A Man Who Can't Fall In Love Because He Was A Woman
Chapter 8 Origins, Karma Pahala, Found And Lost
Moving places that arrive, unusual things happen in the real world. It is like a book that is read and suddenly moved pages to pages far from the previous page.
At the terminal, noon. Lila who was trapped in Salwa's body, her makeup was like a terminal thug. Tear jeans, black levis material pants are very tight and the suir is torn, his hair is tied, he wears a skull head necklace on his neck, his body wears in a white tshirt.
He arrived there just in the midst of busy inter-city bus terminals, passengers carrying goods passed by, street vendors kept berjeo, street buskers scattered, and the, the angkot drivers who were ngetem continued to shout calling for the angkot of his career.
At that time there was a familiar car was stuck there, a lamborghini car with an open roof in red light. The driver who wears black-style sunglasses, the rich-ass man, I don't know what his goal is in a terminal like this.
And it turns out that after the celediki, the man who wears the beach shirt suit. While packing his car engine broke down, Lila guess he must be about to go to the beach. Then with frustration and upset fight he also took his goods from the back car seat.
And immediately left the car that he had previously called his subscription mechanic to come pick up the car broke down.
Men kece wear shorts, with a shirt motif Hawaii sky blue. Who is not yet clear, his style glasses make Lila do not recognize the man's face. It was only after the man opened his glasses and slipped them on the buttons of his shirt that his chest was open.
Oh my god! It must be Salwa. He's still stuck in Lila's body as it turns out. Her hair was carried away by the wind, Lila was stunned from where she stood.
He never thought he was so handsome. Lila smiled as she greeted him. This is a meeting between the two of them in the past, I guess in 2017. Two years before they meet again in 2019.
You guessed it, Lila and Salwa. Not only are they stuck in an exchangeable body, but they also continue to be trapped in a rotating time zone. And for some reason this time, time went into muddiness. And they were thrown into the age of two years ago, where it had already passed.
"Waith! How can I not walk!" Lila tried to step on her feet to get closer to Salwa.
But his legs won't move at all, "Why! Salwa!" he shouted but he also could not open his mouth to make a sound.
"What's this about? How can I not make a sound." as if his body was locked and controlled by an indistinct force.
And Lila had no power to do anything with this body, as if she was only imprisoned in a robot shell that could move according to the will of the person who controlled it.
There's someone controlling it, but Lila doesn't know who it is. Who her? Which makes it like this, why he controls Salwa's body.
Salwa, who was trapped in Lila's body, began to leave while scrolling through the brown suitcase containing her luggage. And he entered one of the buses whose department headed to Pelabuhan Ratu.
"No! Waitaminute! Where are you going salwa?"
"Please move! Go after him before you go!" Lila tried to fight back.
But his body still did not want to move, and then arrived. Her lips tilted and formed an evil smile, she untied her hair. Her hair just ran out.
A look of evil flashed across his face, irritatingly walking towards Salwa's car.
His hand that was holding the dagger, deliberately scratched the blade. To the surface of the red car.
"Git!" the sound of a squeak and make the surface of the luxury car hurt the scars that Lila made.
"What am I doing! It's Salwa's car! Why are you doing this, please stop!" salwa's mind is at odds.
But his robot body did not respond, he still put on an irritating face.
Then he got into the bus that Salwa was riding on.
In the bus he went down every passenger bench, and he managed to find Lila who was trying to put her suitcase on the iron shelf storage of goods contained on the passenger bench.
Lila was looking at her prey, she saw a black wallet in the back pocket of her pigtails.
"Please don't take it! Poor thing! He needs that money to pay for the bus." Lila sulked in the heart.
His eyes darted left right and safe, his hands began to reach out.
A little bit more he almost got the stolen wallet, uh Salwa was hunting turned around.
He immediately stared at the cynical person lurking from behind, "I'm sorry who are you?"
"I Love You!"
"What! You mean what?"
"It's lila!" inner answered.
"No! I was just saying that so you'd like my response," Lila approached.
"I know you're an arrogant rich man, who certainly won't talk to anyone else. Unless the person is one level with you, "his hand is trying to hug Salwa's ass just to grab that wallet.
"I don't know what you mean!" Salwa was terrified he walked backwards until he touched the bus bench.
"I told you I Love You so you'd want to beat me up, want to talk to me, so that the arrogant rich can chat with the street kingpin like me."
"I love you, let's date she said dating can make you happy,"
"I'm sick of my sad, sad life, you want me to help make me happy?"
"When do you want to be happy? " ask Salwa.
"Well ever after,"
"Emang why? You want to make that happen for me?"
And Lila's hand managed to hold the black wallet, he used a spear to pick up Salwa's wallet. And Salwa was foolishly persuaded by his deception.
Salwa did not answer, she was confused as to what she should answer.
"Eum, I'm hurting. You're not a man who dares to do everything that makes someone happy."
"Just so! I'm just gonna go. I can find another man who's willing to do anything for the happiness of the woman he loves."
Lila turned around, "Wait! Crazy woman how do you presumptuously ask for happiness, to a man you haven't managed to make fall in love,"
"By you"
"Wait on! Isn't that my wallet."
Lila panicked, she got caught stealing.
What's he supposed to do, "You pickpocket?" emphatically.
He swiftly threw Lila's grip on his hand violently.
"Plac!" he also slapped Salwa tightly until his face turned to the left.
"Please take this for a fee because you hold my hand."
Lila immediately left, she ran and jumped out of the bus door.
"Gee! You street rat thief!"
"Huh! Where's copet? " everyone panicked.
Salwa quickly chased after Lila to hunt her down of course.
"Woy!wait copet!"
"That damn girl is a thief"
"Basic ******!"
"Woy stop!" salwa from behind.
He chased after Lila from behind, and unfortunately no one heard or helped Salwa to catch Lila.
Salwa who was far behind Lila, he could not give up. Salwa must be able to catch Lila. Without any help, he had to desperately chase after Lila alone.
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Lila leads Salwa into a narrow alley, a familiar alley. This is the alley where Lila was beaten up and gang-raped by the terminal Ladies. Salwa lost track of Lila there, not knowing where the thieving woman was running. Salwa confusion.
"Where did that woman run?
"Woy! Copet woman! You where? Turn my wallet over right now!" Shouted Salwa as her eyes searched for Lila's whereabouts.
The alley was so quiet, no one came here. The alley is dark even during the day, making a dark impression on the alley with black walls filled with graffiti image graffiti of paint colorful pilok.
"I'm here!" Say someone. Salwa turned around and somehow Lila arrived just behind her while playing her black wallet like a yoyo.
"I turned my wallet back on." Lila threw the black wallet to the ground.
Salwa took it and checked it was empty.
"Except the contents."
Salwa glared, her anger now out of bounds, "Reverse everything now!" Firmly Salwa while spelling.
"Oi! Loh kok so rich people are stingy anyway, why do not you consider this as alms. I'm sure you must have more than this."
"Who? Why should I give alms to thieves who take my goods without permission. If you ask for it well, maybe I'll let it go and not have to bother with this."
"I'm going to chase after you like I am now."
"Keep wanting me to be a beggar, is that makud loh?" Lila started to look.
Salwa just shut up, "Okay, if that's what you want. I'll beg and ask you to know the contents of the wallet that I stole."
Lila began to kneel, she held her hand as she pleaded, "O Lord, have mercy on me! I'm a poor man with nothing, forgive me for stealing your stuff! Just sincere sir, well, the stuff I stole from you."
"satisfied? Ahhhhahhh!" Lila stand.
"Don't expect me to beg the same, I never ask anyone including God!" Lila Berang.
It turned out that all he had done was play.
"Why must you steal Huh! Why not find your own sustenance? Why did you have to be like this, be the one who stole someone else's possession."
"BECAUSE I'M JEALOUS!"
"Gue envies everyone whose life is happy, I envy everyone whose life is lucky, I envy everyone who has everything I don't have."
"Why can everybody? Why can they? Why their lives are happy, rich, have a family, and do not have to work hard to make a living rich me."
"They're in school, they have a home, they have a family that helps, and they help,"
"And me? I don't have anything, I can't have anything, I can't be like them! If I can't get what they have, why don't I steal it from them?"
"Gue doesn't steal more than them, I don't steal everything they've got, their wealth, their family, their education, their job, their position! I don't steal all that. I just stole a little bit of them?"
"Why are they so happy, but they still have everything. Losing slightly. It shouldn't have an effect on them."
"They should be sincere, they should be grateful that their lives are lucky and not rich I whose life is a mess, have nothing,"
"Nothing can be stolen from me, not even the happiness I have!"
"Everything, I never had. And strangely enough they have everything! Though we are the same as humans, what difference do I have with them? Why can't I be like them?
"Rich, family, educated, have a good job, his life goes well?"
"Well, don't you think I want to end my miserable life? I think I want to be a thief, a street bully, so poor people who don't have a home, live alone, are not educated, I want to be! Do I want to be like this? "
"No." Lila let out all the grievances she had, all the things that made her a thief.
His life was miserable, with no sense of happiness he had ever felt. His life was a mess, not having what he could be proud of. There is nothing valuable in life that people can steal because they are jealous.
"Gue envied, I can't get everything they've got. When I try to be like them? But I can't afford. Not even pantes so they, what's wrong I steal everything that I can't get. I can't get it, I stole it."
"What do you think defines happiness?"
"Are those educated, those rich, those with families, those who are successful and successful, are they all happy? Are they free from the so-called sadness?" Salwa asked with a soft groan.
Lila who was down in tears then looked up to see the explanation of a man with sincere eyes.
"Is everyone happy? Does everyone not feel sadness?"
"What's your definition of happiness?"
"Smiling, laughing, cheerful, that kind of expression you call happy."
"The other person cannot value the happiness and sadness that one feels, only that person understands. Only that person understands how they feel when they are happy, sadness, and more."
"I don't understand what you're feeling, what's going on inside you. Because I'm not you?"
"But I care, and I believe one day you will be happy. Maybe not today, something you want to happen."
"Maybe it's not today, the best thing that's happened in your life. Maybe there will be a day. Where you'll be happy, have everything you want, not be the old you, but the new you."
"Stay believe in miracles, even if reality does not wear."
Salwa approached, and she stood face to face with Lila. Their eyes sparkled with tears.
"You must keep believing, that day will be."
"The day you want, the day you want. I believe all this will happen to you, happy you have the right to it. Sad you must also feel it, but hear you who he said all this time there is only sadness that happens in your life."
"I'm sure, someday sadness will get bored and change positions with happiness. And in your life there will only be happiness, when the time comes."
"Sadness will turn into happiness, it is a change that everyone will feel."
"So stay until the day comes, start fixing yourself who often complain, become a person who is often grateful,"
"Start eliminating envy, hate, and all things harmful liver disease. Don't look at other people's lives! That's their story, those who live. You have your own story, where the main character is you."
"The main role always gets a lot of trouble before the goal he wants is achieved, "
"Start changing, do not at once quite slowly but surely. "
"You think that by stealing everything that other people have, it will be yours."
"No,"
The blush!
"Yahoooooooo!" Salwa groans in pain. A knife stabbing her dagger into her stomach.
"I hate people who advise, I hate people who are holy-spirits."
"I hate people who are pretentious and caring, you're just a spoiled rich kid. You won't know what I'm suffering from, talking is easy. Making a promise is easy, but trying everything to be real, shows proof."
"That's not easy! I'm tired of being patient, I'm tired of being told to wait, I'm tired of being told to be grateful for nothing I can be grateful for."
"I'm tired of being told to change, but not being told how to change, what do you think I should become?"
"Those who behave badly are still many, and their lives, remain lucky. Why must it change?"
"Deeeeeeeeeeeeee!" Salwa groans in pain. The knife continued to stick deeply into the stomach.
"Yahoooooooo!" Shouted Lila and released the knife from Salwa's stomach.
Salwa fell backwards. Lila's tears fell.
"Huh! Huh! Huh!" Seconds of last breath before Salwa really closed his eyes fainting.
"Salvayaaaaa!" Shouted Lila's heart.
"Why are you doing this? Heh heh! Why would you do something like this to someone you love, why would this happen!"
"Please stop it! I need to help Salwa right away lest she die!" Lila Stringer.
And her body refuses to help Salwa, Lila leaves instead. His body had the will to leave Salwa alone with a prick mark that continuously shed fresh blood.
After Lila walked away, Lila managed to get out of the narrow alley. And a miracle appeared, he could move again. He can take his body back. Of course he ran to see Salwa,.
"Little! No please! Don't get rich gini!" Lila was welding while shaking the weakly exposed Salwa's body in the asphalt alley.
"Please! Wake up, please! I didn't mean to do this so please! Wake up!"
"Salwa wake!" His cry with Isak the crying that is becoming more and more.
"Yes, hey! " Salwa opened her eyes limply with her pale lips saying something.
"I'm happy! We meet again, even though this is the time when we have to part ways. But at least I'm grateful I can still say goodbye! To the people I love,"
"This is what he wants from both of us,"
"No! Please! Don't get rich gini! I can still take you to the hospital, okay? Let's go to the hospital and heal your wounds?"
"It's okay, this is one of the sentences in my story that he wrote for me. I'm sorry I got you involved and became one of the characters in my life story!"
"I don't know what you're saying, please ! We've talked about this, haven't we? We will always be together, you promised not to leave me, you promised we would be together and face this sadness together. So I beg you! Don't go, can you?"
"I did promise to stay together, but I can't promise not to die. I was hoping we'd have the same dead schedule, but it turns out he didn't agree to it,"
"Uhuk! Uhuk!" Salwa coughed up blood.
"No! Can't get rich gini, don't go!"
"This is what he wants, he wants one of us to be tortured, that is, the sadness of the passing of a loved one, and it turns out that he chose you for it,"
"Sorry Lil! You have to endure this alone, let me say goodbye okay?"
"No! I can't let you go! I will not accept that saying. I'm not ready! I don't know why this happened either! Who is he that wants this sad thing to happen?" Lila cries for Salwa.
"You remember! In the cinema we promised for what?"
"Stop crying and smile again, if one of us has to go first." Salwa's tone began to sound weak.
"I'm wiping away your tears! And after that you'll smile again okay?"
Her blood-filled hands touched Lila's eyelids, "Thank you for agreeing with my request to feel sadness, sorry I'm not responsible! And leave you here alone."
"You must bear this burden alone, the agonizing sorrow, and the miserable anguish. You have to endure all that alone."
"I'm sorry, Dad! I go first, and I Love You."
"No, no, please! Salwa don't get rich gini! Why you have to go! "
"No, we should have stayed together here. Why should you go first, it should be me. The one who died was supposed to be Lila, not Salwa who was trapped in Lila's body."
"You're still alive! Look at you still alive! This body of yours, let's exchange bodies right now!"
"Come on! Back to being Salwa and I'm back to being Lila!"
"Please ! "
"I beg you....." Lila's cries flooded Salwa's departure. Lila holds the lifeless Salwa on the asphalt.
"Please Salwa back!"
****
At the hospital rooftop, Lila's curiosity leads her to bring Salwa's body to this hospital. Without him thinking first what would happen to him, he could become a prisoner due to a stabbing case.
But the story of his life does not lead there, on the top of a thirty-story building. He stood on the edge of the building while leaning against the wall of the building with a height so high.
Tears continued to flow in addition to the hum of the doctor's explanation, "The patient had already died while on the ambulance trip to the hospital, his puncture wound that directly injured the gallbladder left him bleeding profusely,"
"He could not be helped because he had too much bleeding, and he was also a late-stage leukemia cancer patient who had been sentenced to age will not be long."
"I can't believe he's leaving quickly. Hopefully you as a relative, can be tough in the face of his departure," The voice of the doctor man is constantly twisted in Lila's ear.
Tears also always come down and wet, the beauty of the night sky does not help at all. Lila continued to cry, now she officially became Salwa. He didn't think why all this could happen.
Why this senseless event can happen in the real world, why the atmosphere of the beautiful first night of the bride turns into a blue funeral atmosphere.
Lila wears a black dress, a sign of mourning. He waited for Lila's body in the cremation to be brought home and could be buried in a nearby cemetery.
"Whoever! Why ? Why are you doing such a cruel thing?"
"What a mistake we have made, until we have this severe punishment."
"Why ! Whys! Why Salwa Huh?"
"Why should he die, should it be me? Lilac. I should be the one to die,"
"Why must you be this cruel, makes us suffer a very painful torment. I don't get it! The story you designed? I don't understand the plan you're making?"
"What's the goal for Huh?"
"Must I be angry with you Lord!!!!!" Lila shouted as high as the sky and as deep as the earth.
"You have disappointed me, with the one-sided decision I made, may I disappoint you?"
"Can I make you angry like what you're doing right now?"
"Why didn't you answer?"
"Why don't you give me the answer to the question I asked?"
"Why huh!" Free Lila asked the sky, the sky did not respond to her. Who is the creator of heaven and earth, who decides everything that happens to man.
That someone so made Lila's heart slit, "Okay God! Either my questions don't get to your ears, or you don't answer me. I don't know for sure about it,"
"You didn't answer it or even my question didn't reach your ear,"
"Then I'll come to you and ask you everything I want to ask you."
Lila immediately climbed the wall that bounded the building and the ravine of the building that directly led to the base of the building. Lila's trembling legs, gnawing fear, should Lila plunge to suicide.
"See you there, God! I'll meet you! And Salwa wait for me! I'll catch up with ."
And "aaaaaaa!"
As Lila dropped her body, to plunge to the bottom of the building.
Suddenly the thunder rumbled, "Beledag!"
Thunder snatched the building, and appeared the figure of a black-robed, black-clad death angel. With his proud sickle made of human bones, the,
"Lila Anggara!" Call him with a loud roar.
Lila turned around and did not so to field herself. " Who are you?"
And a thread of black mining rope from the smoke, the rope immediately wrapped around Lila's body and Lila was immediately attracted and fell to the floor of the building.
He fell in a prone position.
He saw that the figure did not step on the ground, then he painfully began to rise and stand up. Then his invisible foot to the ground began to float in the air, and the wind*****black smoke pickaxe circled the figure.
The fatigue of the figure changed, starting from his feet. His body, then his face. He turned into a handsome man, shoulder-length hair and curls. He wore a white robe until he touched the ground, he mustached, bearded and bewokan.
His nose is pointed like an Arab, the structure of his face is similar to that of a Middle Easterner. Her brown eyes glowed, "There's a story you should know,"
"And let me tell you that story,"
A long time ago, before the world turned into Magonda. Where everyone is happy forever, before there was a world called Jakarta. The world that never goes along with what you want, all the feelings you will feel there.
Sad, happy, sprained, angry, in love, baper, upset, envious, hate, believe, hurt, betrayed, praised, hated, and much more. A feeling that can be felt by all humans in the world.
They are limited, they are required to meet their needs. Food, drinks, and couples. The life they went through was different, some were lucky. There are those who don't.
All are designed in such a way, to look diverse. Live a girl, sad girl. He was destined to experience grief forever, his life would suffer, because he designed it that way.
"Who is he? Why did he make that girl have to experience grief forever? What happened to him? What mistake did he make, and why did he continue to live in grief?"
"Is he, that person, the creator, is that you?" Ask Lila.
"No, he's not me. I'm not the creator, I'm just a director who sets the storyline that is made to keep going well according to the plot he has designed. From beginning to end,"
"The author, he created. And make up stories for the creatures he created. "
"His goal was to create that sad girl, and why she had to experience grief forever."
"It's not just a punishment, because he made a mistake."
"But he tested the girl."
"Why should he be tested, why did he test the creature he made. Just for a game or entertainment?" Lila asked again.
"Absolutely not, there are some things that cannot be told. Because only he knows what's best, what's not."
"Even if the best is not what you want, but if that's what you call a need. Everything must be fulfilled,"
He tested it every day, whether he would love himself. When everyone even hated him and there was no taking his side at all, would he still accept himself. Although he realized in him there was nothing valuable, and no one wanted to accompany him beside him.
One day a sad girl meets a happy man, a man whose life is always happy forever. And the man asked, "Until when do you want to be happy?"
"Forever." The girl answered.
"What happens next to the sad girl?" Ask Director Angel To Lila.
"He killed her."
"Why?"
"Because that person doesn't want to listen to the advice of others" Lila cried.
"Not that."
"Then what?" Ask Lila.
"You have to find the answer yourself, you can go back to Magonda right now. And back to being the happy Lila forever,"
"But there's something you have to sacrifice?"
"What?"
"You can't fall in love."
"You agree?" Director Angel.
Lila was crying it was a tough decision, but Lila thought it was all over. Since Salwa's love is gone, maybe she will never fall in love again. Because it was only Salwa, the woman shook her heart.
"Alright, I'll do anything just to get back to Magonda."
"Hahahahahahahahahah!" Director Angel laughed out loud. The creepy evil laugh of an angel, is he really an angel. He could have been a demon who had a lot of gimmicks.
The voice that boomed until it sounded so loud, Lila's ears almost budgeg. Because his voice was like the roar of lightning, the night sky arrived just filled with a powerful flash of lightning.
The wind******black pickaxe began to envelop the figure of Director Angel who had been in white robes again changed into a black-robed figure without a face.
Bringing the grim reaper sickle from the human's repeating bone, "Alright! See you there." He spoke with a wide open mouth full of fangs, his eyes burning red. And he did not have a face only eyes and mouth that floated without a base of facial skin.
Then he flapped his robe and turned into a black owl, the owl attacked Lila.
"Yeah! Why these? Toloooooong!" Lila fell from the thirty-floor building, because it was the owl that pushed her into the ravine of the building.
"And brug!" Raga Lila redeemed the earth.
And black, dark.
