The Perfect First Love
Honest

''Astaqfirullahalazim, Qilla what happened to your face? who did this Mama replied honestly Qilla Mama never taught you to lie so Mama replied.'' Mama Rosa was surprised to see Syakilla's cheeks flushed red.

''I'm not pa pa kok Ma, '' answered Syakilla

''How are you! your cheeks are red like this, replied Mama Qilla, Mama does not like if you lie to Mama yes, ''' Mama Rosa.

''Ma, already yes Qilla tired now mending later aja Qilla clearinnya yes?, ''' said Syakilla berkilah

''Mama will not let you in the room if you have not explained why with your cheeks, said Mama Rosa.

''Qilla promised later Qilla would clear but now let Qilla take a bath first, said Syakilla again.

''Okay, but Mama will wait in your room, Mama knows you are Qilla, surely you will find a way to cover all this from Mama, ''' said Mama Rosa again.

''Where is this? do I have to be honest if this is Papa's act?, but it's not better if Mama knows Mama can't make me anymore to not hate Papa?, Inner Syakilla.

''Why even bengong ayok he said he wanted to take a bath Mama wait inside, said Mama Rosa.

''I.ya, '' answered Syakilla not knowing how to avoid it anymore.

Syakilla went into the room with her mother who followed behind like a prisoner.

''Udah shower there, do not wait long Mama wait here,'' said Mama Rosa sitting on the mattress Syakilla.

''I.ya Ma not long, '' answered Syakilla.

''Well, why are you still here?'' said Mama Rosa again.

Syakilla could not answer any more and she went into the bathroom.

''What should I say? am I being honest or not?, why can be a gini anyway?, murmured Syakilla saw herself in the mirror inside her bathroom.

''But if I'm honest Mama must blame her again, '' Syakilla kept talking to herself instead of taking a shower.

Tired of thinking about what she was going to say to her mother Syakilla, Syakilla finally started cleaning herself and soaking in the bathtub to clear her very tired mind today.

It's been almost an hour since Syakilla came out of the bathroom. Mama Rosa who waited became upset herself and banged on Syakilla's bathroom door.

''Qilla, what are you doing again? long ago not finished, either? you no longer avoid?, cried Mama Rosa behind the door of Syakilla's bathroom.

Actually Syakilla was finished from earlier but he was reluctant to go out and hoped that the mother had gone from her room. But he was wrong and his mother was still waiting for him to finish.

''Jawab be honest rather than getting complicated later,''' Syakilla decided to tell the truth without covering anything up or lying.

Syakilla came out ready with the pajama shirt she used to wear when she was at home and did not wear her hijab anymore.

Slowly but surely Syakilla approached Mama who was still loyal in her soft mattress.

''Why so long anyway? bored Mama waited for him from earlier!, said Mama Rosa.

''Because Mama wants to hear your honesty, so you can not cover anything from Mama, now do not give much now sit the story with Mama why with your face, '' said Mama Rosa.

Syakilla was hard to keep telling the truth to her mother was sitting next to her mother.

''Mama hope you do not lie to Mama dear, '' Mama Rosa said holding Syakilla's cheeks that were still red even though not as red as when she came home earlier.

'' But if Qilla is honest Mama don't blame Mama herself anymore like she used to, '' Syakilla said.

''What is your Papa doing again?'' Mama Rosa immediately guessed who Syakilla meant because there is no way Syakilla spoke like that if not the person who did this had done it before.

Syakilla only nodded her head not daring to answer anymore and could only look down to hide her nearly spilled tears.

''Mama saw that Papa would not be able to change Ma, so Mama did not expect too much of the man until whenever Syakilla would not forgive him Ma, said Syakilla shed her tears.

''Darling,'' Mama Rosa said she could not answer Syakilla and embraced Syakilla affectionately.

''Ma, Qilla really hates him now Mama does not have to say anything to defend the man again Ma, said Syakilla.

''Mama apologizes dear, Mama can not protect you from your Papa, said Mama Rosa blamed herself.

This was what Syakilla did not want that her mother would definitely blame herself again if she was telling the truth.

''This is not the fault of Mama, it is her fault that Qilla hated the man so much, Syakilla said again repeating the word hate.

''This is also the fault of Mama dear, '' said Mama Rosa.

''This is why Qilla does not want to be honest with Mama because Mama will blame herself like this, Syakilla said upset with Mama.

''But Mama hopes you will forgive your Papa, maybe he accidentally did that, Mama apologized for him dear, sorry Papa you yes,'' Said Mama Rosa who had never even thought of Syakilla.

''Ma'' Syakilla said instead of yelling at Mama unconsciously.

''Mama why the hell has always been defending the man and now Mama apologizes for what she did, this is not what Syakilla wanted Ma to do, open your eyes if the man does not even love Qilla in the slightest Ma, why Mama even apologized for him, said Syakilla surprised by the way his mother thought.

''Mama knows dear but she will remain your Papa until whenever there is no former father Qilla, Mama understands you hate her because you have a reason for that but Mama also has her own reason why Mama always told you not to hate your Papa, replied Mama Rosa

''What is the reason Ma, What?'' Syakilla said as much as possible to hold back his emotions but his tears could not be held back anymore.

''Qilla, Mama does not want because Mama you hate your Papa, you must understand that Mama does not want you to misdirect Qilla, God will hate Mama if you hate your Papa,'' Said Mama Rosa.

1tl''Ma I've been trying all this time Ma, I try not to hate Papa, but I can't Ma, it's too painful for me and I know Mama's sick too right?,'' Syakilla said she could not hold back her tears.

''It is important that Mama has reminded you of Qilla and Mama continues to pray that someday you will not hate your Papa again,'' Mama Rosa said and came out of Syakilla's room still crying.

''Why, why am I wrong Ma, this is so unfair, I feel the pain why can't I hate him?, murmured Syakilla after her mother came out of her room.