Qalbies
Part 3

I began to doubt what I believed all along. I started to think I loved him. 

***

The girl was still wondering because such a thing was only the first for her. At the same time, he continued to deny that feeling. Trying to understand it as lust.

He convinced himself that it was all an illusion played by the devil. A truly determined enemy whispers heresy.

The girl was sure that her feelings would slowly disappear. Maybe a week or two.

With a sweet smile, Qalbie walked into the campus gate. Today he hopes he won't see Rian.

Indeed, since it had been the fifth semester, the skinny man had only gone to college twice in one week. So he wasn't too worried about seeing her every day.

As usual, Qalbie attended Pharmacology lessons that usually started at eight in the morning.

It has been 08.20 Wita, but the lecturer has not yet arrived.

After the needle pointed at 08.37 Wita the new lecturer came and immediately filled the class.

At the beginning of the meeting, the lecturer apologized for the delay because there were some things he had to take care of in the hospital.

Qalbie and his friends understood.

Of course, not all reasons are acceptable.

He had also heard the story of his boarding friends that on his friend's campus there was a lecturer who always brought children to teach and the child was not playing fuss so often the lecturer only gave temporary discussion assignments he was busy taking care of his son. Finally the discussion went on without anyone watching.

Of course, this kind of learning is very ineffective because when students make false statements, no one can straighten them out. As a result, the understanding of all students in the room will be wrong.

Lucky Qalbie because on the campus there is no lecturer like that.

Qalbie and his group of friends discussed analgesic or anti-pain medications. They were given the task of creating presentation materials in the form of wall magazines.

Fortunately, the books in the library are very complete and have been published for the last five years. This fact is very different from the library on his cousin's campus who often complains that most books in his campus library are already ‘kadaluarsa’ while lecturers always demand that in the making of assignments, the, the literature must be from books published in the last five years.

“Actually we could have bought a book, but most books are incomplete and the course is not just one while not all students are able to buy a book.” That was what his cousin said at the time.

I don't think the lesson is over.

Qalbie and his group of friends have already obtained four literature books. The wall magazine will be presented next week.

Now it's the next lecturer's turn to fill the room.

This time Qalbie learned about basic human needs. And the method used by lecturers is the lecture method interspersed with questions and answers.

On the sidelines of the learning process, Qalbie unconsciously often looked at him blankly. I don't know what he's thinking.

“Qalbiii ... Qalbiii...” the friend sitting on the side shook his shoulder.

It turns out that since then the lecturer has been watching. He who usually actively asks questions and always listens attentively, is now daydreaming.

Qalbie soon realized from his daydreams and tried to restore his concentration to listen to the lecture material. But this time he really couldn't.

As usual, he always looked at the face of the lecturer who explained to quickly understand. But apparently, the shadow he caught was unusual.

Slowly the face of his lecturer changed shape into the face of Rian. Though the lecturer who teaches is a female lecturer.

His heart rate increased, the surrounding noises began to be inaudible.

Qalbie remained with his heart rate rising, staring at Rian's sweet face.

This went on for a few seconds before he shook his head and returned to the bar.

***

“Miftah, have you ever been in love?” ask Qalbie.

“Mmmm .. if you like someone, ever. But if you fall in love, it seems like you've never been. Why?” Mimic Miftah's face was very serious while Qalbie looked puzzled at the question.

“Don't tell me you're in love?”  guess best friend.

“Mmmm...” Qalbie thought about the answer while Miftah looked impatient.

“Jawab dong, Qalbiii..”.

“I don't know exactly Miftah. His face is often drawn. And my heart rhythm increased with the appearance of that shadow. He said, when we look into the eyes of our loved ones, there will be strange vibrations that feel down to the bottom of the heart.”

“Cieeee ... who is he?” Miftah is getting curious.

"Sister Rian"

“Oooh, that pretentious and messy Rian? What!?” Miftah is flabbergasted when she realizes that the man who made her best friend unable to concentrate is Rian.

As it fell from the sky, the spirit to listen to Qalbie's story instantly collapsed.

At first Miftah suspected that the man was another man who looked clean, neat and sholeh. The man who is the dream of every woman. But the truth turned around by a hundred and eighty degrees.

Miftah hit Qalbie on the shoulder like an older sister scolding her sister.

“Aduh ... hurts! Miftah.” Qalbie grimaced stroking his shoulder.

“Sorry Qalbie ... I really did not expect!” Miftah looked disappointed.

“I'm also confused. Never did I imagine in the slightest to have this kind of feeling on Brother Rian.”

“Be careful Qalbie. It could be just a devil's illusion to entrap you in a prison of disobedience. I think Brother Rian is not a good man!”

“Miftah, I also feel this vibration is not love, but lust. But ... You cannot determine the good character of others. Maybe Rian's brother does look messy and likes to talk casually. But no one has ever entered into his heart and mind to see the good bad character of Kak Rian. Are there not words of wisdom that state that; even 1000 years will not be enough to know how a person's character is?”

“Iya, deh, yaaa. But Qalbie, don't mind that feeling. Even if you can, you have to fight it. I'm sure if you keep trying, maybe within a week you can forget about it. Fighting!” Miftah cheered on her best friend while Qalbie could only smile listlessly.

***

Qalbie was busy flipping through the pages of his book. His eyelids only blink once. It's been almost an hour that he's done the same. Miftah could only shake her head at the girl.

A while later, Qalbie suddenly turned his gaze towards the door, like looking for something.

Miftah watched her best friend's attitude carefully.

Qalbie walked out of the room quickly while Miftah followed him from behind.

The girl found Qalbie staring at Rian, who was busy talking to her friend at the end of the corridor.

Miftah holds the shoulder of her best friend, “Qalbie.

“Ya?” Qalbie's eyes were fixed on Rian. Not blinking at all.

Miftah stood right in front of Qalbie.

Making the girl immediately bow and then sit in front of the class.

“I can't Miftah. It's been over two months but I still remember it. You know why I know Rian's brother was there? It's because I heard his voice. I can feel when Brother Rian is around me. I began to doubt what I believed Miftah had been. I'm starting to think that I love her.”

Miftah was at a loss for words hearing the girl. When she looked into his eyes, she could feel how tormented Qalbie was by her own feelings.[]