A Man Who Can't Fall In Love Because He Was A Woman
CHAPTER 10 Parts That Were Not Revealed

Salwa leaves Lila alone. It feels so lonely for Lila who still has a love for Salwa. He can only hold it alone. His life in Magonda is back to the way it was.

Happy forever, Salwa will remain in his mind. He will never forget the figure of the woman he loves, but he can not cry over the departure of Salwa all day. He could not remember the hour-long Salwa, he could not try to grieve alone for just a few minutes.

Magonda's miracle forced her not to do that, Lila could not be upset. Because Magonda always makes him happy, and forgets with sadness.

All day Lila was riding the race bike she had, "Huhuhuhuhu!" He screamed in the street like a madman.

Even he did not wear a helmet to protect his head, the look on the face of someone who hid sadness with a happy mask. It was really implied on Lila's face that day, as if her heart was not in a fragile state. His heart was sad, but his body could not do that because he was asked to be happy.

After being satisfied with a wild race without an opponent on the highway, Lila's happy activity resumed. He surfed in the sea Magonda. The sea with waves as big as the coast of Hawaii, as beautiful as Bali, in the crowded Magonda residents with bikini clothes and bare chest.

From noon until the end of the day. The orange sky that afternoon, became the cover of happiness that occurred on the first day he returned to Magonda.

After surfing, with a surfboard that automatically regulates the wave rate. Without having to be played by Lila, the board moves and surfs alone. While Lila is standing on it, just laugh happily and enjoy the sensation of surfing that does not need to be tired of being played by ourselves.

Lila was sunbathing on the beach chair while enjoying the beautiful setting of the sun, that afternoon. His face was radiant, but his heart was wounded sadly. Lila wanted to cry all day that day, but as you know in Magonda. There is no sadness.

The sad girl had left, leaving the happy man alone. A man who has a happy feeling forever.

After spending his day outside with the happiness activities he wanted. Then he came back after nightfall, in his house now all he wanted was to fall asleep.

He went into his room and immediately jumped into the soft bed he had. The beach clothes he used earlier, now turned by itself into a man's nightgown. That's where the hallucinations start to appear.

As Lila turned to turn off the sleeping lights that stood upright in the drawer cabinet near the bed, instantly the figure began to appear. The figure he longed for so much, and now he was lying on the same bed with Lila.

"Hi!" Said Lirih.

They looked at each other while bending their hands to make a pillow.

"Hi! Are You Real ?"

"Or I was just hallucinating because I missed you too much, so my mind created an unreal image of you."

"I just stopped by." Reply Salwa.

"My guess turned out to be true, and you're leaving again."

Salwa's eyes began to sparkle sadly, "There's a part I can't tell."

"Is that the only purpose you're here for?"

"Eum."

Lila let out a heavy sigh, "Basic Evil," she widened a smile of sadness.

"Too so come on! Tell me the part that you didn't get to say right now!"

"Because I want to go to bed!"

"Close your eyes!"

Lila looked up to close her eyes, and Salwa's hand grabbed and covered Lila's eyes so that Lila wouldn't peek.

And when Lila opened her eyes, again she returned to Jakarta. His body became Salwa. This was the terminal where he had pickpocketed Salwa's wallet that day.

His face was confused, his heart asked him why he could go back there and what his purpose was. And the bus that was going to be on Salwa that day, finally came.

Lila's eyes looked around, it turned out that the red sports car did not exist yet. This was an opportunity to correct a mistake he made in the past, starting with not damaging the surface of the car with the dagger he was carrying.

With doubt he came, the bus that was ngetem. So far his body, can move as he wants. At the entrance, there was a man with a beach dress up wearing short jeans.

And the Hawaiian-style sky blue shirt, it's unmistakable that Salwa is trapped in Lila's body. He accidentally nudged the body of Lila who was about to enter the bus first.

"Sorry!" Said.

"Wait on! There's something weird. There is a new scene that suddenly appears, this scene should not exist. Why is it that it can appear now?" Inner Lila spoke.

They looked old, "Please ! Just smile. And say it's okay, don't say shit or anything."

"It's okay" Lila replied with a smile.

"What ! Why this, how can I do what I want." Inner Lila was surprised not to play, because she did not believe. What he wants to do, can happen. And it seems that now Salwa's body is fully in control.

"Too so! Can I go in first!" Salwa Pinta.

"Oh yes, please!" Lila made room for Salwa to enter first with the brown suitcase she had dragged behind her.

And here it is, the scene where Lila will greet Salwa. He was busy cleaning his luggage. Lila stood behind Salwa. A nervous feeling began to be felt, before Salwa turned around.

"Hi again!"

"Hi!"

"Oh, where are you going?" Ask Salwa.

"The Queen's Port,"

"Well! Seriously. If it's the same donk, I'm going there too." Salwa answered enthusiastically.

"You know, you want to sit next to me. This seat happened to be still empty" he pointed to the two empty passenger seats that were next to him.

"Sure," answered Lila.

They sat together, Lila was sitting in a chair by the window. And Salwa filled the seat next to her.

"Oh yeah, I'm Lila!"

"I'm Salwa." They shake hands.

I don't know what's going to happen next, because all the scenes of the day were completely changed. The scene of the day should only be filled with scenes of pickpocketing, pursuit, murder, death, and completion.

The story that was supposed to be horrible and full of sadness, turned into the romance of both male female partners. Who went to the beach together. It's strange, I don't know what the author wants. Why he changed the storyline arrived, the story character in it can not do anything but play a role in the story.

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The two of them are now standing enjoying the view of the sea, on the sand of the beach. They said, "When you are born again, what do you want to be?" Salwa asked, her eyes closed by sunglasses.

"I don't know, I don't fully believe in reincarnation." Lila answered, her long hair was scattered in the strong sea breeze.

"You boy?"

"Me! I want to be someone who can love himself."

"One who can accept, one who is grateful, one who is not ashamed of himself."

"A person who does not envy others, does not hate himself because he does not have something that other people have."

"I want to be that kind of person, have you ever heard the story of a sad girl and a happy man?"

The deg! Lila was shocked to hear what Salwa said.

"A story of a sad girl and a happy man?" Ask Lila to make sure.

"Yes." Yeah."

"The story of a girl who is destined to experience sadness forever, and a man who is destined to experience happiness forever."

"You've never heard of that fairy tale?"

"Eum, already. But I don't understand what the author was going to tell me in the fairy tale."

"Why so let me tell you back, about that story?"

Once upon a time, there lived a sad girl. He was a pickpocket. His life was a kara, had no family, no home, lived on the streets, or moved wherever there was a shelter he could live.

His life was destined to be sad forever, he could not have a decent job because he was uneducated. He can only pickpocket and steal other people's stuff.

He never felt part, because his life was always miserable. And he hated himself because there was nothing he could love in him. One day, he met a rich man.

In a terminal where he used to pickpocket, he was very envious because the man's life was much luckier than his life. Even to the extent of the fire, he wrecked the car that the man had with the knife he was carrying.

They met on the bus, the man's car broke down. And the man decided to continue his journey by bus.

Then the sad girl came to the man, "I Love You."

"Let's go out, she said that by dating we can be happy."

"I'm sick of my miserable life."

"I want to be happy" said the sad girl.

The man asked, "When are you happy?"

"Forever." With confidence the sad girl answered that question easily.

And it turns out, without him knowing. The man was an angel, an angel sent by God. To test the sad girl, and it turns out the wishes of the sad girl were conveyed by the angel to God.

God granted the wishes of the sad girl, after the old world was destroyed. Create a new world where everyone can be happy forever. Sad girl, reborn. Being a man who had met on the bus, the form of an angel who had disguised himself as a human. A sad girl is born that way.

"Will he be happy there?" Ask Salwa.

Lila did not reply, she was too shocked to hear the truth.

"No,"

"He can't be happy, because he doesn't love himself."

"He hates himself, and he can never accept himself."

Lila's crying.

"Hahahahahahahah!" Then Salwa suddenly laughed.

And it turns out that it was Director Angel who disguised himself as Lila, he then changed his form back to his sinister form. Instantly time stopped, and darkness began to appear to destroy the beauty of the beach.

"That's the sin you committed, Lila Anggara!" Director Angel.

Lila cried, "Is there a way to break through it?"

"Give me a chance to correct that mistake I made! I beg!" Lila was crying.

"Make a man happy to fall in love." Answer Director Angel.

Lila's eyes were completely rounded, deng! A vague buzzing voice suddenly sounded. At once Lila's body pegged, and she couldn't move.

And sret! It changed place. He is now at KRL station, where Lila and Salwa meet. This is the first day they met.

"OK, Huuft! I have to find me myself. If this were that day, I would have stood there and waited for the KRL train to arrive." Lila spoke for herself.

"Oh it's him, it's me!" Lila pointed at herself who was about to enter the carriage.

"Wait on! I have to do, first step what I have to do. Tell me yourself 'hi Lila, it's Salwa! I am you in the past. I came here to make you fall in love' "

Lila practiced it first, the thing she was going to tell herself.

"No! He would not believe it! He is stubborn, and it is not easy to trust others!" Lila's frustrated.

"ah! Shits ! Where's she?" Lila panicked because the fake Lila suddenly disappeared.

With hurry the original Lila who was trapped in the body of Salwa. Looking for a fake Lila, and just as she was about to get into the train car.

"Brug!" He hit someone.

" Saw!" It turned out to be him, the person Lila was looking for. Happy man.

The romantic scene of slow mo, as the eyes of the two of them met each other.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean it!" Lila said the real thing to Lila was fake.

"Wait on! How can you talk?"

"Emang why?"

"It's not that this is Magonda where everyone just lives their own lives, and does not care about others" replied False Lila.

"Then why can you talk? And we're both talking to each other?"

"Stupid, it's you. Basic ****! " Lila cursed in the heart.

"Maybe fate," Lila replied.

He entered the train first, and on the way the train began to speed.

The fake Lila approaches the real Lila who is trapped in Salwa's body.

"I Love You!"

The deg! The deg! The deg! Lila's heart suddenly sounded.

"Oh so it's like this when I say I Love You to you that day."

"Your heart is pounding," Lila pondered.

"Wait on! Is it this easy? My mission succeeded. He said I Love You, which means he loves me. And my mission succeeded!"

"Ehem! Excuse me, sorry! I don't understand what you're saying."

"Shit! Stupid why don't you just say I Love You too, and that mission will work out to fit easily on the train that day." Lila grumbled in her heart.

"No, not necessarily someone said I Love You. He really loves me."

"I have to introduce him how to love someone, and he has to start accepting the sadness he's been through in the past." The plan Lila made in her mind.

The first day of their meeting, Lila finally knew how Salwa felt. When he said he arrived I Love said to him. And this is the beginning, their love story. The difference is now that Lila changed Salwa, she will play how to become a woman whose ambition is to make Lila fall in love and accept the sadness she once experienced.

"Are we going to see each other again?"

"It wants you, you forgot it's Magonda. All desires will be granted by just thinking about it," that's the first farewell on the KRL train.

The original Lila who turned into Salwa left the old Lila. And he smiled, because he knew he would meet again tomorrow. Because Lila started wanting Salwa.

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The storyline goes back to how it used to be, their second meeting at the same KRL station. Then they walked alone on the beach.

"Come fast! Grab me! You wimps! I know you wanted to hold me that day. But you don't have the guts for that, you coward!"

"Huuf! Do not understand the same you Lil, time must be Salwa who first hold you. She is a woman! First time with men? You loser." Lila inwardly mocked herself.

"Don't keep saying I Love You, later that word doesn't work anymore and doesn't mean anything."

"And when that happens, you have to use action."

"Example"

"God! Basic plain." Inner Lila rumbled.

"Hands, hugs, kisses, make love, maybe."

"What do you want?"

The deg! The deg! The deg! Lila's heart is beating again.

"That's not what you're supposed to ask, but how? Fuck up! You can do it and know how to make love. You snot boy! Why do you feel alone, you can't, now you want to be pretentious and make love that you can't do, not wrong? Hello!"

"No." It was just an answer coming out of Lila's mouth.

The same answer was given by Salwa that day. Now he realized, how difficult Salwa in trying to make him fall in love. After he became Salwa he realized, it was not easy to make plain men to fall in love. A coward who doesn't have the courage to speak his heart.

"Basic! Smooch!" Lila cursed herself again.

He can only speak in his heart, he cannot be the origin of the plash and clear everything. About him who must undergo a special mission to make himself who used to fall in love with him from the future who is now trapped into Salwa who is a woman.

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"Do you want to feel no sadness? With me."

"meaning?" Lila said fake.

"Yes in love, "

The pain is also felt by the real Lila, when the fake Lila does not want to agree to her desire to fall in love.

"That means you don't want to be in touch with me, okay! I can still find a new man who can accept me for who I am"

"And most importantly, she wants to experience sadness with me!" Snapped Lila to her old self.

This is the scene on the beach, when Lila does not want to follow Salwa's desire to fall in love. And experiencing sadness.

"I don't have time!"

The deg! " Oh turns out the reason you're hunting my fugitive is to fall in love immediately, is because of this." Lila's awake.

"Tomorrow I'll wait in Magonda's garden, and decide whether you want to be with me or not?"

Things start to brighten, now Lila is aware of everything. When becoming Salwa Lila felt everything that Salwa felt.

Pleasantly

" Is that true, you agreed to make me feel sorrow."

Mournfully

" Why did you suddenly change your mind in an instant! You agreed and after we kissed why you changed your mind."

Can't say the word "So you already know huh! About sadness. It's painful grief and killing slowly. Then why do you still want me to feel that way Hah!" Ask a fake Lila.

"What exactly is your purpose?"

"I doubt that it is based on love, because love is not meant to kill each other. And interdependent, the purpose of love is happiness not sadness!"

Lied

" Yes I do this so that you feel sadness, believe me this is the best! Because the author wants this to happen. And I agreed to carry out this mission in order to get the best reward for both of us."

Can't be honest

"What mission would require you to lie to the person you love?"

"What mission HUH!"

"Why can I say the best? why do we have to obey the wishes of the author. He should have created only his creation and then finished his task of becoming a God.

"And the rest let us handle it! Our life, we're not her!"

"Because the author knows what is best for his writing, what his character needs so that the story is interesting and valuable." Snapping real Lila to fake Lila.

Sadness over farewell

"I'm sorry! Because I am the thing that is not wanted but still exists. You're right, the unwanted things should not exist in this world. For example, sadness should never exist because no one wants sadness."

"I'm sorry! Because it makes you sick, miserable, and suffering. I-i'm sorry! Because it makes you sad, without knowing you first."

"Goodbye Lila! You'll be happy, I Love You!"

It was everything, circuit after series. Which is summarized into one, all the events experienced by Salwa. All the feelings that Salwa felt. Now Lila understands everything, understands herself and Salwa is the same person. Just different sex, different years of life, different ways of life. But they remain one whole piece which is split into several parts.

It's called manifestation. The reincarnation of Salwa Amerta who lives in Jakarta is Lila Anggara who lives in Magonda. The story of a sad girl and a happy man is both of them.

Will they merge and become one part that is reunited into one whole?

Or will they stay like this to be sad girls and happy men?

Will they be one sad and happy human couple? Just pray!