My Husband's
Disdain

I opened my phone. See all my social media notifications. There are so many messages sent via Messenger that I haven't read yet. I started to reply one by one. If it's my friend I'll retaliate. But if it's a man who invites me to meet will immediately I delete. I did not want to damage Mas Fandi's trust that respects my privacy but I was instead given freedom of privacy including hp password and social media.

While I was typing the message, I heard the sound of footsteps approaching. Without looking, I thought it was Mas Fandi.

"Just a minute, Mom. I'm balesin chat temen me again. Five minutes to go."

He sat directly in front of me. However, I felt a different fragrance from her. This perfume I know him well. My feet immediately shook. I know who he is. With courage, I looked at her too. True allegations. He is Mas Hadi, my ex-husband. With her pretentious style she looked at me with a condescending look.

"Beautiful to you after I got divorced. Wearing what?"

"The chair has its owner, you better go." I gathered the courage to throw him out. I was afraid that he would meet Mas Fandi and vilify me in his presence.

"Dare you to throw me out. Basic women are useless. You still have rich men. Not aware of yourself. I'm barren, uneducated, pesky carrier, again." 

Mas Hadi's words successfully cut my heart. It was like a big spear that hit my heart. It hurts so much.

I choose to give up. I got out of my seat to go outside. But unexpectedly, Mas Hadi hit the glass with a spoon. It makes everyone focus on us. I who had just turned back behind him instantly stopped my steps.

"You know this woman?" Mas Hadi walked around me who was still standing.

"She is a barren woman!! Uneducated, and an unlucky carrier!!" Mas Hadi looked at me with hatred.

My body shakes. I don't know how to. Everyone looked at me with a condescending look. Some of them whispered to each other while occasionally looking at me.

My tears fell. Right now all I want is to go all the way from here.

"In addition, this woman also hurt my wife's child. She's jealous because my wife has children and she doesn't." Mas Hadi shook his head in disappointment while looking at me. All visitors appear to be recording this action of Mas Hadi.

I wanted to answer but my throat felt choked. I can't make her shy hornbill sound. My body was shaking more and more my tears were flowing more and more.

Mas Hadi turned his head and was surprised to see Mas Fandi. I feel weird seeing it. Do they know each other?

"Sir Fandi! So you..."

"Oh, so you're my future wife's ex-husband?" Mas Fandi stared hard.

"Wife candidate? Mr. Fandi, be aware. She's just an uneducated woman and a man...."

"I said shut up. For me Ana is the most perfect woman in the world. And you said he wasn't educated? You look like an uneducated person. Insulting a woman who has served five years but you reward her with an affair. Is it worth someone like you to be called an educated person?"

I'm moved. So great was Mas Fandi's defense of me. I immediately wiped my tears and smiled at him.

"Now it's better you leave before I unpack more embarrassing things about you." Mas Fandi pointed at the exit. In haste Mas Hadi left the restaurant accompanied by a call from all visitors.

"I'm sorry for this mess. The boys who recorded it, can they delete the footage?" 

Compactly they all nodded then deleted the video footage earlier. They know who Mas Fandi is. They certainly don't want to deal with him.

After that, Mas Fandi took me out of the restaurant after previously paying.

We got in the car.

"An, are you all right?" Fandi looked at me seriously.

I nodded and smiled followed by a smile from Mas Fandi. He just doesn't know that after this I'm going to get away from him. I don't want to be a burden on her life. My meeting with Mas Hadi had made me realize that I was indeed inappropriate for Mas Fandi. Good bye, Mom.