Qalbies
Part 1's

Robbiii .. do I deserve to be a coolant in his house? While this heart is still full of black scribbles.

Robbiii...if I open my heart to him, will this heart still long for You who have created my soul and body?

I was afraid I would miss him more. I'm scared, yeah, Robb....

Such is the thread of prayer that Qalbie— recited four years ago when God settled a line of meeting so short between himself and Dzul. The young man's words about marriage, managed to touch his innocence. But it didn't last long. Because after growing up, the girl was even convinced that the speech was nothing more than a joke.

Soft yellow skinned girl slender with round eyes. Smile cheap and bring calm. His tiny body and baby face make many people think that he is still in High School.

Qalbie lives in a religious neighborhood in his village. His grandfather was a mosque imam and his family was very respected. Even so, Qalbie was well aware that she was just an ordinary girl whose hijab was only the age of corn. That is why, the reality of the association of Muslim youth that he witnessed in the metropolitan city, sometimes makes the girl very afraid. There are many Muslim teenagers who were originally obedient teenagers, but eventually slipped in a negative association in the style of the city.

As a teenager who is new to the maturity phase, of course falling in love is natural.  But the girl was afraid that she would listen more to the promptings of Satan than to the verses of Allah. Because of this, he never thought of being in a relationship more than just a friend. For him, the world would be beautiful if everyone looked after each other like brothers.

At first Qalbie was astonished. What he found in the city was completely different. Girls in the village are very caring attitude, even the way they laugh was arranged—not to be uprooted. Especially related to the relationship with the opposite sex.

As for the size of the girls in Qalbie village, the hand touched by a foreign man alone is considered a disgrace. Strictly prohibited. Especially if you do something bigger than that.

When entering the first day of campus orientation, Qalbie's heart still asked, Robbiii ... is my place really here?

It happened because the choice to enter the nursing campus is the result of emotional decisions. Qalbie still remembers that day. In the room, he took off the veil, then threw it full of anger. His heart cried out that God was unfair. How could he possibly fail to enter State University while his grades were better than others?

After crying, Qalbie then beristighfar. Try to convince yourself that God has a better plan.

The first month until the third month, everything went well. Although sometimes he feels sad to see the association of most of his friends. How not, many of them do not feel ashamed to show off their affection in front of others. As if the world belonged to them.

Once upon a time Qalbie tried to advise a friend who he had considered like his own brother. At that time his friend took his girlfriend to the boarding room. Actually the girl believed that they would not do anything negative. But the closer they got, the more Qalbie felt he had no other choice. He felt guilty if he had to sit around quietly-let him alone.

“Hmmm .. you guys are not yet muhrim, loh.”

Qalbie tried to remind, but she was even ridiculed as a village girl who pretended to be an ustadzah. As a gentle-hearted girl, of course she was hurt, but she kept smiling and said, “My brother .. I tried to remind you not to feel better. But I hope, someday if I am caliph, you guys can be by my side to remind me.”

The girl was aware that her faith tended to be fickle, sometimes ebbing. He hoped that, if one day his faith was receding, one would remind him not to do the forbidden. Maybe one day he will be in the same position. Moreover, he lives alone in the middle of the wilderness of the city. A place where thousands of temptations lurk. It could have been, without realizing the dust of the city had eroded his faith.[]