Caterpillars & Leaves
Looks tangled

"Give me a chance to settle down.

Don't you pour tea, you just serve me loyalty."

mociie

The morning blind flooded my dreams. With my soul still unconscious I saw my phone screen, there was no notification.

"Oh God!"

(my surprise in my heart)

yes he blocked my friendship contact (#leaf)

My heart is not calm all my days

I looked into my wife's eyes, though,

" who is he ? "

(he asked me )

"My love"

(i said shiver)

I don't need to tell you clearly how my life and the noise of my household are.

(it doesn't look like anything's okay" ever since I did something crazy in my past, just for the happiness I never got )

Ja. I am a failed priest

I could never teach how beautiful heaven is above my head and the rotten Hell is beneath my feet.

The smart boy who's been watching me.

Everything I did and told him (leaf), he heard, without me noticing my device was linked to his phone

(My little angel, who will become the Priest for his little family) Hope his future is good in my mind.

" Who is this ? "

(take it on leaf)

" Who are you"?

(leaf on him)

I don't know what they're talking about I don't know it just, short sentences that guess everything I know.

" Bad mom "

(the answer says )

as if I didn't think it was due to divorce how to reach her.

Well, my common sense is gone, I'm totally blind.

contacted him using my friend's device,

" I'm sorry, forgive me, please forgive me..."

(i was obviously with him)

"a relationship will never last long if there is no honesty."

(strictly to me)

My chest tightness regretted everything.

I'm devastated, as if what's around me means nothing more. All my days are falling apart I don't see a smile on my lips everything over my happiness is taken away, just because of my stupidity.

I don't want to give up, I don't want to find a justification. I asserted to him without twitching, I gave it to God.

"Don't leave me. I'm begging you, I need you, because I love you"

(that's all I can say, as my mouth has dripped down my cheek)

Obviously I was crying.

Regretting my behavior towards her, fearing losing her.

Yes, my beautiful wife all beautiful things are in her physical form (perfect)

but why is my heart attached to a woman far away, I don't know what she looks like, while she says that she's flawed (not perfect)

my roar is still clearly visible, this dragon is still able to stand upright.

but somehow it felt like thousands of arrows were piercing my body.

"i can't stand it, I give up."

(my spirit speaks to God)

I close my mind, I open my devil's eyes

"I'll be there, if you really leave me"

(my words were firm on her leaf, my heart leaves)

Maybe I'll die or live with all the grief of my age.

I'm aware of myself. I was aware of my condition, (my position was wrong).

My soul and emotions are not good.

"Love the wife of another man, and I have a wife over me"

(especially with its imperfections)

I never knew what was going through his mind right now.

"the woman I glorify from every strand of her sentence and every chant of her voice"

"oh God is he the angel you used for me?, a demon like me!!"

(every day I remember everything)

"I'm not leaving you, I forgive everything. You have to wake up not want me to fail to be your umbrella, you have to be a butterfly"

(he said to me that was sad)

"you'll know a lot of love in each of your paths, not just me"

(strictly)

"you love easily, and you'll do the same thing like that forever"

(strictly speaking )

"i've never believed what you're feeling, it doesn't make any sense (your race to my caterpillar)"

(full of determination to wake me up)

"i'm blind, I can't see everything is dark and there's only a candle in the corner I'm just on that candle"

(my words sip feeling the chest is no longer strong to breathe.)

"I don't care about your race being different from mine, please don't leave me for a second"

(my tears are stirring me close my phone screen)

as I walked to my car I cried my life, I searched every street in Surabaya.

seeing the beautiful people laughing smiling beautifully.

Seeing a young couple making love with love singing laughter hugging tightly in each deckap.

(O Lord for the rest of my life I just want to smile a little at the love of someone who truly loves me and loves me)

Yes, my relationship with my wife did not improve, my relationship with my in-laws did not improve and vice versa from the perspective of my wife's family.

I can never fix it, this is marriage based on differences in principles.

until late I still enjoy the streets of the city lamenting everything that happens.

phoneku vibrates.

" Give me 5 days to get out of touch"

(revealed asking me)

how come? I will never be able to truly never be able, God beg my forgiveness to you, I feel this torments me truly God.

(my spirit is spoken in my heart that is sluggish)

"i can't"

(lady told him)

"you can be a caterpillar, haven't tried yet"

(his friend as if I really am capable)

"Do that as you do, make me fly down to drop me with all you say tonight"

(my spirit in my heart)

ye know? if that's true I'll take my whole life off I won't care about my risk I'll do anything to keep you.(i look at my phone screen with a murmur )

no matter what I do with my soul, even my life.

God created this feeling for me. I don't care about all God

(feel like the devil in my body is waking up)

I want to reach an angel that wasn't made for me..

I challenge my Lord, I challenge the universe that stands in my way.

My sense is completely gone.

My city ceiling is tired of asking

"Who am I to take responsibility for, my fallen heart?"

Seriate......