Little Story About You
CHAPTER 16: FEAR AND DISAPPOINTMENT

That day Abel went to Hugo and Reni's house.

Both of them quickly entered the yard of the house painted gray and white, the paint fence is black as high as two meters driven Afreni.

The house looks empty. Once inside, Afreni invites Abel into the dining room. The two sat opposite each other, bounded by a round table where Hugo and Afreni had breakfast every morning.

Abel looked at the entire semi-outdoor room, which showed a beautiful side and back yard, because the walls were deliberately made of glass, and the floor of the wall was decorated by white curtains that opened wide.

“Ray the design of this house.” Afreni's word broke Abel's mind. He answered Abel's attention while watching every corner of the house.

“Ooh.” Abel nodded. Abel could not avoid, that every design made by Ray's hand was always impressive. The talent of the man in the field of architecture deserves a thumbs up.

“Bel.” The sound and touch of Afreni's hand made Abel flinch from his mind.

“Iya, Brother?” Abel became clumsy, because Afreni was looking at him so intensely. His face turned tense as well.

“So Reni noticed, your relationship, Ray, same Cindy so tense now. Wh why? ”

“Ooh..” Abel smiled faintly. “Abel does not like the way brother Ray same Cindy.” Regardless of Afreni's status is Ray's brother. He revealed frankly the annoyance in his heart.

Afreni nodded in understanding.“What are they anyway? Bother you, will you?”

“Very disturb. Abel felt sorry, Brother. Regulated. Abel doesn't like them the same way, brother. ” Not only his sentence and voice, his eyeballs were similarly upset.

Afreni was silent for a moment.“Do you love Ray?”

Abel was surprised and had long been silent to hear Afreni's question just now. While it doesn't need to be answered, Afreni certainly knows the answer. Abel who had long curled up pain held back his feelings for Ray. Even the time is up telling Ray in front of Afreni without shame and hesitation. But he finally realized, that he had only been next to the party all along.

“OK. Don't force yourself to answer.” The word Afreni rubbed gently on the back of Abel's hand on the table. Afreni got up from the chair to the refrigerator, took a glass of water and put in front of Abel.

“Still, Brother.” Abel drank the water in front of him, then exhaled heavily.

“You're sure of yourself? Ray same Cindy united? You don't want to try one more chance. Who knows Ray misplaced his heart.”

“Means Brother Reni?”

“Do not take heart. Brother Reni just wanted to talk.”

Abel nodded. He seemed to bow his head in silence long enough to speak again.“Abel is still learning. Only, yes they are still bothering Abel. What is angry, wrong Abel Kak? Abel stay away not hate them. Abel is just trying to protect himself from the reality that exists now. ”Abel looks emotional.

“Sshhh... Nothing is right. You're both wrong. You always use emotions every face. This is the real problem of you.”Afreni said it was full of pressure.

“Sorry, Brother. Abel just doesn't like to be bothered they keep going.”

“Interrupt how do you mean?”

“Abel to be free, Brother. Abel must find solace for himself now. But they don't like to see Abel happy. Every business Abel precisely they interfere.” Reveal fiery.

“Ray same Cindy also ngakuin their disappointment about you. They're the same story with Reni and Bang Hugo.”

Abel was surprised to hear that. “Times anyway, Brother?”

“Iya. They don't want you to change. If you are sincere, be yourself usually. Don't try to keep your distance or create a kayak melee right now. They don't like.”

“But Abel's life is arranged the same they are, Sister. Abel hangs out with who, they should know. Their attitude was over mama and papa Abel at home. Abel's own biological parents.”

“Don't be cynical that.” Afreni looked unhappy at Abel's reaction.

Abel exhaled loudly.

“They're not long for fiancee. If you can, please help them, you should give advice. Try kayaking again, Bel. Not hard, is it?” he stared at Abel who was still implying anger from the pair of eyes of the girl.

“Ndon't know, Brother. Abel is still in doubt.” Abel's response still seemed upset. His views are directed to the outer courtyard of Afreni's house, a sign that he no longer wants to discuss Ray and Cindy.

Afreni smile. He understands Abel's feelings are being sensitive at this time, let alone related to Ray and Cindy. Afreni will not force Abel again to speak further. Afreni is worried that Abel will misunderstand him later.

It only lasted for a moment the silence created between the two. Then the atmosphere suddenly dispersed upon hearing a single sound coming from the main door. The two looked towards the source of the voice. Before long, the owner of the voice showed himself. The presence of a middle-aged woman who is not foreign─ibu from Afreni and Ray.

“Abel is here.” The middle-aged woman smiled warmly greeting Abel while putting two grocery bags on the table. His attitude remained as usual, even though his relationship with his mother and father Abel was no longer as harmonious as before.

“Iya, Aunt.” Abel nodded politely and shook his hand.

“How are you? I haven't seen Abel.” Mama Ray took a seat on the chair next to Abel.

“Good. Healthy aunt?” askalanya.

“Iya. Healthy aunt, Nak.” Mama Ray replied gently.

“Thank God. Oh yeah, Abel can't stay long, Auntie. Abel still has to go to Hugo's bang workshop. There's Abel.”'s car As he got up from the chair.

“Hurry so.” Afreni immediately responded disappointed.

“Iya, Brother. Sorry.” Abel Sesal.

Afreni nodded in understanding. “Yaudah, Big brother ojek, yes? Let's not be too tired.”

“Ngak, Sis. Abel walk. Let all take a walk.” Refuse smooth.

“Yakin?” ask Afreni sangsi.

“Iya, Brother.” Abel nodded firmly. His gaze changed on the middle-aged woman beside him, having experienced his hand again. “Abell first, Aunt.”

Mama Ray nodded, but did not immediately let go of Abel's hand. “We talk briefly outside.” He said a little slowly.

Abel's smile slowly loosened upon hearing that. Suddenly he felt less good. But already, so inevitably he resigned with mama Ray to the terrace.

“Bby, Aunt.”

Then mama Ray looked at Afreni. “Ren, Mama bring the cooking ingredients. You stack it first into the fridge.” Pinta. Makes Reni understand that her mother does not want her to participate in the conversation.

“Yaudah, Ma.”

***

“How are papa news with your mama? They healthy?” the first question Abel heard from Ray's mom, after they sat down five minutes ago in silence.

Abel smile. “He's healthy, Aunt.”Answer Abel stiff.

“Send their greetings. Aunty does not expect tension between your parents, Cindy's parents, Auntie and om. We're all family. Forever remain family.”

Abel nodded. “Abel is also the same Aunt.” Then Abel felt his hand suddenly being held by Mama Ray. Making him have to look at mama Ray who is also looking at him straight.

“Tante and om sorry, we never chose you. You may feel neglected all this time. But, it's not wrong actually, son. It was our decision as Ray.”'s parents

Abel nodded again, but slower than before. Swallowing the endless pain pierced her current feelings. He was so scared when his tears were spilling now. His being held back was desperately the thing that was seeping into his chest at this moment.

“Since the beginning of knowing Cindy, Aunt and om agreed. will make Ray and Cindy a couple in the future. Lucky once, without having to tired of draining our energy to bring the two closer, they even have been interested in each other for a long time.” There was a satisfied tone heard from his voice as he said that.

It made Abel's throat choked and his head bowed deeply. He was afraid that his tears would suddenly close his entire eyeball which was starting to heat up.

“Iya Aunt.” Abel answered in a soft voice.

Abel bit his lower lip. She's afraid to cry. Only now in his life was he afraid of crying.

“You understand, right?”Mama Ray doesn't know that. Almost every time he watches Ray and Cindy unable to work quietly. Especially when it comes to engagement. Both of them were always anxious and talked about Abel endlessly. Not to be unhappy, but Ray's mom wants her son and Cindy not to make Abel the center of their attention at this time. Where they should be focusing on engagement.

Abel nodded. That was all he could do when he felt a huge wedge strangling his neck.

“Don't forget, you should also be present at their engagement later. Invitation for your papa and mama follows.”This time Mama Ray gently rubbed Abel's shoulder.

Abel raised his face again. “States... Auntie?” he asked with a severed voice.

“Still in two weeks. Auntie just reminded Abel. Auntie was worried that Abel would refuse to attend. Especially to make our family tension as an excuse not to come.”

“Hmm.”

After leaving Afreni's house, Abel was no longer able to stem the tears and cries that had been held desperately since.

The girl suddenly felt faint and crouched down, burying her face towards the earth, enduring the pain that stabbed her heart. Making him want to scream loudly evaporated the anger that was pressing on his chest at this moment.

On the side of the road close to the tall bushes on his right side. The girl did not care about the sound of horns screaming around her, either because she saw herself, or there were other vehicles coming from the opposite direction. The shock from his shoulder further convinced the people who were passing by on the street, that Abel was really crying.

When she felt a gentle touch on her shoulder, Abel raised her head, revealing her red, puffy face to a foreign woman in front of her.

“You okay?”

Abel quickly wiped away her tears, with a hoarse voice he replied. “Iya, Mom. I am doing well. Excuse me.” He said politely then through the mother.

Abel was still crying and erased the clear feathers flowing on his face with a smooth crying voice, while he stepped continuously on the side of the road.

It wasn't the engagement that made her cry as much as she did now, but rather the blatant rejection of her for Ray that the boy's mother had said earlier. Making him even more desperate, even though Ray did not choose Cindy, the man's parents still sided with his cousin.

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Abel woke up early in the morning, his eyes were still swollen from crying yesterday and still continued until late at night. His head felt heavy and made him almost fall from the bed. Seeing the clock working on the table showing five past thirty minutes, the girl immediately rose from the bed to the bathroom.

Her face was washed and rubbed using her face wash cosmetics neatly arranged over the sink, then brushing her teeth. Abel exhaled a sigh of relief after seeing his face slightly bright in the mirror. Then get out of there to the closet, to pick up her training clothes. Abel decided to go jogging around the block so that his mood slightly improved.

The effort was like a way to replace the air in his lungs that felt tight since yesterday.

Abel went down the stairs and went to the kitchen, one glass of water he spent, then another bottle of water he took to suppress his thirst while traveling from one block to another.

His mother and family home assistant─bik Sumi who was busy cooking in the kitchen.

“Again, Ma.” Abel kissed her mother's cheek.

“Udah wake up?” ask her mother unsuspecting, because when Abel came home, her mother was already asleep in the room. Abel deliberately went home at night and of course contacted his mother first so as not to cause anxiety.

“Iya, Mother. Abel's body is easily tired now. I think it needs sport.”

“Yaudah hunt there. So that the check-up tomorrow you look fresh.”

“Yaampun yes too. Abel forgot that, Ma.” Abel just remembered that tomorrow was his last schedule to check up back at the hospital. He hopes there will be a chance to meet Ibram at the hospital tomorrow.

“You Mama masakin breakfast what's abis jogging?”

“What aja, Ma.”

“Judah. Careful dear.”

“Siap, Maaa.”

***

After touring, Abel stopped at a field. It's a dozen rounds, which Abel did to the green grass field. It is located on the side of the children's playground housing his house.

For a long time, Abel seemed to deliberately ignore the tightness that was not comparable to the feelings that plagued him lately. Although it began to be felt since entering the seventh round that fatigue had hit him. In fact, the sweat on his body had poured out, and the hair that was pigtailed by the horse also absorbed his sweat.

Abel's body finally gave up. Abel felt limp uncontrollably again, making himself lose balance because he could not withstand the tightness in his chest. The girl fell down, her knees and palms slammed against the green grass beneath her. Refraining his body from collapsing into the earth.

A bottle of mineral water, can Abel feel thrust someone in front of him. Abel lifted his tired face and looked at the man.

Abel flinched when he saw Ray standing before him, extending his hand forward, intending to help himself stand up. She hesitated, but Abel finally welcomed the man's hand. He will not try to avoid it again. He had to get used to that harsh reality now.

“Drink the water.” Ray pointed at the bottle that Abel was still holding.

Abel did so until the water in the bottle left no ludes. After that he threw the empty bottle on the red trash can on his left side with a throw right on the target.

After that, they decided to sit together on one of the park benches under a shady tree overlooking the green field. Enjoy the hot sun that begins to burn the skin even though it is still morning, a gust of wind that is sometimes felt on their skin.

“Getting better?”

“Hmm.”

Ray smiled at Abel. “I'm relieved, you're acting mature now. There is no need for a fight of mouth and muscles like yesterday and yesterday again yesterday also yesterday again and ke─”.

“STOP! Uda ya.” Abel immediately disconnected Ray's sentence which made the man carve a smile. The man did it deliberately, so that the atmosphere between them melted a little.

“Bel.”

“Iya?”

Ray smiled with relief because Abel finally did not scream loudly with the volume of a loud voice to reject him.

“Kayak long time you are not this friendly.”

“Ooh.” Abel nodded faintly.

“Starting today, don't hindarin me anymore. That's also if you don't see me like a crazy person like yesterday.” There was strong pressure and dominance from Ray's voice just now.“You can promise, right?” ray's voice came back because Abel had not responded.

“I'm working on.”Abel answered with a warm smile.

“Finally,” there is relief from Ray's voice. Made Abel look at her. Ray explained his sentence just now.“Rough language yesterday you stayed too.” Clearly, so Abel's face became red.

“Sorry, yes.”

“I also.”

Hearing Ray quickly regret his childish attitude at that time, Abel looked at the man with a smile slowly imprinted on his lips.

Also Ray, the man's hand extended to the top of Abel's head, but the girl quickly avoided, so that the man's smile disappeared instantly.

“We're going home, brother. It's eight.” Abel said as he moved from the bench, had made Ray stunned long enough, and collapsed after hearing Abel's voice again. “Come, Brother Ray.”

“Iya.”

Abel was three steps ahead of Ray who was walking leisurely with both hands sinking into his pants pocket, looking at Abel who was turning his back. But Ray's mind was still not off over Abel's reaction to him just now. It was not an evasive attitude like before, it was like a form of rejection that he could not understand at all.

Ray failed to understand. He did not realize that Abel was avoiding not because he did not like the habits of the man as he used to do. However, their circumstances have been different now. He won't be able to treat her as freely as he used to, because there are other women out there that he has to take care of his feelings. That person was Abel's own cousin. Despite having to press deeply the turbulent feeling that increasingly made his heart unsettled, as well as difficult to close his eyes every night.

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