THE PRINCE OF THE SUBCONSCIOUS
eps.13

I woke up because my phone was ringing, Vareel who called me asking me to accompany him to buy a birthday present for his sister. It turns out I woke up late, aunty has left for work, after taking a shower I went to the dining table, can not wait to eat aunt's cooking. I found a piece of paper as usual if I had breakfast alone.

"Sorry baby, I'm not waiting for you to have breakfast."

I smiled reading that. After breakfast, Vareel picked me up. Kamisun. I chose a large brown teddy bear as a birthday present for her sister Vareel. The day is getting late, my stomach can not be invited to be friends again, ask to be filled again. We glided into a restaurant close to campus, where we were studying.

"Have you heard from Yudha or Alen yet?" Vareel asked while driving on his way home.

"I've been waiting, but it's been almost a year. I tried to contact him but it was in vain Var" I said, pensively.

"Maybe he has a problem and has his own reasons for not contacting you. You're patient Alen, he'll come back one day, let alone he's promised you, right?" Back Vareel tried to give me peace.

"If you're honest, I'm tired of waiting for Yudha. But since I love her so much, I'll still wait for her Var!" I said.

Vareel always faithfully accompanied me, even once he said that if one day Yudha betrayed me, he was still patiently waiting for me. And according to my observations, Vareel never said he had a girlfriend. He said college first, easy courtship problems. Vareel, always makes me smile when I'm sad, that's why I feel at home next to him.

I don't think I've finished my college. The title of doctor which is my dream since childhood has been achieved. I cried happily in the arms of Auntie, the great woman who had always supported me all this time.

But it feels like something is missing, today even 2 years there is no news from Yudha. I miss him so much, I need him right now, want to share happiness together right now, but it's like a dream to me. All this time I have stayed waiting for him, it is not easy for me to betray him. Even though Vareel in various ways wanted me to accept it, but it was very difficult for me, I still held a sincere love for Yudha. I gasped in shock as my phone rang, the Elen twins calling me.

"Congratulations my dear brother, your dream has been achieved today!" Elen said, his voice sounded very cheerful.

"Thank you my dear Elen, if you when is the graduation dear?" I asked Elen, because he was ready for Graduation also this year.

"Thursday, sister, do not forget your promise, doctor, you have to go to Jakarta!" Elen took another appointment, I smiled.

"Yes El, but not on Thursday, I still take care of my papers and have to ask permission to the hospital that has contracted me El," I told Elen.

I've been contracted by the hospital here and they asked me Thursday to come to work.

"Not anything sister, the important brother must fulfill the promise of brother. There's someone I'm going to know, you call your sister's boyfriend, let me know you too!" Elen started acting again.

I'm asserting. I was confused, who would I introduce to Elen? Yudhah? Or who? I endured and expected something uncertain all this time, Yudha had forgotten me, where could I go to Jakara and look for her? Do I have to write a news loss? That doesn't make much sense. I can only hope with my sincere love maybe I can wait patiently for Yudha, whether until when, I do not know.

*****

I am ready to go to Jakarta. Today for the first time I went home, after a few years of accompanying my aunt in Bali. After breakfast, my aunt took me to the airport, but I refused because Vareel had come to take me. I didn't ask Vareel to take me, I initially refused but because he insisted, I finally agreed too.

I was busy with my own thoughts as the plane that was about to take me to Jakarta was already above altitude, my thoughts were far back. Wonderful moments with Yudha, from our white grey days to our last party night of the end of the year 2 years ago. We are a very friendly and friendly couple. All those memories came back dancing in my mind. I didn't feel like crying, my heart felt so sick that my dream was over.

I have to face the reality that exists now. Yudha was not beside me, could she have betrayed me? How's it going now? How's college? One by one, the questions came to my mind. I stared at the ring that was still on my ring finger, I never let go, I was still very much expecting its owner. Slowly I kissed the ring, my tears were flowing. I waited so patiently for Yudha all this time, I loved her so much, even though she never called me. Sometimes I doubt, I want to turn to Vareel but I can't seem to do it.

Slowly I descended the stairs of the plane, Jakarta, my hometown has undergone many changes. I saw that my father, mother and Elen were waiting for me. It's getting pretty, too, my twin. I've seen her picture but she's much prettier if noticed directly. We hugged while letting go of the longing. Mother said, we never change, always spoiled even though we are adults. Maybe because it was just the two of us, and maybe also because we were twins, the bond between us was very strong.

"Why are you Elen, you seem disappointed?" Askaqua.

"My love can not come tomorrow, brother, he again got a job in Jogja and had to leave tonight." said Elen, still look upset also he.

"Nothing dear, I'm still a few days here, definitely still an acquaintance." I comforted him.

He smiled, hugged me spoiled. The turn of my phone that rang, I glanced at the name of the contact that appeared, it turned out Vareel.

"Good night, beautiful doctor, how are you doing there?" Vareel's voice from across there. I smile.

"I'm fine Var, where are you now?" I asked back.

"I'm in your heart baby." said Vareel teasing me.

You Vareel, always teasing me.

"I miss the doctor, so I called, no one's taking me for a walk right now" Vareel started crunching on his phone.

I just laughed and said that I would be home in 3 days. I smiled as I put my phone next to me. I saw Elen was ready to shower me with questions that would corner me, I smiled at him.

"Love brother huh? So smile, know dong, what's his name?" Elen began to investigate.

I shook my head, Elen's getting adjusted. I also told Elen that my relationship with Yudha was getting further away, because there was no news from Yudha, I never mentioned her name to Elen. I also told him about Vareel. Fuck the twins, he asked me to accept Vareel's love. I just smiled shakes. I will keep waiting for Yudha until I get certainty from Yudha herself about our relationship.

*****

Today Elen is very cheerful, his lover promised to visit. I also adjusted, who is the one who managed to make my twin this happy?

"She must be surprised, brother, would not have thought that I have a twin who does not lose cntik also brother!" Elen said as we were busy making lunch in the kitchen together.

Elen claimed to never tell her lover if there is a twin, maybe this is a surprise for her lover. I smiled, the same thing I did to Yudha. I never told Yudha that I had a twin brother. We laughed when we found out.

The doorbell rang, Elen swiftly ran and opened the pinta, I was still busy alone in the kitchen. It must be the person Elen was expecting.

"Sister, come here!" I heard Elen yelling at me. I hurried to tidy my hair while heading towards the living room.

For a moment I was stunned, shocked, I could not believe who I was looking at now. That face seemed familiar to me, as it was very close to me, the figure I saw was also surprised. Or maybe I'm wrong? The man who now stands beside my twin Elen, is the figure I have been waiting for, Yudha. I pinched my own hand, was I dreaming? It doesn't seem like my hands hurt when I pinched. Elen looks happy and happy, he managed to make his lover surprised because he had a twin brother. While I was just standing there, looking at the man who was now right in front of me.

"Honey, you know dong, this is my twin Alen. He has become a doctor and will work in Bali where he studied. I'm sorry I wanted to surprise you, so I never told you I had a twin brother in Bali." With a cheerful face Elen pulled my hand to shake hands with her lover.

It was as if a thousand needles were raining down on my heart, I was wounded, when I heard very heavily that he mentioned the name of Yudha, the beloved of Elen. I looked at Yudha trying to find out the truth about what I saw now in her eyes. I tried hard in his eyes as I ventured to shake hands with him. Without me noticing her eyes were fixed on a ring that was still curling sweetly on my finger. For a moment he was stunned and looked at me, I turned my gaze to my twin Elen, trying to smile in the wound in my heart that felt so much pain. Slowly I left the two of them in the living room, crystal clear flowing down my cheeks very swiftly. I felt that Yudha's gaze could not be separated from me, but I did not care, I had enough to endure and wait this long.