere in my life anymore"

I pulled Kenzo's arm to stand up. Kenzo who doesn't know just obeyed my orders. I clasped his arm tightly.

"for the last time we spoke as children and parents. Please my blessing to marry her after graduation. Although I'm not sure I should ask for your blessing and you guys pantes to ngerestuin me, but I just want to say it. I'm going to marry her even if you don't knowrestuin" I squeezed my fingers. Honestly, I'm really nervous, I'm afraid Kenzo rejected my proposal in front of all of them that I hate.

Kenzo held my hand tightly. Kenzo smiled sweetly. He tilted his head.

"please help pa ma. I'll be the perfect husband for nina" I nodded. Uh, he just accepted my proposal.

It all just happened. It was too spontaneous and sudden. The proposal that I made as a form of revenge actually became the bridge that became the foundation of the formation of destiny in my life.

Flash back off

***

I tapped on the ballpoint pen in my hand. I was in the campus cafeteria. Watching everyone who passes by.

No. gabe. I'm not actually watching them. More precisely I was observing a pair of guys and girls who were busy chatting.

I was waiting for someone in the cafeteria to discuss the task. But it turns out the sights I shouldn't have seen I've just met.

I saw Kenzo joking around with a shoulder-haired girl. He looked so cool that he was unaware of my existence. I'm not jealous. Just seeing a husband look cool joking with another girl is annoying.

I looked up when someone was sitting in front of me. I saw him for a while. Then, give me some of the paper that I have printed.

"wah lo buru really. I was just sitting down and drinking" the guy in front of me smiled and picked up some of the paper.

"hm" I replied without interest. I was really disturbed and uncomfortable because I kept thinking about Kenzo.

"kalo was spoken to it squirms who again talked. Not polite!" he spoke again. I exhaled a rough breath.

"i don't think we're that close to being able to talk casually. Isn't that better to call it impolite?" the guy in front of me was silent.

"i've done all the parts I've corrected as well. You should have time for a re-correction because you are the chairman who will be the first to be responsible if there is a mistake. If you find fault immediately say" I stood up to leave the cafeteria.

"don't you have lunch first?" tanyakanya. I shook my head briefly and walked away from the cafeteria.

I glanced at the spot where Kenzo was sitting. No one who is. Kenzo has gone from there. I shrugged my shoulders and continued my journey.

Today the class is over. I walked out of the campus. Kenzo said that he still has class. I just agree. I don't want to meet Kenzo.

Remembering the incident in the cafeteria still pisses me off. He's a bitch. I walked down the sidewalk. I don't want to go home yet, but I don't have a place to go.

I stopped walking when my chest felt tight. Why did it arrive?. It's been a long time. The schedule for a heart check is still tomorrow. But my chest was like being hit by something hard, making it hard to breathe.

I am not strong even to support my body weight. My body is falling to the ground. The streets were deserted so no one saw and helped me. I cried as my chest grew more painful.

Sucks. Why should it be now. I was hoping Kenzo would appear like a knight in a fairy tale. I hope he shows up and helps me. I've been totally dependent on kenzo.

I'm still an individualist but not in front of Kenzo. I really need it very much even though I rarely show it. Kenzo is everything. He is a perfect husband, though he is often evil.

I cried sobbing. Feeling my chest tightening. I've really been a prankster in his life.

"you are not a pest. You're my wife" kenzo came in with his bright smile. He said something that was like answering a voice in my mind.

Kenzo immediately gave the medicine and also water. I drink it immediately. After feeling calmer, Kenzo invited me to sit on one of the park benches.

"why don't you wait for me?" kenzo asked while stroking my cheek. Removing the trail of my tears.

"i want to go home" I replied in a weak tone.

"why don't you wait for me?" kenzo repeated the question.

"i'm in the same sprain as you" I answered honestly. There is no point in lying either.

"but you could die if there wasn't me" I hissed even more exasperatedly. Why does he always act so thick. His mouth is too evil.

"there is or is not you. I'm gonna have to die. Don't forget you have a sick wife" Kenzo snapped my head slowly.

"where are you going. I will always take care of you. Although we must die we must die the same" Kenzo said convincingly. The word has a deep enough meaning. It is called alay and lebay.

"you're selfish" I leaned my head against him. The pain in my chest slowly disappeared. Kenzo patted me on the shoulder slowly.

"it's all because of you"