Heart Stethoscope
Dua

GALIH

Do you know the negative effects of prolonged heartbreak?

Lazy looking for another partner. That's one that I've had after three years ago I had a super terrible heartbreak when I wanted to be serious about the woman I love.

But again that fact makes me realize, if love is bullshit! I will no longer believe in that one word that man glorifies.

Three years turned out to be unable to cure the heartache in me. Not even able to get him out of my heart. Moreover, my life is still pestered by women who make my heart break as badly as possible.

I was almost married once. Date and time have been set. The marriage failed because my future wife was pregnant with her ex-boyfriend's own son.

I also ever expect high, to think about it goosebumps. I kept a story about the future in my brain at that time, when it was still mine. It was a time when I was husband and he was wife. The face of him who will not get bored I look at every waking up, the tired face he had when receiving the climax of our hot game on the bed, his bright face while waiting for me to come home from work. That's all I've imagined. But it all vanished. There is no one in my future. He belongs to someone else.

Her name is Raina, everyone admits she's beautiful. He has Australian blood flowing from his grandfather. She's a chatty, judes, cheerful, bouncer, but I like it. He who made me realize that love is not just love one night, when you are satisfied you immediately hempas woman. Raina made me realize the meaning of struggle and sacrifice in love. And he's the one who keeps my eyes open as wide as possible about the love that you don't have to have.

Drrt... Drrt...

My daydreams were blown away when the phone I put right above my head shook. I immediately got up from a lying position, picked up the phone. See the call id listed by Raina's name.

"Hallo... Failing, Naka misses meeting."

His voice is still my favorite. But I realized, he doesn't belong to me anymore. I was just made a shadow by him.

After that goodbye, I avoided it. I don't want to see him. But, when Naka was born, I realized, what I did was in vain. I don't get satisfaction from what I want.

"Om, indu."

That's Naka's voice. Ranaka Bagaskara Ryder's. A child born from the womb of the woman I love. The son of my former friend. And Raina deliberately made Naka to be close to me. Call me Om Failed. He said it was a favorite call from Naka. That shucks!

"You or your Mother who miss the same Om?"

"Bun, indu Om?" Naka asked Raina. Raina's reply was not long heard, but success made me smile wryly.

"Mother misses Dad."

Cuneiform!

"Ask the same Mother dong, A. Mommy want to do the Om phone?"

"Bun, Om."

Inevitably my lips curled a smile at Naka's innocent voice. A second later the phone had moved into Raina's hands again.

"Gal, Naka is every afternoon like to be taught his father to play in the city park. Well, he's whining again now ask to tam-"

"To the point, can't you, Rain? Do not go north first, but the destination is to the south" I complained.

"Then make sure you take a walk to the park" he said.

"Overall are like his father."

"If there was a father, I wouldn't have asked you for help. Raka still has flight routes, so bang toyib first."

Yeah, Raina couldn't have called me when Raka was home. The order will be ribet. Because I still can't resist my lust for him not to hit him. Because the fire of enmity between me and Raka has not been extinguished. Although Raina tried to extinguish it, it was free. Because the fire has scorched most of the respect in my heart for Raka. Raina's husband. Who used to snatch Raina out of my hands.

"Yes, you are just like the streets. Easy right?"

"Out side of the fever, Gal. I can't leave him alone at home. Mama's morning of study with the complex mothers. Please, Gal. Help me. I'm dizzy Naka keeps whining when I take care of Sisi first."

Raina is a child loving. Even stepchildren are treated like their own. He loves Sisi very much, even though Sisi is not his biological son.

"A little while more," break me up.

"Yeay, thanks for Failing. Naka wait at home."

Connection interrupted.

I went to the room to pick up the car keys, then drove to the ex's house. Nothing wrong with staying in touch with your ex? Even though his ex has disappointed me.

Naka is typical of a henchman boy who is not fussy despite adapting to new people. Naka is pretty close to me. If I walk, Naka never whines to go home. I also don't understand why it is so. When I asked Raina, she just answered; I told Naka that you were super good Om.

Maybe his intentions were flirting, but I didn't laugh when he said it.

I took Naka's way to the city park at his mother's behest. I took Naka around, he bought a gas balloon with a picture of spongebob. Naka will be a henchman if given a toy, he will focus on the toy without caring around.

"Om, ice cream," pointed Naka at the ice cream merchant.

"Would you?"

Naka nodded enthusiastically.

"Om buy first yeah, Aa wait here."

"Yes, Om."

I approached an ice cream merchant who was selling on the edge of the city park. I bought one of Naka's favorite mango-flavored ice cream. I remember the boy's favorite ice cream.

After paying, I went back to the place where my Naka lives. From a distance Naka squatted while crying. I hurried to him. I can tell his mother if I make Naka cry.

"Why, A?"

"Sick, Om," he complains. He groped his scuffed knee.

Naka nodded.

"Here, Om blowin. Here, eat the ice cream." I unwrap the ice cream and give it to Naka. After that I blew Naka's knee. Fortunately, the scratching is not bad.

"Good afternoon, Om." Someone say hello.

I raised my eyes. A sweet girl with shoulder-length hair stood holding two candied catton. The girl smiled stiffly at me.

I stood up, followed by Naka who was embracing my arm.

"I'm Nana, Om. I accidentally bumped into Om's son" he tweeted.

I was called Om! My face is not that old.

Then he bowed his body in front of Naka. "Son't got cotton candy for you. Said he wanted cotton candy."

Naka nodded enthusiastically. He took a catton candy. Then open the white plastic before I prevent it. Can be more lectured by his mother if Naka eats candy.

"Don't Aa. Later Mommy is angry, you know," persuaded me while trying to snatch the catton candy from Naka's hand, but Naka fled quickly.

I look at him flat. He's misbehaving.

"Other times do not buy food for small children. That's not healthy."

I heard him cleared his throat after gawking for a few seconds. Pay attention to the still intact catton candy in one hand the other. Then put that catton candy on me. I raise one eyebrow.

"Oh, this is for Om. Let's not fight with his son. Again, I'm sorry, Om."

Goddamnit!

"I'm not a child. And I'm not Om you," I concluded before chasing after Naka.

I can predict that Raina will mendumel at length because of blisters on Naka's knee.

"What do you think Naka is, Gal? Naka's knees are so scratched." He's blotting his waist. Even though his son was a henchman mememut catton candy.

"Naka got hit by a passerby I bought ice cream. Yes next time do not have to ask me to play Naka. Free too." Somehow my emotions often go up every time I remember the betrayal of Raka and Raina three years ago. "I'm back."

I don't think I need to talk anymore. I was about to turn my body towards the door, my name was again called. I had to stay in place again.

"Thank you, yeah." Raina's voice is sweet in my ears.

"Make what?" ask me without staring. Ever since I separated from him, I've been trying so hard not to look him in the bead. Because the eyes that made me fall in love first, maybe even until now.

"Make you the one who wants to accept Naka."

I can't just ignore it. My faith is weak, despite trying to limit myself, in fact I want to look at the shade in his eyes. And it makes me wobbly again.

"That's now. Don't know if later," I cut off eye contact.

It took ten seconds for him to return to speaking in a sad tone. "I hope you're still like Naka. You can hate me, you can hate Raka. But, please. Don't get Naka in that trouble. Not wrong, Gal. Naka shouldn't be an outlet for your anger."

"Yes, bring it."

I had a suggestion for myself. I present my negative thoughts to Naka, that because of her in Raina's stomach at that time makes me and Raina can not unite. But my little heart refused, and I realized I still had a conscience. The baby born was not wrong.

"I'm back."

Raina nodded.

I then stroked the cheek of Naka who was cool to drink milk on the sofa. I ate ice cream and catton candy. Now the boy immediately drank milk. "Om Failing to go home first."

Naka just nodded his head.

"God! I forget. Don't, Gal, don't go home."

I frowned when Raina again prevented me to immediately get away from the house whose walls were filled with family picture figures. Raka and Raina's wedding photos, photos of Raina's pregnancy, to Naka's phase-to-phase photos.

And it made my heart throb pain.

"Rapaine again?" ask me.

"Wait a moment."

"Okay," I replied lazily.

Raina ran towards the kitchen. I don't know what happened to him. I waited for him as ordered. Raina appeared with a tupperware box in her hand.

"Make you dinner."

"Huh?" Both of my eyebrows are linked to staring at the tupperware he deflects.

"Body you can be more inclined if you rarely eat. My cooking is safe, I don't mix rat poison."

I'll take the tupperware of the food. "Thanks. I will return the box sometime. I'll go back if that's it. Bye."

Raina. "The Drug of Failure."

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