MAYANG PUJAKU
One Night Have Arjuna
The earth rotates, the light and dark sides alternate.
I am like the twilight sky, slowly turning my back to the Mentari.
Your figure, I slowly couldn't find, in my vision.
It's very hard for me to leave the human I've always been waiting for, and then have to leave it so soon.
Who knows, the twilight sky actually does not want to lose its bright color, he wants to always face and look at the sun of his puja.
Like me, who wants to always look at my adored Arjuna.
"Hey, you're so dumb, what's may thinking?"
"I'm in love, brother."
Hearing my words that were as simple as that, Brother Tiar was speechless. I know the reason for being such a mum.
"That's Brother Tiar, I'm stupid, I shouldn't be in love, I'm very conscious of my circumstances. Which family of men would accept a woman like me."
Again, Brother Tiar did not answer my words. But his hand suddenly rested on my shoulder, and said.
"I get it, I get it. Love can't be determined who we want."
"Darling, I can guess what kind of man you love, from the look on your face, it looks like he's a good person, and you don't feel it's worth it."
Brother Tiar does understand me the most, she is a very sensitive and loving woman. Maybe I'm not considered a sister by her, but a child, but it's also possible. I just deduce from his attitude towards me.
"Thank you, Brother Tiar. Big sister is the greatest woman. Hehe."
"Where did you learn from? How good to praise like this, haha."
"That's a fact, sister, hihi"
Now we have arrived at work, which is also my place to stay. Because, me and Brother Tiar came late, we so rushed chased time, about ten minutes more Clube where we work will open. I immediately ran to my room to take a shower and get ready.
*****
At 07:30, the closed writing attached to the door, now turned open. we were really late. changed tulsan closed to open, Marking the Club has been opened to the public. 7 of the Club's flagship nymphs, the, the members of one of them are, me and Tiar, ready to serve the guests who need our services. For some reason every time I look at the front door of the Club, I always remember the first time I walked in here, the first time I was a pramuria.
And the night when I throw away my things deliberately, with open arms, a heavy heart and willingly without clumsiness. Just expect, some red paper.
At that time I let go of my crown, with a heart and mouth that is not in rhythm. My heart refused my lips to enjoy. I don't deserve the word virgin, because from that moment on I've been stuck in a vicious cycle that keeps trapping me in disdain. I still hope, one day will find my origin from the ribs of men who want to accept more and less of me.
"Will God give a partner or soul mate the same as I am today? I would be ashamed if my husband would not find my purity.”
"Sacred is no longer in my body, and the smell of humiliation is always on me. Now that I'm not a virgin anymore, sins are already piled up on my shoulders, even increasing in a matter of seconds."
****
"May!"
"Darling!"
"Aahh, why's Brother Tiar?"
“Engga ko sis. I just want my brother Danang again, I miss Danang.”
Sometimes, there's something I have to share alone, something I don't deserve to share with others.
******
Time has passed, the clock continues to spin, without feeling dizzy, the sound of music getting louder night, making my head more wild, and my head is getting more, plus my stomach was doused with alcohol even a little but for me it still feels.
Tonight as usual ‘no one as special’ thought me before finding the figure of a man who was seriously drunk. My eyes found you, somehow he knew you were there, in the dark, somewhere not even in the glittering lights. You're not like a star, you're like a sun that has your own light.
I don't know how many bottles he has spent, until his body is no longer able to position. And that very familiar face, made me moved to approach him, but my heart still hesitated ‘Will he be with a woman like me?’ to dispel that doubt, I drank the same glass of drink that the man drank, now I am ready.
“Mas, by yourself? … would you like to be cemented ga?”
‘Aiss, why am I flirty? Since when have I been all this?’
because of the influence of drinks, I feel more wild. Arjuna looked at me, with his already heavy eyes in sight.
My heart beat very hard, seeing a sweet smile and eyes that seemed to be holding back sleepiness.
“Ok deh, for a while I metemenin You, mumpung still empty.”
Now you're in front of me, a figure I admire very much. Had not believed you who I admire like a god in the Ramayana story, would come to my place of contempt.O Arjuna although I am not the Srikandi you love. At least make me your honey when Srikandi meets the moon.
Arjuna suddenly fell down, probably because he had been drinking too much.
"Mas, hey Mas, don't sleep here Mas." I'm trying to wake up Arjuna who's already drooping, lulled in alcohol.
'He's not aware of it yet, kasian kalo in here.'
then I took the initiative to bring Arjuna to a motel near the Clube, the distance is not too far, only on foot can still be visited.
'The body is very heavy.'
I was overwhelmed carrying Juna's larger body compared to my body. The smell of Arjuna's body I can breathe, the smell arouses desire, makes my embrace tight, the ego enters my heart Tonight, you are as if you are all mine, I don't care anymore, who I am and who you are. Arjuna drank alcohol, but I got drunk.
“Eumm ... hooooeek.”
Arjuna suddenly pushed my body, and his mouth gave off all the water he could not digest. His hands held the weight of the body against the walls of the building and continuously removed the water he drank.
“you ain't nothing mas?”
“Ahh, my head, my head is dizzy once.”
“This drink first, I happen to bring water.”
Arjuna immediately drank the water I gave ‘Will you also accept this feeling I endure? Honestly, even though we don't know each other yet, I can guarantee my feelings this is love.’ “Thinking what I am.”
“Mas don't sit here, let me help you get up, soon until.”
Arjuna just followed my orders, ‘dia obedient once, I so add gereget.’ Sorry juna tonight you're mine.
SERIATE.
