SASHAS
FOUR FOUR

I took a deep breath many times before explaining to the Son everything.

"Put, you know not after you've lost so. You go without any reasonable explanation. I'm like the guy who lost his world, you know you're the first guy to be my girlfriend. You know I nerima lo after a lot of news that lo playboy, but lo evidences to me if it turns out it's wrong" I explained, I took another breath before continuing.

"Lo know the cave some days do not want to go out of the room, I just cry. Cave kayak crazy person briefly laughs, momentarily cry, momentarily angry. Gua uda no longer care when there is my family who is sad to see my situation. What I had in mind at that time wanted to meet lo denger explanation lo, but still no results. After that the same father decided to move to this city, they want to see the cave smile again" I explained again, the Son still listens and looks at me.

"After that the cave just realized, the cave must return to what it used to be. The cave slowly buries you, trying to forget all about you. Until someone brought up the past of the cave angry. Finally the cave met Dika, the cave felt in love again. But when the cave wants to start falling in love with others you come again, honestly my feelings are worried." explained me again who is now staring at the Son.

"Why do you come at the wrong time Put. Lo dateng when the uda cave began to move on. You managed to break down my feelings. Evil Put Lo evil" I said while crying.

"This is heavy for Put cave, cave fearing past events repeated again in the cave life. Gua is afraid of Dika's feelings, I'm afraid of laughing at my family and my current best friend. Why do you have to come now? Why?" as I cried more and more, I expressed all my feelings that had been hidden.

"Silver, wicked!" my words are now not just crying but banging on the Son's arm. The son just kept looking at me, there was a look of sadness there, a look of regret.

The son immediately pulled me into his arms, and I did not refuse at that moment. I just cried so badly. I want to throw away the burden that I have been burying.

"Sorry sorry I'll take your pain first. So let me prove yes" said the gentle son. I don't want to deny it either. I don't know what I want right now is to go back to living with the Son without hurting Dika. I know it's wrong, but right now that's how I feel and think.

"But Put, uda cave has Dika" said I who now lowered my head after releasing the arms of the Son.

"I know Sya. We're going until you know where your heart is going. For sure I will not let you go again, I do not want to lose you again" said the Son while stroking my cheek gently. Hearing Son's answer made me even more selfish. Yeah, no harm, right? It's far away there. I will live without even 1 who knows, including Ica my best friend. I'll cover up as weep as possible I murmured in my heart.

After we had been silent for a while the Son continued on his journey which I still did not know where he was going. While I fix my makeup that was erased due to tears.

"Yes!" call the Son again. This time I felt more comfortable when he called me. I don't know like the burden has been lost somewhere.

"Yes" I replied gently, now I'm not pretending to be cynical.

"Thank you, uda want to give me a chance" said the Son as he took my hand for him to hold, I did not refuse in the least.

"I'm the one who thanks you for my situation now, and still beside me." I said as I looked at his face that turned out to be more handsome.

"Mouth. I want us to keep this a secret first. Until I am sure of my heart." said I again, who was a little worried that the Son would reject him.

"Can I call you baby?" asked the Son who seemed to be aware of the change in my attitude after he called out dear. I just nodded which means I accepted she called me dear.

I feel happy, my happiness is more than when I was shot by Dika. Right now I'm enjoying time with my son, not wanting to miss it one bit.

"Oh yes Put, where are we going? Isn't it that after lunch you have to meet clients in the meeting room?" Askaqua.

"You calm down, uda I'm off. Now I want to take you to my mom's house." explained Son.

"What Put? Put me not ready. What am I taking to your house for? No we are back-printers" I said nervously, honestly I was not ready to meet the Putra family. I feel unworthy, because of my relationship with this kind of Son.

"Why? I just wanted to show Papa Sya who I chose until I decided on an arranged marriage. That's it" explained the son.

"Put, I haven't pantes. I'm afraid more and more people are disappointed with me, people who hurt because of me" I said, bowing my head.

"Yes, calm down. Nothing will happen" said the son who grasped my hand and rubbed gently. For some reason every touch of the Son, every soft speech can make me comfortable and calm.

At the moment I don't think about the risks of what will happen in the future. I just live and don't want to lie about my own feelings.

Not long after, we were in front of a more luxurious mansion than my house. The gate opens automatically, it looks a beautiful garden with beautiful colorful flowers. The more entrance looks magnificent white house, with pillars like a palace. This is the first time I've set foot in the Son's house. In the past, even though I dated Son for a long time, I never once knew his house, and never met his Mom.

After getting out of the car, I got nervous. My legs don't feel as strong supporting my body right now.

"Ready Shay, yok" asked the Son while extending his hand, I hesitated to accept his helping hand. But the Son immediately grabbed my hand first with a smile, as soon as my nervousness disappeared.

Arriving at the door of the house, the Son has not had time to knock on the door is already open. A middle-aged woman opens the door like a worker at the Son's house.

"The same mother has been waiting in the family room" said the worker. The son still holds my hand even though I have tried to let go.

"Yes you wait here first yes I will call" said the Son sitting me in the living room, I just nodded.