Hijrah Stories
Episode 8
Heru asked “ if deni has a girlfriend or not”, I who was in the curtain and heard her question heru was very impatient waiting for the answer to be said by dani, by laughing and answering “ I do not have a boyfriend, and I do not want to date because courting is approaching adultery, religion also prohibits courtship, and I do not want to date, inshaAllah if Allah brings me with my soul mate I want to get married immediately or else I want to taaruf”, I who heard the answer from deni immediately smiled in awe because not all men have thoughts like deni, but, more men who want to date than taaruf he said they are dating to get to know each other more.
I who have never dated also want and have the same thoughts as deni, I feel that courtship is detrimental to both parties, besides courtship does not guarantee anything, there are many examples if the courtship for years belom certainly match.
After sunrise we were picked up by our seniors and returned to our boarding houses and underwent activities like before we took up training, since returning from training I no longer meet deni but somehow I always remember the face of deni and recitation of the holy verse al-qur’an which he chanted when he became a congregational prayer priest. After a few days of our return from training on my phone there was an incoming message in WA when I opened WA I got a message from the training group, as soon as I saw the WA group I immediately saw the group members I was very happy because deni was also included in the group, kelang a few minutes chat from deni into WA group he said “ save yes WA number all members in this group so that our communication continues to run uninterrupted” I saw the message it instantly stored the deni number, I guess only I kept the deni number but it was not deni also save my number.
Even days passed by WA groups that were once crowded now there is no more chat to greet each other, I thought that because I hadn't seen each other for months and didn't call each other that I had deleted my WA number but my guess was wrong and didn't delete my WA number at all, yes we did not contact each other but I was very happy because even though I did not contact each other I could still see the face of deni and see deni activity through his story upload in WA.
my college friends almost all already have a different boyfriend than me who does not have a boyfriend, sometimes I feel having a girlfriend is fun, I see my friends who have a boyfriend I feel they are very happy, I feel they are very happy, I have a friend who has a boyfriend, they always go for a walk, there is always someone to pay attention, and they also often get gifts from their girlfriends while I do not have a girlfriend I just spend time in the boarding to study, and they also often get gifts from their girlfriends, watch TV and if you want to go for a walk I have to wait for my friend to have some free time.
Because I was desperate and away from my parents I considered boarding houses a second home for me and the brothers who lived in the room I considered them my family, I love living in a boarding house because I have a brother they always look at me like their sister, from childhood I want a brother or sister but my desire is different from my destiny, I only had one brother but my brother died before I was born so I never met and knew my brother.
So many men approached me but I never responded to them I just stayed away from them what my day was I was just a girl who had the thought that family was the most important thing in those days teenager, my,
I only think about college, working and making money to meet the needs of my parents in their old age, I put my family's interests and desires first than mine, not infrequently I often sacrifice for the happiness of my parents, but I never regretted it all because it was supposed to be a dutiful child for both parents, because as much as a child sacrifices for both parents will not be enough to repay the services and sacrifices of parents for their children.
during college almost all the time I spent in the boarding room I just went out to the campus, to the stall to buy cooking ingredients, and, just like other boarding children during the boarding house I just lying down playing mobile phones and watching Korean dramas through my laptop, at that time I only liked to watch Korean dramas but one day I saw kak naila watching a movie about Muslim women who were struggling towards hijrah.
kak Naila: this deck again watch a movie about Muslim women who want to migrate to improve themselves very exciting loh deck, watch the movie, here the deck to watch together once in a while watching an Islamic movie do not watch a Korean drama mulu!
Ayu: no ah ayu not like
kak naila: here try to watch first would like if not watch would say not like, do not like,
Because of the persuasion from kak naila I finally want to watch the film, I thought the film was very boring but it turns out that the film contains a lot of lessons, especially for a woman who wants to start the hijrah process like me, so that I who had not liked the film about hijrah now became very fond of the film about hijrah.
Seeing films about hijrah makes my determination more and more rounded to emigrate, I began to learn from kak naila and I who had not liked to read books at all now began to get used to reading books about hijrah, he said, in addition, I also participated in studies held once a week outside of college hours.
The first step to start hijrah is my intention to continue to strengthen my intention, sister naila once told me “dik hijrah was not easy hijrah was difficult, it was difficult, if the sister has chosen the path of hijrah in the process of hijrah the sister will meet and face many obstacles not infrequently the obstacles will make the establishment of the sister become shaky, but the sister must be strong and brave in the face of all obstacles, the sister must still go forward do not stop let alone turn around.
I try to get up in the morning but if I don't wake up, Naila always wakes me up when the morning dawn reverberates, kak Naila also always invites me to follow the studies held outside the campus.
