Grace of Love
Busying Yourself

“Non, please Miss sit first Non. Take a break Miss, Auntie Please.” Pinta Bi Inah who found Nindi full of sweat but never stopped cooking. Making his family's favorite roasted macaroni dough.

“It's just Bi's sweat, Nindi is fine Bi.” Still can smile when the two housekeepers who helped her are ketar ketir.

Occasionally Bi Inah saw Nindi's hand hitting her waist. It must be fine that what he said was a lie so that Bi Inah would not worry.

“Let Aunty continue yes Non, Miss is tired for sure.” Nindi refused the help Bi Inah offered. He wants to offer good and nutritious food to his loved ones.

“Gak Bi, Nindi only.” A little hard to resist.

Finally Bi Inah chose to let Nindi do whatever she wanted. The house becomes gloomy, the children spend more time with the nanny and Nindi always busies herself in the kitchen. Seeking busyness because he was not given much freedom.

Ivar, Edwin and Ayman often come home late at night. Spend a lot of time with work and busy yourself with various activities that take up time. The house is losing harmony. All are busy with their own activities and rarely mingle. The sound of children's laughter that often filled the room vanished, quiet. Home is like not having a passion for life.

At first Nindi felt stifled, she was emotional and wanted to curse everyone to be normal and not be indifferent to each other. But Nindi retreated, she was in this position and it was very painful.

Now Nindi is trying to make herself the same as others. Don't care to know what they feel. Sick, it's terrible. But Nindi tried to hold on and get used to the silence.

Nindi often cried alone, it was not easy to deal with her current situation. Rebelling and asking them to behave appropriately also he could not do. Nindi is afraid that even more hurt her family's feelings.

The dilemma, their life shafts waver. The current Nindi was completely carried away, confused as to how to behave.

“Tante Call Hanna who asked Bi Inah to persuade Nindi to rest. Unresponsive. “Tante Nin's….Hanna wanted to ask in teaching PR Mathematics, there is Hanna does not understand.” His ink was now standing beside Nindi.

“Wait Han, Aunt responsibility Nih.” Reject it gently without looking. His eyes and hands were busy with the food he was processing.

“Please….Hanna ask for help.” His now struggling ray hugged Nindi.

“Hanna give me another 15 minutes, after which Auntie will go to Hanna.” room Bi Inah was disappointed. Nindi really can't be persuaded. Hanna gave up, she didn't know how to force it.

How can it be forced, Nindi spoke so softly despite being in a bad state. Never speak rude and high-pitched to his children even though his heart is sore.

“Sorry Bi, Hanna didn't make it. The aunt is not finished he said.” Bi Inah just smiled bitterly, Usually Nindi never refused Hanna's request. His work is not important other than his children.

“It's okay little Miss. The spirit of learning.” Said Bi Inah brushed off her grief so as not to be seen by Hanna.

There is a sense of self-disappointment that Nindi feels, but Hanna must get used to the atmosphere of the house that is now no longer warm. Everything outside of Nindi's control, really never imagined in Nindi's mind all this time. They must have been in a lot of pain, Nindi didn't know how to react to it.

The food was ready, Nindi had received news of the three men whom she now had to take care of wholeheartedly on the way home. Although only a short message, Nindi was happy, the three of them still remembered there were people waiting for them to come home every time.

Nindi takes a look at Jason and Hanna who are now sleeping one room with their nurse. Nilam name, Nindi was forced to accept Nilam so as not to be too tired because the pregnancy was big enough.

Nindi who disliked Nilam's presence could not vent it on Nilam. He's just doing his job. Nindi as much as possible refrained from hurting anyone with her disappointment. Soak it as deep as possible so that no one knows the pain felt.

Ivar, Ayman and Edwin did not listen to her request to take care of the children themselves. They did not want Nindi to be exhausted, but their decision resulted in Nindi not being given the trust to take care of her own children.

Ivar is not aware that Nindi has changed a lot lately because she is busy with her work which is very much lately. The universe is fine because Nindi always looks good in front of them all.

Bi Inah who knew very well the changes of Nindi, but Bi Inah also did not dare to open her voice. Fear of his decision to talk to Ivar will even make a bad impact adding to the gloom of a house that is already very scary.

Finish eating they go into their rooms. Nindi was still sitting in the living room playing her phone. Looking at the social media friends she misses so much. Ivar doesn't allow himself to work.

Just at home. Take plenty of rest and spend time having fun.

Ivar does not realize his statement hurts Nindi, as if he really lost the freedom to choose what kind of life. Nindi accepts, tries to be what everyone wants her to be. Although Nindi felt uncomfortable spending a lot of time alone.

“Sayang...” Call Ivar who's on the second floor, finish cleaning up. Nindi just looked. “Not sleepy?” Nindi. “Abang slept first well, tired once Nin.” Nindi gave her thumb in agreement. Not a word came out of his mouth.

It was crowded, but Nindi denied all her unimportant feelings. Back to lay down his comfortable body sleeping on the sofa. Trying to brace yourself to get used to everyone's changing attitude.

How Nindi did not feel the change in their attitude, Bi Inah alone was so sensitive that she could not bear to leave Nindi alone. Only confusion should be how to convey his baldness. Looking at Nindi at this moment, Bi Inah felt tormented.

“Non...” The closed Nindi opened her eyes. “Aunt make chocolate milk, Miss drink first Yes Non. Surely her Baby likes Non.” Place the glass carefully. Helping Nindi who was trying to sit supporting her back.

“Aunt why haven't you slept?” Look at the large clock that is installed in the corner of the room.

“After night Bi.”

“Bibi hasn't drowned Non, just watched the same soap opera Lastri behind.” Though he was sitting in the kitchen watching Nindi from a distance. The attention must be unconscious because it is busy daydreaming.

“Yes already, Aunt sleeping well. Don't get sick Bi.”

I should have spoken like that, miss. Miss must be healthy, don't be sick. “Good Miss. Aunt breaks yes Non.” Nindi returned to her body, her milk has not been touched.

There was not much Bi Inah could do, she could only make sure Nindi was okay in plain sight. Although Bi Inah knows Nindi's soul is not healthy facing the harsh reality of life that plagues his family.

Ivar who was thirsty at night woke up, not finding Nindi by his side made Ivar run away from the fog in fear of something bad happening to Nindi.

His eyes caught the figure of his favorite woman falling asleep on the sofa of the family room. Lega Nindi is fine.

Slowly Ivar stepped over to Nindi who looked beautiful while asleep. Ivar settles himself on Nindi's side, narrow of course. Making Nindi who knew Ivar was beside her opened her eyes. Smiling even though his heart was filled with annoyance. Nindi can not be selfish even though it feels like she wants to occasionally scream out all her complaints. Nihil, he could not do the stupid thing he thought. Accept it, long time will get used to it.

“Why sleep here Nin?” Tanyanya who is now hugging Nindi.

“Hosewell?” Ask again convinced himself Nindi was not avoiding him. Nindi nodded, Ivar was relieved. “Come and above baby, your body will hurt if sleeping carelessly.” Her ink was soft, Ivar tidied Nindi's messy hair. Staring at him gently.

Nindi thought very much lately, Ivar thought, but Ivar thought Nindi's changes were only due to her pregnancy hormones. He's often fickle Ivar can't guess.

Cautiously Ivar keeps Nindi walking on the stairs. They walked together but only kept quiet, awkward, which Nindi felt near Ivar.

“Why dear? Nindi's sick? Something bad Nindi felt?” He tried to find an answer to his curiosity.

“No Bang, Nindi wants to sleep.” Hiding his face under the blanket.

“If pain says yes Nin, sorry because Brother is really busy lately.” Nindi did not respond. Ivar gently stroked Nindi's dilated mane, feeling regretful of not having much time. “Abang down for a while huh babe, Nindi want to eat or drink something?” Nindi. Ivar finally came down though his heart was not calm.

The next morning everyone as usual had breakfast together before going to their respective offices. Nindi who rarely eats together, the reason is still full and must take care of the provisions that Hanna must bring to school.

“Don't forget to eat ya Nin, Brother rarely see Nindi eat breakfast Nindi.” Nindi just smiled. “Nindi is right, dear? Brother...”

“Nindi well Brother, don't worry.” Reply without looking at Ivar. Resisting the anger that really peaked for whatever reason.

“Nin, Jason has breakfast?” Tanya Ayman doesn't see her son.

“No idea, try asking Nilam.”

Ivar who had never heard Nindi speak that cute chuckle gasped. Feeling guilty for not paying attention to Nindi well. He's hurt, and Ivar doesn't realize it.

Nindi immediately left the dining room. Climbing the stairs quickly avoided many of the questions that were certain at this time appearing in the minds of the three men who were sitting together at the dinner table.

“It looks like we've gone too far, Nindi keeps Var's wounds. I won't be able to see her cry.” Ayman also felt stupid.

“I'm not aware, I'm so stupid.”

Although the three of them were sad, Bi Inah was relieved. Finally they knew the true state of Nindi. Hopefully after this the situation becomes better, hopefully Nindi get the comfort they have been giving. May the house be colored again.