A Man Who Can't Fall In Love Because He Was A Woman
CHAPTER 2 Is Sadness Worth Paying For Happiness?

What's Not Needed, Can Be Existing And Real When We Want It. In Magonda, the principle is that there is nothing they need because their lives are 100% perfect%. They don't need a place to live, sleep, eat, drink, and they can't poop.

Everything they want will come true, just by thinking about it in their minds. Everything will be real, as if living among the modern technologies of artificial intelligence. Just enough in the mind it'll all be real. For example, in one's mind, one wants a television. The television will exist on its own. Although not needed, but if you want things that do not exist. There's gonna. That's Magonda.

The day has night. Magonda City Center is still crowded in Magonda residents who can be said like crazy, imagining, laughing, happy, alone, each and every individualism.

The beauty of the night is always more beautiful compared to the atmosphere of the day.

The picture is also my scene in Magonda, the beautiful street lights illuminate the entire city. Building high building 70 floors bright luminous, Highlight different light, different. Colorful like a rainbow, red, yellow, green, in the blue sky.

Digital TV screen installed in the building degung, always play Magonda profile video. And there was also the voice "Magonda Is Heaven For Everyone Forever,"

"Magonda Is The Best" That Jargon is always called by the voice of women with a flat tone, like the sound of okay google.

The atmosphere of the advanced city is emblazoned in Magonda, how well to explain it. High-rise building, magnificent, public facilities that are no less good. There is a roundabout in the middle of which there is a fountain, which automatizes throwing milk into the air. As scheduled, the night sky that looks like a galaxy filled with all the stars as a painting that accompanies the moon.

Magonda, there is no city in this real world that can beat the charm of Magonda.

WADAW, I'm sorry to be so arrogant.

The image of heaven promised to those who have passed through death, it is depicted in the modern city of Magonda. Full of advanced technology that does not exist on earth, as if living in a world of robots governed by artificial intelligence.

Everything in the human mind can be real.

Lila, he went to the vacant lot in the center of Magonda. Their dwellings were close to each other and the people who lived there, as if they were neighbors. But just stay next door.

Do not greet each other, do not care for each other, do not hate each other, live each other and independent. Only their living quarters are close to each other but they are not related, because as has been explained if they do not need others.

They are already happy alone, and they never have the thought of connecting with anyone other than themselves.

Okay, let's move on. The vacant land that is where the magnificent apartment that Lila used to live. Now it's like a vacant lot with no buildings at all, just a wide empty street. And when Lila returns, Lila's thoughts begin to form a hallucination that then becomes real.

Stand a hotel apartment slowly, from the beginning of standing. Add each floor, until then ta-da. One level apartment that did not have a peak because it touched the clouds had simply awakened, on that empty land.

He walked into the spacious terrace, similar to the lobby of a five-star hotel. Where it has a door that automatically opens, as soon as Lila's feet step into the front door of the apartment owned by him.

Without hesitation he just entered, yes youes anyway all this is his.

As Sultan, everything in the contents of the apartment is in accordance with what Lila imagines. Once inside, the tiles are made of shiny gems. But not slippery, the architecture and interior design also seems to be made by famous architects. Where all things are installed with the best composition, gold jars as a vase of flowers.

Fragrant flowers that grow as a substitute for room fragrances, a cool breeze from the AC. Because it was night, the room felt warm and comfortable to live in.

After the first step into the living room, there is a sofa from a soft cloud. Aquarium that contains the beauty of the sea and the animals in it, digital TV that is as big as gaban. Her costume turned into a white warm suit, black casual pants, white branded shoes that Lila used also turned into soft and comfortable home fur sandals.

Just change, cling!

And changed, the first thing Lila did was come to the kitchen whose interior design was also so magnificent, luxurious, and complete. The most complete kitchen set, a royal dining table, and there is a refrigerator with many doors.

Behind every door of the refrigerator was something Lila wanted to get, now she wanted to drink something refreshing. When it opens, beuh. Its cold steam that does not hurt the skin, its fragrant aroma. There is no comparison with other refrigerators.

Lila's hand picked up the bottle of Vodka, and she put it on the kitchen counter. Miraculously the bottle opens the bus! just like that, the glass glass is clean of the best glass material in the world.

Came without being told, the wine was poured into a round glass with a glass handle. Keep the wine in it. The wine is deep red, which does not taste intoxicating but calms the drinker.

Then he went to the bathroom, which was very spacious. The facilities are complete there is a shower, bathup, want a warm bath. Or a cold shower can be, like a five-star hotel bathroom. Complete, clean, fragrant, neat, and organized.

As Lila walked into the bathroom, her costume changed again into a soft silk towel. Warm-haired like Lamb fur, comfortable in use. The joints also disappeared, now he wants to soak in a bathtub that has been filled automatically by a golden water tap that leaked warm water.

He just entered, into the bathub without opening first the towel clothes he was wearing. Because of the fit he entered and soaked his sexy body, relaxed selonjoran in the bathub. Then from the sky appeared a rain of red rose petals, rose petals filled the bathub water as if enveloping Lila's body.

The wine from earlier he held in his hand, as if automatically feed and enter into the mouth of Lila gaping because as a form if he wants the wine to enter. While drinking wine accompanied by the view of the night atmosphere, which was displayed from the translucent glass window to the outside. It is on the top floor which is equivalent to a tall building that is flickering emitting dim light.

Music from the phonotograph is automatically played. Twist the black plate of the song cassette, blowing off the shiny golden speaker. Produce beautiful music that calms the soul.

It was a picture of the beautiful night atmosphere in Magonda, all the things that are on the mind of every human being can change for real. No matter it is what is needed or not, as long as the mind owner wants something. It must have just materialized. Without in the pinta, without the need to wait for long, without having to make an effort, immediately there just like that in plain sight.

Magonda Heaven World, Where Humans Live Happily Forever.

Tomorrow, What Lila Does. Lila returns to find out if she will ever see Salwa again. At the KRL station there is only the only train that goes wherever the passenger goes.

Lila bets on whether she can deliberately meet the person she wants to meet in Magonda. Each time the train stopped, it spewed out passengers who were about to disembark. Lila's eyes explore one by one the many passengers who do not play.

He raised his eye level to find Salwa. One time he failed, Salwa did not exist. Both times, the result is the same. He did not find Salwa, until the count could not be counted by the fingers. Lila still hasn't met Salwa.

The day began to pass, the sense of spirit began to extinguish its position in place by the word surrender. Rare Magonda who has thoughts and feelings other than happy, began to give up her hopes that almost ran aground.

"Huuft!" Heavy breathing.

"That's what you want, we'll meet again." A beautiful voice with a flash sounded in Lila's ears.

Did ya? By expecting Salwa to come, will he really just appear. Concern begins to argue but it never hurts to try.

"okay! Blindfold. Salwa I hope you exist, I hope we meet again now. Salwa appear!" The summoning spell didn't seem to work.

"Gee! ****." Lila cursed to herself.

Then he turned around to leave, the instant the KRL train appeared. Then he stopped, dug! Dugm! Dugm! Slowmo is romantic as Lila turns towards the back.

The smoke of the train rose as the door of the KRL train opened. A beautiful girl, long-haired, wearing a short dress on her knees. Her hair is in tiny pigtails like Mickey Mouse's ears.

Lila blinked, it's Salwa. It was as if an angel had come from Heaven, not Heaven. More precisely the angel who got off the train.

His white flatshoes set on the ground, his smile began to expand when he realized that the one in front of him was Lila. He waved his hand, while Lila was amazed.

Salwa walked up to Lila while holding the string of the soren bag she was carrying.

"Hi!"

"I Love You," Again Lila said the word lightly.

"Haha! Again?" Reply Salwa while giggling.

"No papa kali, as long as you do not often say I Love You, ntar so ordinary. Not good, ntar people who are horrified even become bosen. Because of the constant dread of I Love You,"

"Keep kalo already bosen, must be changed using what?"

"much. Handrails, hugs, kisses, fuck maybe."

"Emang want?" Lila plainly said that.

"Eum, don't know. Unthought. Yes again yeah!"

"Now you want to come with me?"

"Where?"

"Beach."

No need to wait a long time to respond to a request from a woman who made Lila say I Love You said at the first meeting. It's like love at first sight. But Lila has not felt that love, nor has Salwa. Because in Magonda they do not know love.

Maybe they are the first people who will feel what it is like to fall in love, whether falling in love is included in happiness. If it does enter into happiness, then why in Magonda is not allowed the existence of love.

Love is included in sorrow.

Full Day, they spent together. Walking on the white sand in the waves, breezy breeze from the swaying of coconut leaves. The beach seemed to belong to the two of them, there was no one other than the two of them there.

That afternoon they happened to be able to watch the seconds of the sun sinking, accompanied by unimportant chatter.

"Why does the sun have to go? Why doesn't he just stay all day. If the reason was to turn day into night, I guess it was useless. It's the same thing, which distinguishes just dark,"

"After all, they don't need to sleep, do they? Why is there day and night?" Ask Lila

"The sun is also tired, he needs a replacement. He cannot stay all day, if he continues to stay and carry out his duties. That is illuminating the day, he must also be bored, tired, saturated, he also needs rest and needs new things."

"Are you tired?" Salwa.

"meaning?"

"Yes you're tired of not continuing to be happy, you're tired of not continuing to be happy, you feel your life is flat? Because what you feel here is just happy?"

Before answering that question, the Mentari had left first. A moment of darkness, before long the light appeared from the lights that turn on automatically illuminate the entire beach.

Highlight the blonde light from the light bulb that floats on top of them with the help of a cable that twists from end to end. As if the number of oval light bulbs that are many is a star, then the Tumblr decoration is blue, green, purple, yellow, white wrapped around the trunk of the coconut tree. Then the city building behind them also lit up.

Lila didn't know what to answer, a very complicated question. What else does a person need besides being happy?

"Either I don't know, I guess happiness includes a goal for everyone."

"What does night mean to you?" Salwa asked again.

"When the night is just a darkness, you are wrong. Night is not just darkness, but there is beauty behind darkness."

"Sadness, do you think all that sadness is just a painful thing?"

"I'm also curious about sadness, because I've never felt it."

Then Salwa walked closer, her height was different. Salwa is shorter, of course, making Lila slightly lowered her head to see the beautiful face of Salwa. Almost perfect facial structure, slightly pointed rabbit nose, belo eyes, thin lips, black eyebrows fit, perfect pink lip color, cute ears, fragrant hair.

When their faces are close together, the breath is so fragrant and delicious to smell. Heart tremors began to sound on Lila's chest.

"Are you curious about sadness? Do you want to know how it feels?"

"We can feel it."

"How?" Lila asked.

"By falling in love."

Then Lila's lips began to squash, approaching. His fingers touched Salwa's soft lips and shone like they were smeared with lipgloss.

"Are you sure? What if sadness is the worst thing in the world, so Magonda negates that feeling, what if that sadness is the thing that humans hate the most? We don't know if it will make us feel tormented, comfortable, or how? "

"The new thing is very tempting, very interesting and in want to try, but you know what? What are the consequences for those who fall in love in Magonda?"

"Sadness Forever, you are sure to change eternal happiness with eternal sadness. What if we want to go back to happiness, but we can't? Because we've chosen to experience grief for good?"

"Let's think about it first! Before deciding on something, what is at stake for it. It's nothing ordinary, but it's worth it okay?" Lila held onto Salwa's thin cheek while saying very seriously.

His eyes sparkled, indicating that he was not playing with the words he said.

Salwa moved away, a little away. And let go of Lila's soft hand caresses, touching her cheeks, her hair her lips. And her feelings begin to shake due to the effects of Lila's charming charm.

"okay! Let's think about it, think carefully. But I don't have enough time, I want to try things I've never felt. It's sadness, I'm so curious about it. But I can't make it happen alone,"

"Because falling in love cannot be done alone, falling in love is cooperation. That's why I'm asking you."

"Crazy! You have to decide to help me feel sadness or not?"

"I'm waiting for you tomorrow! The Magonda Central Park. I'm home alone okay? So don't follow me in the back? You can leave after I'm gone!"

"See you, Lila!" Disappointment was clearly on Salwa's face.

There was nothing to do but obey Salwa, letting him go alone. Leaving Lila alone with guilt.

Lila felt so wrong, and so cowardly. A man should dare to risk everything for the woman he loves, Salwa did not ask Lila for her life. Salwa just wants to feel sadness with Lila, whether Lila will decide to grieve with Salwa. Why Lila is afraid of sadness.

In Lila's point of view, maybe sadness is not just a betting material. Because what was sacrificed was happiness, Lila also wanted a new color in her life. Happiness feels flat and boring, but is it the right choice to maintain a happy destiny forever with eternal sadness.

Is sadness worth paying with happiness, which is better sadness or happiness?