Caterpillars & Leaves
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I left my life in this city, Surabaya, my family and my job

this is again boarding dear (i said to him)

before my plane took off from Juanda International Airport

his wife to mas??? (says a mother beside me)

yes ma'am ...

how not invited??

in the village of ma'am, take care of anak² (my word to mother² sitting next to me)

ooh what's his son??

confused I answered ,, I said 3 or 4 I forgot..

I tried to pretend² fell asleep to avoid the obvious questions I was manipulating my circumstances.

I took a new step to fight for it.

fighting for a love I don't know where the end of everything is.

go to (Balimantan)

I visited the land on July 6, 2022

I was there just for him. I fight only for every moment to be able to relate to him . Every moment without any fear away from him . Although me and him still remain the same² far from the word near. yaaah he is still in his place . Westward across the ocean from me...

Hari² I passed here

yank, honey....

I've been here on the land of Kalimantan. This time every time I just for you. every time I am with you.Yeah even though we are still separated and only through social media. At least this time I'm right² intact for you..

(take him )

don't say that. I feel like I have debt and feel guilty (he said to me )

At least you know. That I just started to sacrifice for you ((((my words to him)))

Every day we communicate...

a forbidden relationship that I maintained and I fought for. many dream² between us two.

I've never been this happy as much as all my race has been to someone. I'm right² blinded for all love. About me who loved him so much.

Loving a mother of 2 children, a wife of a man I don't know...

Everything is going well my relationship with him well² course no storm any everything is calm ...

One day she said her husband knew

someone called me at the time..

Hello this guy who loves my wife the same???

(take the man)

sorry, yes bang (i was in the wrong position with my tenor saying what it is ...

know dak you (he cheated a lot of men² him besides you. related sort of² behind me (said the man )

yes bang sorry I don't know ..(with a desperate tone to hear all that I say so )

there were so many questions² asked me and so many things he told me.

until I found out that there wasn't only me in her life. Dab turns out there's another guy² in his life.

Until I was right² surprised I was right² not strong I can only try to hold all my broken hold all my tears held all my fear.

Until I asked him

it's true but. bla bla bla...

said me....

Until he has all. And including the massalanya that so sliced me. I'm right² torn by it.

As if I was right² pushed into the abyss..

I'm right² killed.

Yes I am a² But I end up crying I cry my life crying for my way.

I could only be silent every night . to be in a quiet corner with drops of my tears.

I can only stare blankly.

I don't know what else to do.

I don't know anymore right² don't know........

do I have to stop???

do I have to properly² stop???

Ragaku right² is no longer able to hold back. Really I am in the right phase of bad².my soul and body are right² is being torn....

Want me to go, Benar² go from this mortal world....

I don't want to think about anything else...

don't want to burden anything anymore...

I want to let go of everything that exists regardless of anything and whatever...

I really really true² can't...

A part of my head said stop....

you are in vain²kan by him

A part of my head says hold on....

this is the path you choose and must take

what I told myself....

this is just the beginning, should I stop??

no. I have to endure anything and whatever the circumstances . Because of my great love for him.

I'm sorry I haven't been honest with you (he said to me)

yes gpp (my word to him )

if you want to leave me gpp I accept (he said to me )

I don't miss you, already gpp(my words reassure him ) when my soul and body is right² eroded. I'm right² torn....., I just try as calmly as possible to show that I'm right² good² only. Actuallyno.

I'm right² is not fine² only.....

"For, expressed was sia². Some people just want to know, without understanding"

**This slow is progressing up the esophagus banging on the tightly locked lips² due to asthma.

heartbeats abstruse to hide over the body treading hari², perhaps only mair that can bring mute, or still this spirit is filled with eternal vines

debar nestapa who died²an I press with laughter. Asa who is cared for with treasure is like an ideology that cannot be killed. Heal.heal,,

How many times do I have to press the cue again???????

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