Heart Stethoscope
Twenty Five

Departing college alone because Rani suddenly attacked by a lazy disease. When I knocked on her door, Rani still hadn't taken a shower. He said he wanted to miss a day because the incoming lecturer had a low sense of humor, as a result of sleepy eyes during the course.

The campus is already quite crowded with students. In front of the classroom, I saw Damar Cakra Adrianto, aka Anto was sitting on a long bench. His eyes were focused on the laptop screen.

I sat next to him. "To, tumben early in the morning already looking at the laptop?"

Anto raised his gaze. "Eh, Nana. Yes, I am making a schedule again. BEM wants to do this meatball event. The meat is not about the material. More about knowledge."

"Where is it?" my question is, a little less understood by Anto's explanation.

"So we'll be in the schools for a day. And the night we like to give private lessons for them all farewell. Well, the goal is that they know more about Indonesian literature which is very diverse as increasing their awareness to iterate." Anto's gaze was still centered on the laptop screen, but he answered my question at length.

"Well, steady," I cried.

I used to want to follow the organization, but whatever the power of laziness cut off my desire.

"Lo want to follow you, Na?"

"Huh? Can you?" my many.

"By, dong. It just so happens that you are also diligent in writing for mading, right? There must be some BEM administrators who know you," said Anto while closing his laptop.

"Gue isn't a member of BEM, To?"

"Not necessarily BEM members, we welcome other students who want to participate. Bowo, Maria, and Agnes are also following suit."

My eyes are getting brighter. I was in need of an off-campus activity to refresh my tangled brain these few days.

"When's talk? Where's the place?" tanyaku.

"We took Elementary School, Junior High School, High School in Leuwidamar District, Lebak Banten. The far corner. Depart tomorrow morning, go home again Sunday afternoon. Later we linger in the homes of citizens, all know their daily activities."

Wow, that's tempting.

"Can you, To?"

Anto nodded. "Can. Later I told the chairman of BEM let your name go into the list of teachers."

"Well, thank you, To. I just happen to be really sad again. What equipment should I bring?"

"Almamater jas, pants or black skirt commonly worn UAS, bring food supplies as well, Na. The rest is up to you. Want to bring a suitcase can also be as strong as the carrying," kekehnya.

I also laughed. "How many costs?"

"Free hosting, Na. Eating is a personal expense. Oh yes, if you have a used book or that has not been kepake can be donated to them."

My smile is perfect. I hope this activity will slightly remove the mirage's face from my brain. "Okay, am I coming?"

"Ready, Na."

After college I went straight to Rani's room to take her out for food. Rani's room door is usually unlocked. I opened it immediately, and how shocked I was when I saw the hot kiss scene unfold before my eyes.

"Gosh, why aren't the doors locked?" my screams immediately stopped their activities. The vow. I was nauseous to see Beni's position above Rani while Rani resigned below. Luckily they still wear full clothes.

"Yes one of you yourself entered the room people do not hit the door," answered Rani while fixing her clothes that had been lifted to the chest.

Crazy them!

Without further ado, I closed the door to Rani's room and went up to my room.

Damnit.

A shadow of the night must reappear after seeing the action of Rani and Beni's kiss. Why anyway? Why is it so hard to forget. My brain is tired of constantly remembering things about him.

Tambahan on the bed. Fiddling with my lonely phone. Only limited chat from some WhatsApp groups that enliven. A few weeks back, the phone was my favorite thing, but now it feels like I want to go back to childhood who didn't know what a cell phone was.

Rani emerged from the door of my dorm room that was slightly open. My friend showed a sad look, he slept in a closed position next to me. "Na, sorry. Who told you not to knock on the door first?"

"Lunatic you!" I shuddered in horror considering Rani and Beni's actions earlier.

"At doang's kiss. You've also frowned."

"But your position makes people think negatively," I said.

Rani welcomed my protest with a laugh. "Udah ordinary. For me it's important he doesn't ask for more than a kiss. But, like Beni's kiss isn't as hot as Doctor Gal's kiss..."

"Not to be discussed." I quickly cut off his words.

Rani is back laughing.

"Why did you do that?" ask him after his laughter stops.

"You can buy snacks for meatballs later."

"Where are the taxis?" rani asked while looking at me.

"Cats, Banten. The rural areas that lack education. That's a real BEM event. But I was invited by Anto, yes I went along. It's also good for stress relief like that."

Let's just say I ran away from trouble. But I want to forget about a month back. A time when there was me and him. A time when I was so stupid for just believing in her sweet mouth.

"Yes, breaking up requires entertainment."

My heart condition did not improve, although since yesterday afternoon, doctor Galih never saw me again.

"Buy his snack to Mal yuk, all you want to look at the same clothes shoes who knows there is a discount." Rani ogling.

"Okay," I replied.

Before trying the contents of the Mall, Rani and I chose to fill the stomach first. Korean cuisine became our lunch menu this time.

"Na, go to the supermarket later. Look at the clothes." Rani nyengir's.

"Yes." Yeah." Resignedly. In effect, my eyes will be tempted by the clothes that line up in all later storefronts.

"Btw, are you sure you want to go with that meatball?" rani asked with an unconvinced expression.

"Know it. I need a thought, "I replied.

I'm shaking. "They must give permission as long as what I do is positive."

"If same doctor Galih not permission?"

Again and again. My ears must always be ready with the taunts coming out of the mouth of Rani's shucks. He never got tired of mocking this heartbroken me.

"Ran, just one day stop saying his name," I was upset.

Rani chuckles then drinks her juice. "It could be exciting to be cheating on someone who just broke up."

"Gue doain lo broke up with Beni, will you?"

Rani shuddered while shaking her head. "Shortly. Amit-amit!" reply passionate. "But, Na, the problem is that you're Anto."

"Keep why?" my question is to link the two eyebrows.

"That guy would have blatantly said you like the same for semester 1. Even if it's just in chat doang anyway. And now he suddenly rattled you. You don't think he's trying to deletin lo again?"

My eyes were squeaking hearing a series of sentences from Rani. Anto used to approach me, even openly showing his love for me. Like I said, I limit my communication with the opposite sex. Communicate as necessary.

But that was before, before my life pestered a male figure who actually managed to break my heart for the second time after Mas Bayu. Maybe for now I should limit communication with the opposite sex first.

"Gue didn't think about it. That was a long time ago, Ran. We're used to being friends again. There will be a lot of people there. Agnes, Bowo, and Maria are also coming."

"Yes, anyway. It's up lo. The important thing is that you are happy" he said, throwing a big smile at me.

"But, Na, my proposal remains the same as it was yesterday. Chat, Na. Or at least you do not block communication with Galih doctor. If you do not want to see him, Galih doctor will be able to contact you via WhatsApp or IG. Lo mah instead change the phone number to block the instagram of doctor Galih," Rani cerocos.

My lips covered a thin smile full of bitter taste. "Make it all the more, Ran? Make me hurt?"

My hands were stirring drinks lazily while propping up my chin. My eyes follow the direction of the straw in the glass. Pensively. Contemplating the fate of the heart that until now is still ravaged. "It turns out what looks from the outside, not necessarily describe what is felt by the heart, huh Ran?"

"Gue confused about what solution? But gini, Na. Your relationship with him is short but the effect is serious, you know. He had dared to go to your parents directly and even you said, had agreed to make it to the level of marriage. Your parents already believed in him. That's the most important point, Na."

Rani's words seemed to be a hard slap for me. What I think about is the health of Mom and Dad. Especially Dad. I don't want anything bad to happen to Dad. Moreover, Dad just had surgery to remove his tumor.

"So the problem doesn't just lie between lo and him."

I refocused on listening to Rani's lecture which would have been very long. "How will your parents react if they know you are the same doctor Galih disbanded? While they have high expectations for your relationship, they must be disappointed. I know you're hurt, Na. I know exactly how it feels even though I'm not the one experiencing it. But try to close your ego first. Your relationship must have a way out. Your commitment is serious not just dating like me and Beni. If you break up, look for something else. But elo? You've got parents here."

And right now I want to cry in Mom's arms. Shed all my grievances on him. Dividing the anxiety I've felt for almost a week. Biting the lower lip firmly, I was only able to cover my face with both palms. While Rani still slaps me with every word.

"Gue knew listening to her explanation was not the best solution, Na. The risk could be your heart getting sick. But you can't run either. Lo listen to his explanation first, only after that you can stay away. If he is serious about you, and serious about his past. I'm sure that doctor Galih will try to make love with you and fight for you."

I felt Rani's hand touch both hands that covered my face. My eyes, which were closed, opened slowly. Rani looks at me with a smile. "Gue is also sure, if you are a soul mate with him, how big the obstacles that face, you will certainly be united in one space, namely love."

"Roman..." My throat was blocked due to irregular breathing. Holding back the crying resulted in my chest tightness and difficulty breathing.

"Wise on me, Na?"

"Lo slap me really, Ran."

And without feeling guilty for making me cry, Rani laughed with great satisfaction. "Enjoy your meatball trip in the next three days."

I'm nodding.

"It's time to shop!" excited though.

Shopping with Rani was not enough to spend an hour. She is a typical girl whose eyes are green when she sees various models of clothes, bags, or shoes that she thinks are good for sure she tried, although the end result is not necessarily purchased all.

Waiting for Rani who is busy choosing a model of clothes, I just look around without interest to buy.

"Sin'ana?"

The call surprised me enough. I looked back. It turned out that the person standing behind me was making me much more shocked.

"Eh, Raina's mother." I greeted awkwardly. Then my gaze turned to Naka who stood next to Ma'am Raina. "Hallo, Naka!" my broom while bowing and poking Naka's cheeks.

The one called it was just impressed. His name is also a child.

Then I focused on looking at Raina's face. When compared to me, it was clearly like heaven and earth. Raina's mom is perfect. She is beautiful, her eyes are beautiful, her smile is sweet, her height is beautiful, her body is good, like someone who has blood. While me? I'm a dry upholstery stuck to the corner of the nose.

"Shopping, Na?"

It doesn't feel right to make him the scapegoat between me and doctor Galih.

"Yes, Mommy."

Raina's mom was wailing, like she was looking for something. "Same Galih?"

"Friendly friend, Ma'am."

"Om Failed, Bun?" Naka.

"Nothing, Aunt Nana is not the same Om Failed," he told Naka. Before asking me. "Maybe Galih still work?"

"Well, I don't know, Ma'am. Maybe yes" I replied.

"Do you know?"

I forced to smile. "I don't have a relationship with Dr. Galih."

"Lho, why? The story says he wants to be serious with you."

Great them. Been an ex but still maintain communication. It's fitting that doctor Galih can't forget Raina just like that.

"Well, do you see doctor Galih often?" many doubt.

"Not really. It's just a coincidence that he went to the cafe again" replied Raina in a relaxed tone.

"Oh, that's it." I don't know what to respond to. It feels too awkward. "Yes, Ma'am, I'm ahead."

The best choice is to go from before him.

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