Hijrah Stories
Episode 5's

Since the completion of the UKK exam that day we never came to school until the school group was told that all students of class XII were told to attend with their parents to see the announcement of school graduation.

We were told to go to school to see the graduation announcement many couldn't come, only a few who come with parents are mostly unable to attend school because they are busy working and busy with their respective affairs\only their parents who represent those who cannot attend.

On the day of the graduation announcement I was one of the students present was very happy because it turned out that I was one of the students who got the ranking and I also got Al\-qur’an as a gift, I am very happy because only this time I get a gift that I get from my own hard work, from childhood I never produced anything on my own I always got whatever I wanted from the hard work of my parents.

Al\-qur’an this is a very valuable gift for me from childhood I often get so many gifts, but today when Al\-qur’an was given to my hand somehow I am very happy it feels like I got a very luxurious, valuable and priceless gift.

Finished from the day of the graduation announcement, some days at the school also held a farewell event, we all XII class were invited to be guests of the ceremony, everything changed so quickly that we were part of a large family of SMK school students that we loved today we were just guests.

After graduating from school we never met each other, we used to meet every day without having to make a deal, now want to meet each other just have to set the time and have to make an agreement first, he said, not infrequently the desire to meet and gather saperti used to be just a discourse. Because the busyness of each\ makes us more distant sometimes we only communicate through WA groups only.

After graduating from school all my friends\-friends started looking for work, only a few of us continued their education to college one of them I, I prefer to continue college because in my opinion, I think, I just the same time I do not have any skills to work, my parents also told me to go to college rather than work.

I decided to go to college to start looking for a University that has a major that I am interested in, after thinking about it carefully I finally chose to apply to the State University in Jakarta, Jakarta, I prepare and take care of all the files and requirements requested, after my file is received I enter the test session, and, I majored in financial management because I hope in the future I work in a multi-national company or have my own successful business.

Because the exam started so early in the morning I decided to stay at my relatives' house not far from the campus where I was taking the exam, it only took a few minutes to get to campus.

The university entrance examination was only a day but the announcement of the test result was a month after the test, I had to stay for a month near my relatives to wait for the test results to come out.

With eyes wet from tears that kept dripping nonstop and legs that had stood upright able to support my body and immediately became weak was unable to support my small body, he said, I ventured to call and tell my parents the bad news, I didn't know how my parents would react to my failure, which I knew was just a sentence my father had said, “ yasudah tomorrow just go home” without having time I say yes my father has hung up the phone first.

I know my parents were disappointed, but back then I was a broken and helpless person, I had imagined day\- the one I went through studied at the college I wanted but it was all forfeited instantly.

The next day I went home, on my way to feel that all the dreams I had designed for the future were destroyed making me feel uninspired to do anything, my self-confidence gone, mind\negative thoughts started popping up in my head, I didn't know what to do to continue my future.

When I was at SMK teacher once said we live to have a purpose, we have to make a plan for our future, but I misunderstood what my teacher said at the time that I thought planning was planning my life for the future, stupidly I thought I could design my own life, I forget that I am just a human being who can have a desire and try to be able to show it, but God is the one who has arranged all human life with different destiny, if God wills it, it will happen if God does not want it to be as strong as we try, what we want will not happen.

After I got home, I ventured to talk to my parents, after I failed my test I didn't want to continue my studies, I just wanted to work, my father who heard my words immediately replied in a firm tone,

Dad: if you don't go to college what do you say you want to work?, you think now finding work is easy, work is easy?

I who heard my father's words could only cry out feeling guilty because I had let my father down, my father always gave me whatever I wanted, she said, my father always gave my best until sometimes my friends envied me who was always spoiled by my father.

I tried hard to make my confidence back and make my parents proud, after taking care of the files and requirements then I went to the field to enroll in a private university in the field, after the files and requirements were received I also took the test exam, the first day I took the test when there was a celebration of independence so that it made a traffic jam that was from my boarding house if the angkot only took 15 minutes because the traffic took hours, I who was in the angkot could only pray that this traffic jam would end and I would get to the campus in time.