I'm Grateful to Have Him
Episode 20's

I do not feel like 3 months of effort has been shaken, so the sentence of conversation this morning between me and my friend a 4-star hotel owner in Jogja, this is, 

Sipping coffee I saw his face full of turmoil,

I understand what he feels, can be overshadowed 4-star hotel without income with its high operation makes anyone sure headaches made

A lot of people are going through a down phase right now, a condition where the world seems to be spinning upside down, and everything seems to be on our side.

As a person who is not good at expressing feelings, a number of friends have asked me, he said, 

How are you feeling right now? 

Without a doubt I answered in the first month of the pandemic was certainly very depressed and stressed . 

Like a feeling of fullness after eating, this condition must have been experienced by anyone, “ life is never flat “. For every happiness, there will definitely be a moment in the wave of life where I am at the bottom.

Recovering from a depressed condition is certainly not an easy thing. 

This condition can even turn a productive person into a very dormant one. Eating bad, sleeping bad, working dumb, everything's a mess.

However, the down condition could have been a turning point in my life, depending on how I react. Have a number of down experiences that eventually lead to becoming a more mature person

There are many of us trying to deny the feeling of down. 

How's that supposed? 

Have you ever said "i'm rapopo", "I'm okay", or put on a fake smile when I'm down? Yes that... In psychology, this is called the denial phase.

Lying to feelings may make you forget for a moment, but it will only prolong your self-healing .

When the first month of the pandemic I was very depressed and stressed the next month I started to accept the situation.

By not lying down and making peace with the situation I more easily find a point of trouble. 

being honest with feelings turned out to make me ready faster in the face of new realities. Although denial is normal, I have to make sure that I don't get caught up in this phase for too long.

When yesterday was in a stressful time, the way I took was to allocate a full day just to let the distress bombard me from within. I blamed myself, I kept silent all day. The most important thing for me is to spend that day feeling depressed, and not let anyone else get hurt.

What distinguishes successful people from losers is what they do when they are in the down phase. Not infrequently, though, great people are born precisely because he managed to change his down condition into an opportunity to dart away even though many people who eventually fell for taking the wrong escape when it was down.

Wouldn't it be that if we were at the bottom of life, it meant that there was no other choice but to soar ...???

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Because the fan is damaged if sleep feels hot

I did my door a dozen years ago

Mom's answer at the time : 

patience well.today you sleep in this narrow room without a fan, someday you will have a nice house

Then the father assures ...

I feel like I saved a lot of his life because of angels. 

I have a guard that's tougher than a bouncer. 

I have a more loyal listener. 

I have lovers who are better than lovers of love stories that are diligently listened to. 

I have angels.

My angels are different, not flawless angels.

My angel is mother, and I am mother's flatterer.

I'm a flatterer, 'cause I know exactly who's contributing to my life. If I am troubled and the whole universe turns away, then mother is there.

He taught praying right, living life sincerely . 

A dozen years ago I often heard my mother raise her hands high begging and praying for me to succeed and live well, pray and pray. 

And I found myself in this moment, living a decent and prosperous life.

Now Mother's prayer works for me, more than I ever expected.

Mother's prayer is now granted.

Mother hug

Jogja june 3, 2020