MISSY
Back to the past

Illona blinked slowly, recalling, then her gaze turned sharp.

That guy's right here.

Right next to his bed, holding his hand tightly.

"What do you want?" he asked slowly, because indeed he did not have the energy to rampage or slap the man.

"I want to clear it up..." Ibra breathed a heavy sigh, very hard, because her chest was getting sore when she remembered the agreement between herself and Taka. "but I was also confused, I was afraid that whatever I took would make you sick."

"I've been sick for a long time, you just helped me aggravate," Illona reluctantly stared at the brown netra she so admired.

He is preparing for anything, whatever will happen. Maybe his heart will be broken more than before, right?

Ibra pinched, gulping her hard-earned saliva. I really want him to calm down or maybe he spreads his promises as usual. Honey, Illona won't believe it, it'll all be free. Defense, the expression of feelings will not be able to make Illona again believe and make them back together.

Ahh, Ibra really enjoyed her role well. Being a coward doesn't make Illona even more hurt.

"You're leaving, I'm just as miserable as you are" Illona said, not comfortable having to be quiet as I am today. Then turned his body back to Ibra.

He wants to be alone, thinking about what he should do. Defend or let go, because actually both are never the best choice.

Illona knew God was angry with her, leaving her in a great sin that she was guilty of.

Because Illona already knew, the baby couldn't be the reason Ibra survived, there's another baby that the man has to account for.

Also the most painful part he betrayed two people who Illona greatly admired and trusted.

Fransiska and Ibra, Ahh .., they both completely rendered Illona inexhaustible. How could? or why should they both? Illona probably would have accepted if Ibra had chosen another woman, not a woman who had shared anything with her from childhood. He considers his own brother.

Ibra was disappointed, disappointed at the circumstances that made it difficult to choose, also hurt because Illona was reluctant to listen to any explanation and more painful when the choice to defend was almost non-existent.

So what Ibra does is choose to wait for Illona to sleep while remembering well, what kind of woman he has hurt so badly, has given him everything, ahh ..., he was enjoying his guilt slowly.

***

The baby was thrown out.

And Illona almost chose to go on appeal forced to defend.

There is no Ibra.

Neither should her parents support her.

Illona was alone, in great pain, and with some thoughts that made her unable to see properly.

There was the agreement of her father and Ibra in removing the baby.

They did not tell from the beginning, there was no reproach for Illona to speak.

All felt very fast, when a lump of flesh that had not yet formed came out in him with undue circumstances.

Illona even lost consciousness the moment the baby was released.

Then, when you realize that everything is no longer the same.

Also Ibra's words that made her almost hang herself.

"You've got everything Ita, I'm sure you'll be fine, just like before." Ibra stared flatly, taking a deep breath as well as that haughty look made Illona aware. Ibra doesn't feel lost like she does. So, what was that sorry look? is it possible that Illona saw wrong, yes, maybe Illona misjudged the man.The good man she once gave everything, the man with the softest gaze that made him a fool. She thought Ibra wanted the baby, but not at all.

Yes ..., obviously Ibra also agreed, right? throw away a kid who doesn't even know anything. Letting Illona endure everything herself.

"We're still in college together, but I chose Siska, she has no one. She also contains." Then the man left without Illona giving a curse or a slap.

Did Ibra forget that her heart that had just been broken was now turned to nothing.

Choosing Fransiska said? because containing? did the man lose his memory when he said it all. Wasn't she pregnant before. Before the boy was thrown out with the father's permission. Is Illona doing the latest soap opera with a very sad title and story?

And Illona is getting more and more in the groves of pain when her mother or father seems to not care. They both go on vacation around Japan with friends that Illona considers to be demons.

Ibra said she had everything, right? see what Illona has now?

"You're wrong, I don't even have anyone to back up. You are the only one, so why give everything. I am wrong, stupid, naive and forget myself, I love you as sincerely but in fact you are not" he said while rubbing rough tears that did not want to stop down.

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Sorry for typo...

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