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Disappointed With Farrel's Attitude

Farrell chose to continue his relationship with me. But ask me to be patient in a moment. I promise to be with him under all circumstances.

“I beg you not to leave me, Ay! Wait for me, I'll finish this. It's hard to escape this snare of opium. I'm confused!” Farrel bowed lethargicly as he revealed his stubbornness.

Addicts whose lives are already dependent on illicit goods are hard to stop. It takes encouragement and motivation to give encouragement to them in order to recover.

“This is the burden on your parents? Have you ever tried to express your heart's desires without their orders and pressures?” ask me and get a head-butt from him.

Poor thing, that's my empathy for him. Maybe if I was in his position would not be able to have to live it alone.

Much Farrell revealed to me that afternoon. The desire of his parents that requires him to be the best. It is able to make Farrel run it but the ability of someone has a limit.

Farrel's father had an attitude of restraint and did not want to be denied, sometimes often giving punishment if Farel did not make him proud.

From childhood Farrel must excel, must boast the name of parents.

And that Farrel can get even though his mind is burdened.

“You can do it, Rail! You can certainly escape from this blasphemous entanglement. I'm always with you, we find a way to all this. The biggest risk is that your parents should know about this problem,”, I said as I clasped Farrel's hand.

I saw doubt there. But Farrel nodded slowly for the next second.

Farrell and I momentarily forgot about our troubles, it was a pity to be in this place just to regret what had happened. Better to entertain yourself by watching. Music show here.

Farel did not stop taking my hand off.

I know actually Farrel is a good guy just that he chose the wrong way. If I leave him at this moment it's the same as if I pushed him into the black valley it's getting deeper.

He just needs a friend to share, a friend to complain, a friend who is able to listen to all his heart. And the hope is so great for me.

I'm the same, I need to be spoiled and loved by someone and as long as I'm dating Farrel I get everything from him.

Almost three hours I was with Farrel at that place. What a fun musical performance for me.

“Why you?” I asked when I saw the strange gelagat already seen in Farrel.

“Ay, help me get home to my room! Please I don't want anyone to see me like this!” door me.

His body was cold, his hands were trembling slightly. Farrel's face has changed. I can't bear to see him in such a state.

My boyfriend seemed to be enduring the pain of drug dependence.

I nodded slowly. Luckily I was able to ride Farrel's motor sport, my lover taught me several times.

“You can still hold, Rail?”

Farrel nodded slowly.

Finally I rushed to take the shivering Farrel away from that place.

“Why not go to your house?” I asked when I helped Farrel into his room.

“There were my parents, on the road earlier that proved the horn, my father's car!" he replied with a trembling voice.

I kept quiet and didn't answer, I focused more on the streets. It is also very heavy riding a sport bike.

We went into the room, Farrel locked the door and pulled the key and picked it up. Maybe he's afraid I'm running away from here.

I was afraid when Farrell did that, afraid that he would act beyond my limits.

“I won't hurt you, Ay!” Said Farrel who understood what I was thinking.

I didn't dare approach Farrel afraid that his words didn't match reality. But I saw my beloved walking to the corner of his room and then sitting there hugging his knees.

His body trembled violently, Farrel hid his face between his legs.

There are no words I hear from him. Like ‘kah reaction of addicts if not directly using the illegal goods.

‘What your parents never saw this change, Rail. Or you haven't met them.’

My mind is still silent, watching Farrel.

There were so many changes that I saw in real life, especially the physical changes of Farrel, his body getting thinner. Sometimes my boyfriend seems to not focus on our togetherness.

My diet also changed. Unlike usual, maybe all the consequences of consuming these illegal goods.

“Rel! ” call me.

The man in front of me looked up at me. My eyelids, not long after that I saw Farrel biting his own hand.

I was surprised to see it. Farrel hurt himself in order to endure his pain.

I quickly pulled his hand. So that Farel would no longer hurt himself.

“Don't be like this, Rel!” my spoken.

An angry look I got from Farrel but only for a moment, the next second Farrel stood up and turned his back to me against the wall.

Farrell repeatedly hit the wall with his hand. Until that hand bruises on him.

“Enough! Enough's enough! Why is it like this, what a pain it is holding back that addiction, Rel!” I said, holding Farrel's hand back.

Farrel brushed my hand.

His body slumped just like that, Farrel hugged his legs again.

“Rel....,” I call me with the same shaking voice and sobs. It was so painful to see him in such a state.

The man before me was struggling against his desire to take a forbidden medicine that could calm his soul.

I can see his struggle now.

Farrel did hand over all the ill-gotten things he had in his pocketbook to me.

He claimed the item, he had just taken it from someone. I didn't ask who got it.

I don't care, the one thing I have to do right now is save Farrel from the agonizing pain.

I hugged the body that was cowering coldly on the white floor.

"we'll get through this together. You can do it, Rel!" I said with a cry that accompanied.

“I'm here, I'll help you, Rel! What should I do to relieve you of this pain?” I said slowly as I continued to hug the body that looked a little thin.

I feel like there's a movement that Farrel's making his eyes light up at me, this heart is shaking violently. There is a fear I feel.

“You want to help me?” Farel stood up while holding both shoulders and pulled my body to stand up.

My body was pushed to the bed with a bang.

“Rel, what are you doing? Not what this is meant to be! I will help you in another way,” I said fearfully. Afraid Farrel would do something to me.

“I can't stand it, Ay! Pl-please... Give me that stuff, I beg you!” Farrel approached me and pulled the sling bag I was wearing but I could hold it.

“You want to use that stuff again?”

“This time only, please!” Farrel was caving to me.

I shook my head. It turns out Farrel's speech doesn't match reality. His intentions are not as big as his addiction.

I pulled my bag back. So that Farrel does not return to take the illicit goods.

I saw the look of Farrel's angry face. My body was forcibly pulled by him.

“Give me, Ay!” he shouted at me with a high tone.

I shook my head again.

“You promised not to touch it again!” I keep insisting on holding the bag that Farrel was looking for.

Farrel kept stepping closer to me, until this body could no longer retreat.

“Rel, relax! You will never ruin my life ‘kan?” I tried to resuscitate him when our faces were very close.

I felt her warm breath.

“You don't feel what I'm feeling right now! So sick! You don't know it.” Farrel smiled cynically at me.

There was no gentleness in his attitude this time, my Farrel changed. Dependence on illegal goods has changed everything.

My sad look gave him.

“Better I die than not consume it.” Farrel kept coming at me.

It was sad to hear Farrel's words. He kissed my ears slowly. The tears don't just flow on these cheeks.

Pull the bag I could do. Farrel snatched away the bag I was holding tightly, until my bag strap was cut off because he pulled it violently.

After getting my bag, Farrel ransacked the contents of my bag, looking for something I had stored in there.

After obtaining the illicit goods that I intended to burn, Farrel passed from before me. He walked hastily even to hit the nightstand in front of him. The bathroom is the goal right now.

I could only be silent as I wiped away the tears that kept flowing down this cheek. Disappointed with Farrell's attitude.

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