Ricky Vs Rosa's
39. I'm sorry - 2
"Tomorrow I'll have permission to get out. I have an appointment with Samuel. Maybe I'm a little late at home".
"Go away.you don't have to ask me for permission"
Ricky canceled the meal. Suddenly the hunger was gone and changed with a very painful incision. The wound in her heart felt very deep, just like Rosa.
they were both hurt in silence.
Ricky immediately got out of his seat. Standing behind Rosa who was still sitting in her place.
"I'll eat later. I have an event tomorrow with my friend. Have fun" said Ricky and immediately stepped foot leaving Rosa still silent.
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Rosa
Rosa entered her room. Sitting speechless
What do you expect Rosa. Why do you always hope and keep hoping.
You know that all this can't happen.
Realize who you are. You are just a poor girl from the village.
You can enjoy all this because of luck.
Luck or pity??
It's the same for me, it makes no difference.
If you are aware of everything, why do you still feel hurt by the truth.
You wish there was love Ricky grew for you??
You dream of Rosa.
Wake up.
You're not pretty
You are not sexy
You are not highly educated
What do you have???
What are you offering??
Until you expect a man who is very much different from you
Love
Does your love really mean anything to him??
Can your love make any guarantee that she will be happy with you??
Are you sure he won't suffer a life with you that's all-in short??
Stop Rosa.
You don't deserve him
You don't deserve to be hurt
You don't deserve to be angry with the situation
That's what you are.
Without feeling a tear had dripped in the corner of his eyes.
Slowly the tears came out more and more.
The reality of life is very difficult to accept. So too with Rosa.
In less than 1 week Rosa lived in the house. According to the agreement he had agreed with Ricky.
Put his body on the bed. There were tears that drenched his cheeks with his sleeves.
Tiredness has engulfed his heart. Tomorrow he must go with Samuel as he promised. Rosa also had to prepare her words and heart just in case Samuel expressed his feelings.
Why would Samuel fall in love with her, why not Ricky. The arrogant man who used to hate him so much. The man who used to insult her.
*am I being too cruel to deny Samuel??
He's a good guy.
Had that love come about because of it, I might not have been this sick.
I used to be very interested in him.
But I also realized that the feeling was just a sense of awe not love.
Though being loved by Samuel was a blessing to others. But for me it's not...
I didn't want to hurt her by pretending to love her.
If I hurt him later, I'd lose a very good man to me.
Let everything go as it is.
I want to sleep.I want to rest.
Tomorrow let it be tomorrow.I don't want to think about it tonight*.
He took the cell phone on the table. Trying to find a music app on his phone. After searching for the song he was looking for, he finally found it too.
Sayup-sayup sounds a song that is not foreign to him. Rosa had always sung the song, and now she had felt the story of the song.
Better to be quiet
and take away revenge
No more talking
In order not to get hurt more
Love has limits
No need to be hard on each other
Cannot be forced
The wolf you said was lying
you're doing bullshit
No need to believe anymore
you're just pretending
We're at the end of our farewell
But I always miss
You're the wound I miss
The wounds I miss
by Mahen
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. Happy re-show, happy-tu
